Ron Carpenter;Hope Carpenter - Fight To Win

December 21, 2024 | S24:E1221

A pastoral couple whose marriage was rocked by infidelity recounts the repentance and supernatural encounters that saved them.

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Life Today with James Robison | Ron Carpenter;Hope Carpenter - Fight To Win | December 21, 2024

Coming up, ron and hope carpenter
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Describe the arduous fight for their marriage
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After adultery.
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>> i remember leaning over the desk and that ugly cry.
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You know! aah! ugly cry.
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And ron said, "oh, no, no, no!"
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"i don't know what this means."
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He said, "i don't know what this looks like or means."
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I said, "but i do!"
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I said, "that's all i needed."
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God gave me my miracle
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And it was that day that we started our restoration.
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Randy: welcome to life today !
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Randy: welcome to life today ! i'm randy robison.
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I'm randy robison. and tammy is not with me today
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And tammy is not with me today because she is
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Because she is actually overseas.
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Very exciting opportunities
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Very exciting opportunities in the future with her.
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Very exciting opportunities in the future with her. but today,
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In the future with her. but today, we have something special
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But today, we have something special for you.
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We have something special for you. i don't know where you're at.
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For you. i don't know where you're at. i don't know
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I don't know where you're at. i don't know what you're facing
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I don't know what you're facing but i can tell you this,
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What you're facing but i can tell you this, if you want victory today
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But i can tell you this, if you want victory today in your life,
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If you want victory today in your life, you're going to have
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In your life, you're going to have to fight for it.
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You're going to have to fight for it. and that's not bad news,
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To fight for it. and that's not bad news, that's good news.
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And that's not bad news, that's good news. and we've got some
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That's good news. and we've got some encouragement for you today.
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And we've got some encouragement for you today. my guests are
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Encouragement for you today. my guests are ron and hope carpenter.
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My guests are ron and hope carpenter. hope has a new book out.
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Ron and hope carpenter. hope has a new book out. it's called
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Hope has a new book out. it's called if you don't fight
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It's called if you don't fight then you don't win .
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If you don't fight then you don't win . there she is putting it
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Then you don't win . there she is putting it right out there.
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There she is putting it right out there. but they've got a story
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Right out there. but they've got a story where they've had to fight.
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But they've got a story where they've had to fight. fight for their church,
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Where they've had to fight. fight for their church, fight for their marriage,
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Fight for their church, fight for their marriage, fight for their very souls.
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Fight for their marriage, fight for their very souls. so, you're going
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Fight for their very souls. so, you're going to be encouraged
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So, you're going to be encouraged as you listen to them.
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To be encouraged as you listen to them. i invite you to lean in
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As you listen to them. i invite you to lean in and accept god's hope
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I invite you to lean in and accept god's hope and word for you today.
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And accept god's hope and word for you today. ron and hope,
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And word for you today. ron and hope, great to have you
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Ron and hope, great to have you on the program!
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Great to have you on the program! hope: yes!
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On the program! hope: yes! so good to be here, randy.
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Ron: thank you for having us.
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By the way,
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By the way, if you missed that program
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If you missed that program you can go to lifetoday.org
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You can go to lifetoday.org and catch up
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And catch up on all the programs.
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On all the programs. but for people
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But for people that don't really know
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You guys have faced,
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You guys have faced, give us a brief version
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You guys have faced, give us a brief version of that.
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Give us a brief version of that. hope: because we don't have
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Of that. hope: because we don't have all day, do we?
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Hope: because we don't have all day, do we? ron: it's like a mini-series.
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Your whole life
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Your whole life has been a struggle?
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Has been a struggle? i feel like for us
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I feel like for us it seems like everything
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It seems like everything that we have tried to do,
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We get that john 10:10,
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We get that john 10:10, the thief comes to steal,
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We get that john 10:10, the thief comes to steal, kill, and destroy
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The thief comes to steal, kill, and destroy wind in our face.
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Kill, and destroy wind in our face. but you know,
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Wind in our face. but you know, once we have embraced that,
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But you know, once we have embraced that, that there are not just roses
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Once we have embraced that, that there are not just roses popping up all over your path
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That there are not just roses popping up all over your path when you say yes to jesus,
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Popping up all over your path when you say yes to jesus, that you do have an adversary,
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When you say yes to jesus, that you do have an adversary, that we have an enemy.
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That you do have an adversary, that we have an enemy. sometimes, the enemy is us
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That we have an enemy. sometimes, the enemy is us in our dumb mistakes,
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Sometimes, the enemy is us in our dumb mistakes, and some of that
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In our dumb mistakes, and some of that has been our story.
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And some of that has been our story. you just embrace it and say,
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Has been our story. you just embrace it and say, i am on this journey
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You just embrace it and say, i am on this journey and i'm going to win.
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I am on this journey and i'm going to win. because the other option is
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And i'm going to win. because the other option is to what?
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Because the other option is to what? to fail, to just give up.
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To what? to fail, to just give up. we're not going to do that.
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To fail, to just give up. we're not going to do that. we have had some journey,
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We're not going to do that. we have had some journey, haven't we?
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We have had some journey, haven't we? randy: we've seen
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Haven't we? randy: we've seen a lot of failure,
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Randy: we've seen a lot of failure, and we hear about them
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A lot of failure, and we hear about them on the news on social media
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And we hear about them on the news on social media within churches.
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On the news on social media within churches. this whole thing
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Within churches. this whole thing almost completely fell apart.
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This whole thing almost completely fell apart. hope: it did.
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Almost completely fell apart. hope: it did. randy: tell us what happened.
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Hope: it did. randy: tell us what happened. hope: well, it started back
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Randy: tell us what happened. hope: well, it started back honestly, if we had time
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Hope: well, it started back honestly, if we had time i can go back.
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Honestly, if we had time i can go back. had no idea --
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I can go back. had no idea -- had no idea, randy,
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Had no idea -- had no idea, randy, that the way i was raised
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Had no idea, randy, that the way i was raised would really affect
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That the way i was raised would really affect who i was as an adult.
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Would really affect who i was as an adult. i thought
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Who i was as an adult. i thought when i changed my last name,
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I thought when i changed my last name, changed my address,
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When i changed my last name, changed my address, and got that ring on my finger
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Changed my address, and got that ring on my finger everything was going to be
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And got that ring on my finger everything was going to be absolutely glorious.
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Everything was going to be absolutely glorious. for a while it was.
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Absolutely glorious. for a while it was. but i could feel the inferno
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For a while it was. but i could feel the inferno kind of growing
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But i could feel the inferno kind of growing on the inside of me,
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Kind of growing on the inside of me, the anxiety.
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On the inside of me, the anxiety. the perfection,
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The anxiety. the perfection, feeling like i had to be
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The perfection, feeling like i had to be perfect at everything,
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Feeling like i had to be perfect at everything, smile at everything,
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Perfect at everything, smile at everything, never show any feelings.
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Smile at everything, never show any feelings. in about 15 years,
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Never show any feelings. in about 15 years, in about 2004,
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In about 15 years, in about 2004, i woke up one day
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In about 2004, i woke up one day and really exploded.
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I woke up one day and really exploded. just like i can't live
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And really exploded. just like i can't live like this anymore.
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Just like i can't live like this anymore. didn't know what that meant
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Like this anymore. didn't know what that meant but just knew that
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Didn't know what that meant but just knew that what i was feeling
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But just knew that what i was feeling on the inside
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What i was feeling on the inside was coming out,
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On the inside was coming out, and it is going to come out
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Was coming out, and it is going to come out sideways in an ugly way.
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And it is going to come out sideways in an ugly way. ron: let me give
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Sideways in an ugly way. ron: let me give some context to that.
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Ron: let me give some context to that. she had never spoken with me
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Some context to that. she had never spoken with me about the things,
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She had never spoken with me about the things, about the traumatic things
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When she met me,
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When she met me, i was already a preacher boy.
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I was already a preacher boy. i was already in bible school.
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I was already in bible school. she didn't want me
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She didn't want me to know the downside,
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That she had been raised in.
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That she had been raised in. so, i had no clue.
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That she had been raised in. so, i had no clue. i just knew i had this woman
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So, i had no clue. i just knew i had this woman that was changing,
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I just knew i had this woman that was changing, and i didn't know
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That was changing, and i didn't know what was wrong
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And i didn't know what was wrong and i didn't know
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What was wrong and i didn't know how to fix it.
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And i didn't know how to fix it. the fact is we grew
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How to fix it. the fact is we grew a very large church,
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The fact is we grew a very large church, god blessed us
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A very large church, god blessed us in a very small city.
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God blessed us in a very small city. the city had 80,000 people
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In a very small city. the city had 80,000 people and we had 22,000 members,
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The city had 80,000 people and we had 22,000 members, so a quarter of the people
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And we had 22,000 members, so a quarter of the people went to our church.
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So a quarter of the people went to our church. and so that only magnified --
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Went to our church. and so that only magnified -- i mean we lived
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And so that only magnified -- i mean we lived in a glass house,
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I mean we lived in a glass house, and everybody had an opinion.
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In a glass house, and everybody had an opinion. and everywhere we went,
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And everybody had an opinion. and everywhere we went, everybody knew us.
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And everywhere we went, everybody knew us. so, what was in her --
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Everybody knew us. so, what was in her -- when you've got
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So, what was in her -- when you've got a cracked foundation
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When you've got a cracked foundation and you start putting
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A cracked foundation and you start putting more weight on it,
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And you start putting more weight on it, it just splits.
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More weight on it, it just splits. so that was a little bit
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It just splits. so that was a little bit about what was happening,
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So that was a little bit about what was happening, the pressure cooker
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About what was happening, the pressure cooker in her life.
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The pressure cooker in her life. randy: what did that split
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In her life. randy: what did that split look like?
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Randy: what did that split look like? hope: well, it looked like
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Look like? hope: well, it looked like that day i went and bought
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Hope: well, it looked like that day i went and bought three secular cd's.
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That day i went and bought three secular cd's. oooouh!
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Three secular cd's. oooouh! that was taboo in my world.
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Oooouh! that was taboo in my world. i bought a six pack of beer
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That was taboo in my world. i bought a six pack of beer and a bikini,
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I bought a six pack of beer and a bikini, had never done that
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It was my way of saying,
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It was my way of saying, i need to figure out
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I need to figure out life myself.
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Life myself. i need to figure out
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I need to figure out
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I need to figure out what's wrong for hope.
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I need to figure out what's wrong for hope. not what my mom says,
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What's wrong for hope. not what my mom says, my dad says, the church says,
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Not what my mom says, my dad says, the church says, the denomination, my husband,
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My dad says, the church says, the denomination, my husband, all of that.
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The denomination, my husband, all of that. because i'd never
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All of that. because i'd never been allowed, honestly,
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Because i'd never been allowed, honestly, even in my teenage years
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Been allowed, honestly, even in my teenage years to make any decisions.
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Even in my teenage years to make any decisions. randy: if it had stopped
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To make any decisions. randy: if it had stopped there, you probably would
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Randy: if it had stopped there, you probably would have had no problems.
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There, you probably would have had no problems. hope: but you know
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Have had no problems. hope: but you know sin doesn't stop there,
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Hope: but you know sin doesn't stop there, does it?
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Sin doesn't stop there, does it? randy: is that what it was?
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Does it? randy: is that what it was? it was acting out,
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Randy: is that what it was? it was acting out, rebellion in you?
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It was acting out, rebellion in you? hope: i think it was.
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Rebellion in you? hope: i think it was. i really do.
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Hope: i think it was. i really do. i believe any time
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I really do. i believe any time we want to do life our own way
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I believe any time we want to do life our own way and not god's way
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We want to do life our own way and not god's way we're on a slippery slope.
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And not god's way we're on a slippery slope. so, ended up in places
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We're on a slippery slope. so, ended up in places i shouldn't have been
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So, ended up in places i shouldn't have been with people
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I shouldn't have been with people i shouldn't have been with.
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With people i shouldn't have been with. i was unfaithful
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I shouldn't have been with. i was unfaithful to my husband.
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I was unfaithful to my husband. this was nine years
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To my husband. this was nine years back and forth
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This was nine years back and forth of just trying --
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Back and forth of just trying -- and then imagine the pressure,
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Of just trying -- and then imagine the pressure, randy, of loving jesus
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And then imagine the pressure, randy, of loving jesus but doing that too.
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Randy, of loving jesus but doing that too. because i really did
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But doing that too. because i really did love jesus.
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Because i really did love jesus. i really was committed to him
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Love jesus. i really was committed to him and wanted to serve him.
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I really was committed to him and wanted to serve him. but i was so confused
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And wanted to serve him. but i was so confused with who i was as a human,
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But i was so confused with who i was as a human, as a person;
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With who i was as a human, as a person; and what was right
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As a person; and what was right and what was wrong.
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Randy: what's funny,
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Randy: what's funny, and i mean that more like odd,
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And i mean that more like odd, is that we do
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Is that we do that kind of thing
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That kind of thing searching for some kind
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But that distance
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But that distance that's inside
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But that distance that's inside is the most miserable place.
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That's inside is the most miserable place. is it not?
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Is the most miserable place. is it not? hope: it was awful.
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Is it not? hope: it was awful. ron: what you run to
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Hope: it was awful. ron: what you run to to find the peace usually
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Ron: what you run to to find the peace usually becomes a heavier weight
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To find the peace usually becomes a heavier weight than what you're running from.
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Becomes a heavier weight than what you're running from. i think she found that
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Than what you're running from. i think she found that to happen in her life.
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I think she found that to happen in her life. in this nine-year period --
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To happen in her life. in this nine-year period -- you have to understand,
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In this nine-year period -- you have to understand, i loved my wife.
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You have to understand, i loved my wife. i'm not one of these guys,
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I loved my wife. i'm not one of these guys, i love one person,
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I'm not one of these guys, i love one person, i'm getting married one time
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I love one person, i'm getting married one time and i adored this woman.
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I'm getting married one time and i adored this woman. but something was bad wrong.
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And i adored this woman. but something was bad wrong. so, then i had to try
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But something was bad wrong. so, then i had to try to be a buffer
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So, then i had to try to be a buffer because i'm trying
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Or turns around or whatever
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Or turns around or whatever it is that needed to happen.
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It is that needed to happen. but i didn't want it to
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But i didn't want it to get out to the church public
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Get out to the church public because our ministry,
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Because our ministry, at least in that area
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During the middle of all this,
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During the middle of all this, we went on tbn,
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During the middle of all this, we went on tbn, we started going
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We went on tbn, we started going on international tv.
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We started going on international tv. so, the intensity
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On international tv. so, the intensity just got worse.
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So, the intensity just got worse. while she was spiraling
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Just got worse. while she was spiraling in a downward spiral,
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While she was spiraling in a downward spiral, we were exploding.
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In a downward spiral, we were exploding. so, you've got
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We were exploding. so, you've got this best of times
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So, you've got this best of times but worst of times happening
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This best of times but worst of times happening at the same time.
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But worst of times happening at the same time. hope: such a plan
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At the same time. hope: such a plan of the enemy.
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Hope: such a plan of the enemy. he's so strategic.
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Of the enemy. he's so strategic. ron: but i knew
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He's so strategic. ron: but i knew something was wrong.
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Ron: but i knew something was wrong. i didn't know what was wrong,
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Something was wrong. i didn't know what was wrong, but i knew
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I didn't know what was wrong, but i knew something was wrong.
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But i knew something was wrong. she would be asleep at night,
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Something was wrong. she would be asleep at night, and i would lay my hands,
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She would be asleep at night, and i would lay my hands, i wouldn't touch her,
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And i would lay my hands, i wouldn't touch her, just over her head and like,
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I wouldn't touch her, just over her head and like, "god bring her back to me.
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Just over her head and like, "god bring her back to me. i don't know what's going on.
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"god bring her back to me. i don't know what's going on. i don't know where she is,
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I don't know what's going on. i don't know where she is, i don't know
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I don't know where she is, i don't know what she's thinking
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I don't know what she's thinking but bring my wife back to me."
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Hope: i have
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Hope: i have such a good husband.
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Hope: i have such a good husband. yeah!
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Such a good husband. yeah! one day i want to be like ron
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I really do.
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I really do. randy: scripture says
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As christ loved the church.
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As christ loved the church. the church's story
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As christ loved the church. the church's story is one of waywardness
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The church's story is one of waywardness and unfaithfulness.
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Is one of waywardness and unfaithfulness. what a picture of love
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And unfaithfulness. what a picture of love right there.
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What a picture of love right there. without going through
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Right there. without going through all the details,
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Without going through all the details, what was the book where
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All the details, what was the book where you do go into the details.
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What was the book where you do go into the details. hope: the most
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You do go into the details. hope: the most beautiful disaster .
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Hope: the most beautiful disaster . randy: the most
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Beautiful disaster . randy: the most beautiful disaster .
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Randy: the most beautiful disaster . so, if someone wants
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Beautiful disaster . so, if someone wants to read through it just
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So, if someone wants to read through it just to try to get some help --
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To read through it just to try to get some help -- but at what point
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To try to get some help -- but at what point did the love of your husband,
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But at what point did the love of your husband, of christ, and this idea of,
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Did the love of your husband, of christ, and this idea of, okay, we're not going
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Of christ, and this idea of, okay, we're not going to let this thing
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Okay, we're not going to let this thing just be destroyed.
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To let this thing just be destroyed. we're going to fight
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Just be destroyed. we're going to fight to restore, fight to heal,
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We're going to fight to restore, fight to heal, fight to win.
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To restore, fight to heal, fight to win. was there a specific
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Fight to win. was there a specific turning point
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Hope: well, i was
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Hope: well, i was just totally miserable.
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Just totally miserable. i had reached a place
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I had reached a place of just utter desperation.
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Of just utter desperation. just sick of myself,
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The choices i'd made,
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The choices i'd made, sick of hurting my husband,
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The choices i'd made, sick of hurting my husband, my family.
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Sick of hurting my husband, my family. didn't want to do it
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My family. didn't want to do it but didn't know why i did it.
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Didn't want to do it but didn't know why i did it. if i could have explained it,
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But didn't know why i did it. if i could have explained it, it wouldn't have been
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If i could have explained it, it wouldn't have been as maddening.
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It wouldn't have been as maddening. but i didn't know
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As maddening. but i didn't know why i was doing
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But i didn't know why i was doing what i was doing.
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Why i was doing what i was doing. so, in 2013, i came to him.
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What i was doing. so, in 2013, i came to him. it just was crumbling.
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So, in 2013, i came to him. it just was crumbling. i came to him and thought,
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It just was crumbling. i came to him and thought, he's such a great man
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I came to him and thought, he's such a great man he's going to help me.
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He's such a great man he's going to help me. i'm going to come clean
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He's going to help me. i'm going to come clean and i'm going
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I'm going to come clean and i'm going to tell him everything,
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And i'm going to tell him everything, and he's going
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To tell him everything, and he's going to fix this for me.
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And he's going to fix this for me. and i told him,
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To fix this for me. and i told him, and he said,
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And i told him, and he said, "you've got 30 minutes.
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And he said, "you've got 30 minutes. get your stuff and get out."
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"you've got 30 minutes. get your stuff and get out." but randy,
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Get your stuff and get out." but randy, that's why i wrote that book,
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But randy, that's why i wrote that book, the most beautiful disaster .
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That's why i wrote that book, the most beautiful disaster . to the world
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The most beautiful disaster . to the world it was the most horrible thing
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To the world it was the most horrible thing that could happen but to me
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It was the most horrible thing that could happen but to me it was where i hit rock bottom
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That could happen but to me it was where i hit rock bottom and where i ran
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It was where i hit rock bottom and where i ran right into the face
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And where i ran right into the face of the unconditional love
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Right into the face of the unconditional love of jesus
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Of the unconditional love of jesus that i had never known.
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Of jesus that i had never known. i had only known
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That i had never known. i had only known conditional love.
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I had only known conditional love. and i didn't understand
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Conditional love. and i didn't understand god's unconditional love.
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And i didn't understand god's unconditional love. that he loved me
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God's unconditional love. that he loved me for who i was,
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That he loved me for who i was, not for what i did
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For who i was, not for what i did or didn't do right.
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Not for what i did or didn't do right. it radically changed my life
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Or didn't do right. it radically changed my life in 2013.
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It radically changed my life in 2013. we struggled.
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In 2013. we struggled. we were going
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We struggled. we were going to get a divorce.
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We were going to get a divorce. ron: it was
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To get a divorce. ron: it was a whole different story then.
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Ron: it was a whole different story then. hope: yeah,
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A whole different story then. hope: yeah, i'm doing good,
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Hope: yeah, i'm doing good, ron's not doing well.
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I'm doing good, ron's not doing well. ron: you have to understand
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Ron's not doing well. ron: you have to understand that nine years
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Ron: you have to understand that nine years is a long time.
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That nine years is a long time. this wasn't a summer.
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Is a long time. this wasn't a summer. this was almost a decade.
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This wasn't a summer. this was almost a decade. the toll --
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This was almost a decade. the toll -- the toll of covering,
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The toll of suspecting
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The toll of suspecting but not knowing.
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But not knowing. hope: the betrayal --
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Hope: the betrayal -- all of it.
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All of it. ron: yes.
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Ron: yes. and then when you finally
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You've been suspecting
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You've been suspecting and all the collateral damage,
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You've been suspecting and all the collateral damage, the bomb goes off:
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And all the collateral damage, the bomb goes off: the humiliation,
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The bomb goes off: the humiliation, half the church walks out,
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The humiliation, half the church walks out, and social media blows you up.
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Half the church walks out, and social media blows you up. your kids won't speak,
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And social media blows you up. your kids won't speak, and they go into school
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Your kids won't speak, and they go into school and get heckled.
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And they go into school and get heckled. they run up
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And get heckled. they run up and slam the doors
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They run up and slam the doors when they get home
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And slam the doors when they get home and won't talk.
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When they get home and won't talk. it was awful
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And won't talk. it was awful with a capital a.
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It was awful with a capital a. it was awful.
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With a capital a. it was awful. and i loved her so much,
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It was awful. and i loved her so much, that's why it hurt so bad
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And i loved her so much, that's why it hurt so bad that i found a place
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That's why it hurt so bad that i found a place for her to receive ministry.
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That i found a place for her to receive ministry. but as far as --
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For her to receive ministry. but as far as -- i had no more energy.
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But as far as -- i had no more energy. the thought
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I had no more energy. the thought of climbing that mountain
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The thought of climbing that mountain of rebuilding trust
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Of climbing that mountain of rebuilding trust after the nine years that
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Of rebuilding trust after the nine years that we had already been through,
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After the nine years that we had already been through, i couldn't see it.
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We had already been through, i couldn't see it. so didn't want anybody else,
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I couldn't see it. so didn't want anybody else, didn't desire anybody else but
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So didn't want anybody else, didn't desire anybody else but i just like i can't do this.
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Didn't desire anybody else but i just like i can't do this. hope: wanted to be done.
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I just like i can't do this. hope: wanted to be done. ron: in other words,
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Hope: wanted to be done. ron: in other words, here where i was.
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Ron: in other words, here where i was. loving you hurts too bad.
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Here where i was. loving you hurts too bad. loving you is painful.
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Loving you hurts too bad. loving you is painful. and so,
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Loving you is painful. and so, i want you to be better.
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And so, i want you to be better. i know something is wrong.
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I want you to be better. i know something is wrong. she was emotionally
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I know something is wrong. she was emotionally in a terrible place.
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She was emotionally in a terrible place. i put her somewhere.
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In a terrible place. i put her somewhere. i paid for that,
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I put her somewhere. i paid for that, but i let her know
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I paid for that, but i let her know as far as our marriage
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But i let her know as far as our marriage i no longer seek
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Randy: i completely
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Randy: i completely understand that,
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Understand that, i'm sure she does too.
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I'm sure she does too. but i also know
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But i also know that there are times
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That there are times when you've got
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Ron: i was there.
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Ron: i was there. randy: i get it.
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Ron: i was there. randy: i get it. so, when we talk about
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Randy: i get it. so, when we talk about if you don't fight
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So, when we talk about if you don't fight then you don't win ,
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If you don't fight then you don't win , what happened in-between
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Then you don't win , what happened in-between to get you back to where
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What happened in-between to get you back to where you're willing to even --
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To get you back to where you're willing to even -- you even have the strength
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You're willing to even -- you even have the strength and the desire
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You even have the strength and the desire to fight for a marriage?
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And the desire to fight for a marriage? hope: well,
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When i was just overwhelmed
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When i was just overwhelmed by the love of the lord,
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By the love of the lord, it just rejuvenated me.
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All the brokenness
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All the brokenness in almost a day.
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All the brokenness in almost a day. really.
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In almost a day. really. and then it was a journey
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Really. and then it was a journey of recovery
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And then it was a journey of recovery and changing my mind
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Of recovery and changing my mind and getting strength
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And changing my mind and getting strength and learning new patterns
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And getting strength and learning new patterns of doing things.
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And learning new patterns of doing things. ron: stayed there
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Of doing things. ron: stayed there what seven months?
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Ron: stayed there what seven months? hope: i stayed there
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What seven months? hope: i stayed there nine months.
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Hope: i stayed there nine months. i stayed
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Nine months. i stayed at living waters ministry
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I stayed at living waters ministry in north carolina
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At living waters ministry in north carolina for nine months.
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In north carolina for nine months. i just really was determined.
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For nine months. i just really was determined. i said i'm not going to allow
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I just really was determined. i said i'm not going to allow the enemy to win.
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I said i'm not going to allow the enemy to win. because i know
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The enemy to win. because i know that's the plot and plan
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Because i know that's the plot and plan of the enemy
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That's the plot and plan of the enemy is to destroy our home
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Of the enemy is to destroy our home and destroy our witness
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Is to destroy our home and destroy our witness and our testimony
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And destroy our witness and our testimony and people's lives
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And our testimony and people's lives and our children.
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And people's lives and our children. i said if god's doing
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And our children. i said if god's doing this supernatural work in me,
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I said if god's doing this supernatural work in me, i'm believing
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This supernatural work in me, i'm believing for a supernatural work
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I'm believing for a supernatural work in our marriage.
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For a supernatural work in our marriage. so, i did.
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In our marriage. so, i did. i hunkered down
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So, i did. i hunkered down and believed for it.
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I hunkered down and believed for it. i began to pray and fast
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And believed for it. i began to pray and fast and have people pray
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I began to pray and fast and have people pray and fast with me.
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And have people pray and fast with me. i would write to my children,
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And fast with me. i would write to my children, we have three children,
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I would write to my children, we have three children, i would write them letters
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We have three children, i would write them letters individual letters
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I would write them letters individual letters every single day
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Individual letters every single day and mail them
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Every single day and mail them at the end of the week.
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And mail them at the end of the week. and in every one
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At the end of the week. and in every one i would tell them,
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And in every one i would tell them, "we're believing god
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I would tell them, "we're believing god for a miracle.
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"we're believing god for a miracle. don't you listen
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For a miracle. don't you listen to your daddy!
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Don't you listen to your daddy! we're believing god
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To your daddy! we're believing god for a miracle."
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We're believing god for a miracle." randy: it would be one thing
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For a miracle." randy: it would be one thing if his posture was
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Randy: it would be one thing if his posture was you go get yourself well,
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If his posture was you go get yourself well, we'll bring you back.
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You go get yourself well, we'll bring you back. but you had to have god
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We'll bring you back. but you had to have god do a work in your heart.
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But you had to have god do a work in your heart. ron: i was done.
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Do a work in your heart. ron: i was done. i was really done.
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I'm the kind of guy,
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I'm the kind of guy, my lines don't move.
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My lines don't move. when i make a decision,
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When i make a decision, it doesn't change.
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It doesn't change. so, she knew
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So, she knew what she was dealing with.
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What she was dealing with. i had a divine encounter.
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Super-spiritual about things,
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Super-spiritual about things, but the fact is
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Super-spiritual about things, but the fact is i believe in the power
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But the fact is i believe in the power of the holy spirit,
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I believe in the power of the holy spirit, and i believe
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Of the holy spirit, and i believe in divine encounters.
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And i believe in divine encounters. it's probably the only thing
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In divine encounters. it's probably the only thing that i respected enough
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It's probably the only thing that i respected enough that could have changed me.
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That i respected enough that could have changed me. i had a night --
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That could have changed me. i had a night -- i had a jacob experience
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I had a night -- i had a jacob experience where i just wrestled
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I had a jacob experience where i just wrestled with god.
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Where i just wrestled with god. the next morning
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With god. the next morning you'd have thought
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The next morning you'd have thought i had been in ten fights
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You'd have thought i had been in ten fights and come off a ten-day drunk.
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I had been in ten fights and come off a ten-day drunk. i called my secretary,
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And come off a ten-day drunk. i called my secretary, cancelled all my appointments.
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I called my secretary, cancelled all my appointments. i was miserable.
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Cancelled all my appointments. i was miserable. i had been up all night.
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I was miserable. i had been up all night. i was screaming
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I had been up all night. i was screaming at the ceiling.
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I was screaming at the ceiling. literally, one of these
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At the ceiling. literally, one of these made-for-movie things.
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Literally, one of these made-for-movie things. i had this all-night
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Made-for-movie things. i had this all-night misery encounter with god.
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I had this all-night misery encounter with god. and finally,
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Misery encounter with god. and finally, screaming at the ceiling,
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And finally, screaming at the ceiling, i was like,
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Screaming at the ceiling, i was like, "what do you want me to do?"
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I was like, "what do you want me to do?" he said,
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"what do you want me to do?" he said, "i want you to call her."
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He said, "i want you to call her." you've got to understand,
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"i want you to call her." you've got to understand, we weren't speaking.
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You've got to understand, we weren't speaking. hope: and if we were,
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We weren't speaking. hope: and if we were, we were fighting.
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Hope: and if we were, we were fighting. ron: the few times
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We were fighting. ron: the few times we had to communicate,
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Ron: the few times we had to communicate, it wasn't good.
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We had to communicate, it wasn't good. he said,
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It wasn't good. he said, "i want you to call her
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He said, "i want you to call her and tell her
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"i want you to call her and tell her you will not abandon her."
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And tell her you will not abandon her." i'm going to tell you,
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You will not abandon her." i'm going to tell you, that's something i did
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I'm going to tell you, that's something i did by faith
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That's something i did by faith because none of the feelings
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By faith because none of the feelings were there to say that.
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Because none of the feelings were there to say that. i did not want to do that.
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Were there to say that. i did not want to do that. and tell them
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I did not want to do that. and tell them what was going on
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And tell them what was going on when you got that call.
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What was going on when you got that call. hope: well, that had been
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When you got that call. hope: well, that had been about two months
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Hope: well, that had been about two months into the separation.
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About two months into the separation. i was losing some hope
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Into the separation. i was losing some hope at that point
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I was losing some hope at that point because he was not wavering.
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At that point because he was not wavering. i had lost 23 pounds,
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Because he was not wavering. i had lost 23 pounds, i was just getting
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I had lost 23 pounds, i was just getting very desperate;
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I was just getting very desperate; that was from fasting
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That day,
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That day, i went on a walk,
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I went on a walk, and it was
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And it was a little country road.
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And i said,
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And i said, "lord, would you send
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And i said, "lord, would you send a chicken truck"
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"lord, would you send a chicken truck" because that's what
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A chicken truck" because that's what was out there,
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Because that's what was out there, "around the corner
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Was out there, "around the corner and just kill me?
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"around the corner and just kill me? could you just take me out?
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And just kill me? could you just take me out? i'm causing these people
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Could you just take me out? i'm causing these people too much pain.
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I'm causing these people too much pain. nothing is working.
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Too much pain. nothing is working. could you just take me out?"
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Nothing is working. could you just take me out?" and immediately,
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Could you just take me out?" and immediately, i saw a flower that had
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And immediately, i saw a flower that had popped out of the concrete.
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I saw a flower that had popped out of the concrete. i saw this beautiful bird
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Popped out of the concrete. i saw this beautiful bird that had flown
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I saw this beautiful bird that had flown out of this old hay pasture.
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That had flown out of this old hay pasture. and he spoke to me
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Out of this old hay pasture. and he spoke to me and said, "if i care for them,
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And he spoke to me and said, "if i care for them, don't you know
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And said, "if i care for them, don't you know that i care for you?
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Don't you know that i care for you? and that i'm working
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That i care for you? and that i'm working when you don't know
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And that i'm working when you don't know that i'm working?"
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When you don't know that i'm working?" and immediately,
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That i'm working?" and immediately, hope sprang back up in me.
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And immediately, hope sprang back up in me. i turned around, started
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Hope sprang back up in me. i turned around, started walking back to the house
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I turned around, started walking back to the house and the pastor came and said,
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Walking back to the house and the pastor came and said, "i've been looking for you.
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And the pastor came and said, "i've been looking for you. ron's called."
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"i've been looking for you. ron's called." i was like, oh, no!
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Ron's called." i was like, oh, no! i just got my hopes up.
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I was like, oh, no! i just got my hopes up. now he's calling. it's bad.
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I just got my hopes up. now he's calling. it's bad. what are you doing, god?
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Now he's calling. it's bad. what are you doing, god? so, i went inside,
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What are you doing, god? so, i went inside, tried to dry my face
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So, i went inside, tried to dry my face and the lord took me
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Tried to dry my face and the lord took me to the scriptures.
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And the lord took me to the scriptures. god, you've got
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To the scriptures. god, you've got to give me a word.
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God, you've got to give me a word. and he took me
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To give me a word. and he took me to the scripture in samuel
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And he took me to the scripture in samuel where david
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To the scripture in samuel where david was going to buy a field.
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Where david was going to buy a field. and the guy was like, you
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Was going to buy a field. and the guy was like, you don't have to pay anything,
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And the guy was like, you don't have to pay anything, you're the king.
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Don't have to pay anything, you're the king. and he said, "i will not
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You're the king. and he said, "i will not offer anything to the lord
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And he said, "i will not offer anything to the lord that does not cost me."
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Offer anything to the lord that does not cost me." i said, "god,
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That does not cost me." i said, "god, what are you saying to me?"
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I said, "god, what are you saying to me?" he said,
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What are you saying to me?" he said, "you've done everything
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He said, "you've done everything but sow a seed."
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"you've done everything but sow a seed." i said, "god,
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But sow a seed." i said, "god, i don't have anything.
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I said, "god, i don't have anything. all i have is a $1,000
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I don't have anything. all i have is a $1,000 to my name.
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All i have is a $1,000 to my name. i have $1,000 i put aside."
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To my name. i have $1,000 i put aside." i had no credit cards,
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I have $1,000 i put aside." i had no credit cards, i had no insurance,
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I had no credit cards, i had no insurance, i had nothing.
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I had no insurance, i had nothing. he told me to give it
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I had nothing. he told me to give it to the people
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He told me to give it to the people that i was staying with.
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To the people that i was staying with. so, i went down there,
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That i was staying with. so, i went down there, and i took the $1,000
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So, i went down there, and i took the $1,000 and i told them the story,
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And i took the $1,000 and i told them the story, slid it across the table.
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And i told them the story, slid it across the table. i said, "i'm believing
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Slid it across the table. i said, "i'm believing for a miracle."
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I said, "i'm believing for a miracle." ron calls five minutes later
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For a miracle." ron calls five minutes later and he said --
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Ron calls five minutes later and he said -- told me the whole night.
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And he said -- told me the whole night. and he said,
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Told me the whole night. and he said, "and i've called to tell you
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And he said, "and i've called to tell you that i will not abandon you."
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"and i've called to tell you that i will not abandon you." and i just -- i remember
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That i will not abandon you." and i just -- i remember leaning over onto the desk
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And i just -- i remember leaning over onto the desk and that ugly cry.
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Leaning over onto the desk and that ugly cry. aah! ugly cry!
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And that ugly cry. aah! ugly cry! and ron said, "oh, no, no, no!
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Aah! ugly cry! and ron said, "oh, no, no, no! i don't know what this means."
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And ron said, "oh, no, no, no! i don't know what this means." [laughing]
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I don't know what this means." [laughing] he said,
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[laughing] he said, "i really don't know what
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He said, "i really don't know what this looks like or means."
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"i really don't know what this looks like or means." i said, "but i do!
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This looks like or means." i said, "but i do! that's all i needed."
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I said, "but i do! that's all i needed." god gave me my miracle.
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That's all i needed." god gave me my miracle. and it was that day
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God gave me my miracle. and it was that day that we started
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And it was that day that we started our restoration.
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Okay, there is
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Okay, there is so much more to this.
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So much more to this. i want you to know
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I want you to know god has not abandoned you.
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God has not abandoned you. i don't know where you're at.
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I don't know where you're at. i don't know where you failed.
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Who has failed you,
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Who has failed you, but you feel like you're done.
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Who has failed you, but you feel like you're done. or you feel
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But you feel like you're done. or you feel like you're useless,
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Or you feel like you're useless, that you just want to die.
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Like you're useless, that you just want to die. what a word
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That you just want to die. what a word from a husband to a wife!
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What a word from a husband to a wife! a husband who doesn't
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From a husband to a wife! a husband who doesn't have it within himself
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A husband who doesn't have it within himself saying, "i'm not
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Have it within himself saying, "i'm not going to abandon you."
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Saying, "i'm not going to abandon you." that's god.
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Going to abandon you." that's god. god's saying that
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Right now.
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Right now. if you want
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If you want to pick up that phone
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To pick up that phone and have someone
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And have someone just pray with you,
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Just pray with you, it doesn't matter
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It doesn't matter where you're at,
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Where you're at, it doesn't matter
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It doesn't matter what you've been through.
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What you've been through. you may not even know
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You may not even know what the future holds, but
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What the future holds, but somebody will pray with you
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Somebody will pray with you right now.
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Right now. just pick that phone up,
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Just pick that phone up, call that number
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Call that number for some encouragement.
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For some encouragement. because god will give you
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Because god will give you that ability to fight
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That ability to fight because he's already
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Because he's already won the fight.
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Won the fight. you're going to learn more
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You're going to learn more about that on another program
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About that on another program with ron and hope.
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With ron and hope. but right now,
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But right now, you might just need
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You might just need that encouragement
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That encouragement that hope got on that day
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That hope got on that day out of nowhere --
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We have another opportunity
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We have another opportunity that we're going to show you
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We have another opportunity that we're going to show you because many of you
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That we're going to show you because many of you have supported this outreach
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Because many of you have supported this outreach over the years,
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Have supported this outreach over the years, of giving hope to people
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Over the years, of giving hope to people that have no hope
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They have no hope.
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They have no hope. and that is the fight
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And that is the fight against malnutrition,
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Against malnutrition, the fight against hunger,
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The fight against hunger, oftentimes,
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Oftentimes, the fight against death.
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The fight against death. we have partners in place
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We have partners in place right now around the world
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Right now around the world to help us in this fight,
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To help us in this fight, right now,
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Right now, the situation is critical.
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The situation is critical. children are dying in clinics,
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Children are dying in clinics, and they don't need to.
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And they don't need to. we need to reach them
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We need to reach them before they get to that point,
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Before they get to that point, before they get to the clinic.
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Before they get to the clinic. we do it
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We do it through your participation.
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Through your participation. we do it through $30
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We do it through $30 that helps feed three children
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That helps feed three children for the next three months.
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For the next three months. a gift of $50 feeds five.
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A gift of $50 feeds five. $100 will help feed ten.
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$100 will help feed ten. maybe you can give $1,000
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Maybe you can give $1,000 and help feed 100 children
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And help feed 100 children just for the next few months.
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Just for the next few months. whatever god has
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Whatever god has enabled you to do,
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Enabled you to do, whatever he's put
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Whatever he's put on your heart to do,
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On your heart to do, i pray you'll do it right now.
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I pray you'll do it right now. over 350,000 children
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Over 350,000 children every single day on average
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Every single day on average receive that bowl
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Receive that bowl of nutritious soup,
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Of nutritious soup, and that is just to get them
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And that is just to get them through the day.
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Through the day. oftentimes, it is in areas
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Oftentimes, it is in areas where there has been a crisis,
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Where there has been a crisis, perhaps a famine,
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Perhaps a famine, perhaps a flood,
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Perhaps a flood, perhaps displacement
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Perhaps displacement from civil unrest.
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From civil unrest. whatever the situation,
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Whatever the situation, we go in and hold them over
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We go in and hold them over until they can get back
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Until they can get back on their feet
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On their feet and can continue to build
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And can continue to build for their future.
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For their future. now that's a great thing,
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Now that's a great thing, i think.
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I think. a lot of organizations
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A lot of organizations will do this.
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Will do this. but let me tell you
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But let me tell you a key difference.
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A key difference. we do it
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We do it in the name of jesus christ.
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In the name of jesus christ. that's what we're inviting you
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That's what we're inviting you to be a part of,
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To be a part of, to be the hands and feet
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To be the hands and feet of jesus,
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Of jesus, to be the gospel
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To be the gospel in word and deed.
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In word and deed. not just to tell people
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Not just to tell people about christ
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About christ or tell them about his love
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Or tell them about his love but to show it
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But to show it to the people in need.
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To the people in need. pick up the phone
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Pick up the phone or go online,
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Or go online, however you prefer.
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However you prefer. make the best gift you can
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Make the best gift you can towards mission feeding.
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Towards mission feeding. know that it will save lives.
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Know that it will save lives. it will give them hope.
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It will give them hope. it will give them a future.
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It will give them a future. and it will be done
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And it will be done in the name of jesus christ.
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Right now across the continent of africa,
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Children are suffering,
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Facing severe malnutrition and even death.
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Extreme drought and famine
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Putting at risk thousands of lives
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Means we must replenish food supplies immediately
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To keep feeding the 350,000 children
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And help reach more people in desperate need.
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Through life's mission feeding outreach,
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Your gift of love can be an answer to prayer
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For a hurting and hungry child in their time of need.
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Call now with your life-saving gift
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Of $30, $50, or $100
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To help feed and care for
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Three, five, or ten children
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For three full months.
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With your gift of any amount,
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We'll send the daily life devotional calendar.
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This perpetual calendar has 365 days' worth of scriptures
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And inspirational thoughts to remind you
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Of the rest you can find in god's loving arms.
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With your gift of $100 or more,
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You may request the "the light of life" desk lamp.
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Find comfort and encouragement
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From jesus' words in john 8:12
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Displayed on this stand-alone acrylic gas lamp,
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Perfect for home or office décor
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As a reminder that jesus is the light of the world.
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Finally, with your gift of $1,000 or more
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To help feed and care for 100 children,
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Be sure to request our inspiring
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Bronze sculpture, "a cup of water."
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Please call, write, or make your gift online today.
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Randy: so many of you
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Randy: so many of you have fought with us
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Randy: so many of you have fought with us over the years
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Have fought with us over the years to save people's lives.
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Over the years to save people's lives. if you'd like to join us,
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To save people's lives. if you'd like to join us, go online, go to your phone,
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If you'd like to join us, go online, go to your phone, make the best gift you can.
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Go online, go to your phone, make the best gift you can. you can be a part of this
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Make the best gift you can. you can be a part of this beautiful, glorious fight
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You can be a part of this beautiful, glorious fight to give life and hope
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Beautiful, glorious fight to give life and hope to so many people
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To give life and hope to so many people around the world.
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To so many people around the world. and listen, if you want
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Around the world. and listen, if you want your own copy of hope's book,
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And listen, if you want your own copy of hope's book, just request it with any gift
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Your own copy of hope's book, just request it with any gift that you make today.
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Just request it with any gift that you make today. we'd love to send it to you.
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That you make today. we'd love to send it to you. i appreciate you guys
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We'd love to send it to you. i appreciate you guys being so open and honest.
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I appreciate you guys being so open and honest. i know that you've learned
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Being so open and honest. i know that you've learned so much and come so far since
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I know that you've learned so much and come so far since all of that stuff came out.
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So much and come so far since all of that stuff came out. would you guys join us for
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All of that stuff came out. would you guys join us for another program where we can
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Would you guys join us for another program where we can talk about unpacking some
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Another program where we can talk about unpacking some of the lessons you've learned?
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Talk about unpacking some of the lessons you've learned? hope: absolutely!
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Of the lessons you've learned? hope: absolutely! ron: we'll be honored.
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Hope: absolutely! ron: we'll be honored. randy: great!
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Ron: we'll be honored. randy: great! i look forward to it.
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Randy: great! i look forward to it. come back, and if you're
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I look forward to it. come back, and if you're watching these online
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Come back, and if you're watching these online you can go to lifetoday.org
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Watching these online you can go to lifetoday.org and see all the programs.
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You can go to lifetoday.org and see all the programs. but we'll see you again
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And see all the programs. but we'll see you again next time here on life today .
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Jeff: have you ever wondered
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Jeff: have you ever wondered what it's really all about --
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What it's really all about -- the christian life?
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The christian life? obviously,
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Obviously, it starts very basic
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It starts very basic and very simple,
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With jesus christ,
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With jesus christ, a free gift by his grace.
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With jesus christ, a free gift by his grace. but then, after that,
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A free gift by his grace. but then, after that, have you ever wondered,
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But then, after that, have you ever wondered, how do i hit the target
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Have you ever wondered, how do i hit the target with my life?
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How do i hit the target with my life? how do i please jesus?
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With my life? how do i please jesus? how do i serve him?
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How do i please jesus? how do i serve him? how do i give him
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How do i serve him? how do i give him glory and honor
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How do i give him glory and honor by the way i live?
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Glory and honor by the way i live? obviously,
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By the way i live? obviously, we want to carry out
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Obviously, we want to carry out his characteristics;
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We want to carry out his characteristics; we want to live like him.
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His characteristics; we want to live like him. but jesus, in the gospels,
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We want to live like him. but jesus, in the gospels, and also,
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But jesus, in the gospels, and also, the first part of acts,
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And also, the first part of acts, we see that he gives us
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The first part of acts, we see that he gives us a commission.
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We see that he gives us a commission. he gives us
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A commission. he gives us some marching orders.
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He gives us some marching orders. in fact,
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Some marching orders. in fact, he gives us the bull's-eye.
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In fact, he gives us the bull's-eye. he tells us
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He gives us the bull's-eye. he tells us what the target is.
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He tells us what the target is. if you and i were
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What the target is. if you and i were playing darts,
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If you and i were playing darts, and we were to throw darts
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Playing darts, and we were to throw darts at a dart board,
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And we were to throw darts at a dart board, and you hit the bull's-eye,
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At a dart board, and you hit the bull's-eye, and i threw mine way off
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And you hit the bull's-eye, and i threw mine way off and went over
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And i threw mine way off and went over and circled my own bull's-eye,
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And went over and circled my own bull's-eye, that would be cheating.
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And circled my own bull's-eye, that would be cheating. and so, as christian people,
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That would be cheating. and so, as christian people, we need to know
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And so, as christian people, we need to know what jesus's bull's-eye is.
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We need to know what jesus's bull's-eye is. what's the target?
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What jesus's bull's-eye is. what's the target? in matthew 28,
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What's the target? in matthew 28, a familiar passage tells us
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In matthew 28, a familiar passage tells us the commission from jesus,
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A familiar passage tells us the commission from jesus, and he says this:
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The commission from jesus, and he says this: "go into all the world
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And he says this: "go into all the world and preach the gospel
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"go into all the world and preach the gospel and make disciples."
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I grew up as a young boy
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I grew up as a young boy in the christian faith
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In the christian faith and i always thought
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And i always thought it was more about "go."
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It was more about "go." so i was going and going
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So i was going and going and going
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And going but not a lot of times
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Hitting the bull's-eye,
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Hitting the bull's-eye, if i was hitting the target.
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Hitting the bull's-eye, if i was hitting the target. the verb is the action word
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If i was hitting the target. the verb is the action word and it's "make."
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The verb is the action word and it's "make." "go" is a participle
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And it's "make." "go" is a participle which actually means,
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"go" is a participle which actually means, "as you're going,"
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Which actually means, "as you're going," so it's understood
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"as you're going," so it's understood that there's movement
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So it's understood that there's movement if you're a person
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That there's movement if you're a person who is following jesus christ.
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If you're a person who is following jesus christ. but "make," again,
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Who is following jesus christ. but "make," again, is the target.
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But "make," again, is the target. my question to you today
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Is the target. my question to you today is this:
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My question to you today is this: i hope you've received
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Is this: i hope you've received jesus christ as your
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I hope you've received jesus christ as your personal lord and savior.
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Jesus christ as your personal lord and savior. that's the best decision
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Personal lord and savior. that's the best decision you could ever make.
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That's the best decision you could ever make. that's where real life
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You could ever make. that's where real life is found.
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That's where real life is found. but after that,
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Is found. but after that, what do you do?
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But after that, what do you do? my question is:
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What do you do? my question is: have you ever "made?"
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My question is: have you ever "made?" are you willing to "make?"
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Have you ever "made?" are you willing to "make?" you say, "oh, jeff,
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Are you willing to "make?" you say, "oh, jeff, i couldn't do that!
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You say, "oh, jeff, i couldn't do that! i mean, i've got problems,
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I couldn't do that! i mean, i've got problems, i've got challenges."
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I mean, i've got problems, i've got challenges." and you know what?
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I've got challenges." and you know what? the first disciples did too.
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And you know what? the first disciples did too. jesus wants to use you.
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The first disciples did too. jesus wants to use you. you have a purpose.
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Jesus wants to use you. you have a purpose. you've been designed by god
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You have a purpose. you've been designed by god and you are his plan
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You've been designed by god and you are his plan for extending his grace
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And you are his plan for extending his grace and mercy in the earth.
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For extending his grace and mercy in the earth. and so start today.
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And mercy in the earth. and so start today. start finding
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And so start today. start finding the resources you need,
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Start finding the resources you need, the friends you need,
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The resources you need, the friends you need, the relationships you need.
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The friends you need, the relationships you need. whatever you need,
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The relationships you need. whatever you need, it's available
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Whatever you need, it's available so that you can start
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It's available so that you can start to make disciples.
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So that you can start to make disciples. i hope you will look up
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To make disciples. i hope you will look up not many days from now
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I hope you will look up not many days from now and say, "you know what?
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Not many days from now and say, "you know what? i haven't achieved it,
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And say, "you know what? i haven't achieved it, but i'm well on my way
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I haven't achieved it, but i'm well on my way to this "making" process
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But i'm well on my way to this "making" process of hitting the bull's-eye.
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>> i think it is great to always understand
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That deliverance is not meant to be an end in itself,
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It is actually meant to be a beginning.
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Getting established in freedom.
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Tomorrow!
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Ron Carpenter;Hope Carpenter - Fight To Win

December 21, 2024 | S24:E1221

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