Mattie Jackson Smith - Hope During Suffering

November 26, 2024 | S24:E1126

A widow and author of “Through The Valley Of Grief” shares the hard truths that were put to the test and the hope she found through the difficulty.

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Life Today with James Robison | Mattie Jackson Smith - Hope During Suffering | November 26, 2024

Coming up, mattie jackson smith
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Draws from her experience after the death of her husband
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To walk with you through the valley of grief.
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>> keeping my eyes open and my heart open,
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And praying, tammy, god give me a little joy,
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A tiny joy today. let me see it.
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That accrues and that adds up,
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And then you learn to look for those things
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The moment after you fall on the floor weeping,
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And both are true. they just are.
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It is miraculous!
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♪
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Tammy: hello, everybody!
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Tammy: hello, everybody! welcome to life today .
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Tammy: hello, everybody! welcome to life today . i'm tammy trent
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Welcome to life today . i'm tammy trent and i'm so glad
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I'm tammy trent and i'm so glad you're here with us today.
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And i'm so glad you're here with us today. i think you're going
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You're here with us today. i think you're going to be blessed
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I think you're going to be blessed and love today's show.
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Our guest is
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Our guest is a best-selling author,
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Our guest is a best-selling author, speaker, and podcaster
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A best-selling author, speaker, and podcaster who has walked through
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Speaker, and podcaster who has walked through some of life's darkest valleys
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Who has walked through some of life's darkest valleys and has come out
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Some of life's darkest valleys and has come out on the other side
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And has come out on the other side with a message of hope
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On the other side with a message of hope and healing.
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With a message of hope and healing. mattie jackson smith knows
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And healing. mattie jackson smith knows the depths of grief.
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Mattie jackson smith knows the depths of grief. we're going to talk to her
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The depths of grief. we're going to talk to her about that and her journey
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We're going to talk to her about that and her journey today, along with
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About that and her journey today, along with her new 365-day devotional
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Today, along with her new 365-day devotional through the valley of grief .
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Her new 365-day devotional through the valley of grief . welcome mattie.
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Through the valley of grief . welcome mattie. i'm so glad you're here!
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Welcome mattie. i'm so glad you're here! mattie: tammy, i'm so glad
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I'm so glad you're here! mattie: tammy, i'm so glad to be here.
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Mattie: tammy, i'm so glad to be here. i look up to you so much
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To be here. i look up to you so much and obviously,
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I look up to you so much and obviously, i love being on the show.
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And obviously, i love being on the show. so i'm so glad to be back.
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I love being on the show. so i'm so glad to be back. tammy: you are so sweet.
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So i'm so glad to be back. tammy: you are so sweet. we met in january of 2018.
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Tammy: you are so sweet. we met in january of 2018. so we met at a restaurant
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We met in january of 2018. so we met at a restaurant that you had at the time.
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So we met at a restaurant that you had at the time. you just happened to be there.
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That you had at the time. you just happened to be there. i remember you walking out
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You just happened to be there. i remember you walking out and we chatted.
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I remember you walking out and we chatted. i can't remember if i told
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And we chatted. i can't remember if i told a little bit of my story.
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I can't remember if i told a little bit of my story. but i heard a little bit
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A little bit of my story. but i heard a little bit about your work
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But i heard a little bit about your work with widows at the time.
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About your work with widows at the time. it was just such
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With widows at the time. it was just such an amazing connection.
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It was just such an amazing connection. who would have known?
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An amazing connection. who would have known? who would have known at
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Who would have known? who would have known at that time in january of 2018
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Who would have known at that time in january of 2018 that a short time later
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That time in january of 2018 that a short time later your life would be
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That a short time later your life would be forever changed?
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Your life would be forever changed? so i'm going to start there.
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Forever changed? so i'm going to start there. like, let's go back.
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So i'm going to start there. like, let's go back. for people that don't know
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Like, let's go back. for people that don't know your story, let's go back
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For people that don't know your story, let's go back to touch on that
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Your story, let's go back to touch on that and how that has shaped --
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To touch on that and how that has shaped -- those experiences of your life
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And how that has shaped -- those experiences of your life have shaped who you are
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Those experiences of your life have shaped who you are and what god is doing
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Mattie: yeah, yeah!
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Mattie: yeah, yeah! i got kind of chills
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I got kind of chills when you were talking about
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When you were talking about us meeting then because
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Us meeting then because that truly, in all ways,
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That truly, in all ways, feels like a different
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Feels like a different lifetime to me.
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In nashville.
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In nashville. i'd been in hospitality
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In nashville. i'd been in hospitality all in my 20s and i had
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I'd been in hospitality all in my 20s and i had just married the love of
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All in my 20s and i had just married the love of my life; this vibrant,
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Just married the love of my life; this vibrant, wonderful, joyful man, ben.
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My life; this vibrant, wonderful, joyful man, ben. we had married the previous
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Wonderful, joyful man, ben. we had married the previous fall in nashville
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We had married the previous fall in nashville at my parent's home.
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Fall in nashville at my parent's home. i was just living this life;
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At my parent's home. i was just living this life; kind of cruising
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I was just living this life; kind of cruising my first entrepreneurial
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Kind of cruising my first entrepreneurial endeavor and newly wed.
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My first entrepreneurial endeavor and newly wed. so i felt like this is it!
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Endeavor and newly wed. so i felt like this is it! like this is the answer
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So i felt like this is it! like this is the answer to all the prayers
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Like this is the answer to all the prayers and god is good.
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To all the prayers and god is good. it happened that in june
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And god is good. it happened that in june of that year, i ended up
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It happened that in june of that year, i ended up closing the restaurant
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Of that year, i ended up closing the restaurant for personal
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Closing the restaurant for personal and professional reasons.
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For personal and professional reasons. i've always had this tug
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And professional reasons. i've always had this tug in my heart to write.
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I've always had this tug in my heart to write. throughout the course
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In my heart to write. throughout the course of having that restaurant,
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Throughout the course of having that restaurant, i also felt this pull
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Of having that restaurant, i also felt this pull to minister to women,
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I also felt this pull to minister to women, especially young women
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To minister to women, especially young women that have worked for me
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Especially young women that have worked for me and whatnot.
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That have worked for me and whatnot. and so i felt that call.
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And whatnot. and so i felt that call. i didn't know that god's call
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And so i felt that call. i didn't know that god's call was higher, and to be honest,
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I didn't know that god's call was higher, and to be honest, much harder than i would
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Was higher, and to be honest, much harder than i would have ever anticipated.
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Much harder than i would have ever anticipated. so i closed the restaurant
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Have ever anticipated. so i closed the restaurant in june of '18,
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So i closed the restaurant in june of '18, and then that september
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In june of '18, and then that september i lost my husband, ben,
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And then that september i lost my husband, ben, very suddenly in a tragic
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I lost my husband, ben, very suddenly in a tragic sort of boating incident
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Very suddenly in a tragic sort of boating incident in florida.
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Sort of boating incident in florida. it led to his 12 days
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In florida. it led to his 12 days in the i.c.u.
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It led to his 12 days in the i.c.u. and multiple brain surgeries,
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In the i.c.u. and multiple brain surgeries, and a medically
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And multiple brain surgeries, and a medically induced coma; and just trauma
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And a medically induced coma; and just trauma truly from an accident
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Induced coma; and just trauma truly from an accident that you never anticipate
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Truly from an accident that you never anticipate getting to that level.
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That you never anticipate getting to that level. he passed away three weeks
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Getting to that level. he passed away three weeks before our first wedding
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He passed away three weeks before our first wedding anniversary that year.
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Before our first wedding anniversary that year. that was six years ago now,
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Anniversary that year. that was six years ago now, which again feels
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That was six years ago now, which again feels like a lifetime.
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Which again feels like a lifetime. what i have walked through
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Like a lifetime. what i have walked through and where god has brought me,
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What i have walked through and where god has brought me, i feel like it is
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And where god has brought me, i feel like it is a message
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I feel like it is a message he is still teaching me.
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A message he is still teaching me. it is unbelievable.
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He is still teaching me. it is unbelievable. you know that kind of loss
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It is unbelievable. you know that kind of loss and how it reorients
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You know that kind of loss and how it reorients every aspect of your life.
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And how it reorients every aspect of your life. so these past years,
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Every aspect of your life. so these past years, i had the gift of seeing god
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So these past years, i had the gift of seeing god use that desire in me
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I had the gift of seeing god use that desire in me to minister and to write.
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Use that desire in me to minister and to write. and also, to use
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To minister and to write. and also, to use the worst thing that's
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And also, to use the worst thing that's ever happened to me
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The worst thing that's ever happened to me to bring hope to other people.
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Ever happened to me to bring hope to other people. what a gift to me to witness
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To bring hope to other people. what a gift to me to witness that over and over again.
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What a gift to me to witness that over and over again. so i'm grateful to y'all
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That over and over again. so i'm grateful to y'all to continue to help me
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Tammy: so i want to ask you,
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Tammy: so i want to ask you, when i heard about your story,
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When i heard about your story, and i've gone back
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And i've gone back and revisited it,
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You held out in that
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You held out in that hospital room for a miracle.
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You held out in that hospital room for a miracle. you prayed and believed
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Hospital room for a miracle. you prayed and believed for a miracle.
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You prayed and believed for a miracle. so what do we do
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For a miracle. so what do we do when our miracle story
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So what do we do when our miracle story doesn't happen?
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When our miracle story doesn't happen? mattie: yes, that is
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Doesn't happen? mattie: yes, that is a thing that took years
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I'll use that word
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I'll use that word because that's what it was,
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Because that's what it was, with god, about it.
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With god, about it. i write in the devotional,
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I write in the devotional, and i've spoken about it
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We stood on that miracle.
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We stood on that miracle. i, in my heart,
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We stood on that miracle. i, in my heart, knew this is --
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I, in my heart, knew this is -- the stage is set for you, god.
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Knew this is -- the stage is set for you, god. the table is set for you, god.
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The stage is set for you, god. the table is set for you, god. like we've paused
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The table is set for you, god. like we've paused and prayed over every nurse,
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Like we've paused and prayed over every nurse, every surgeon.
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And prayed over every nurse, every surgeon. we've been to
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Every surgeon. we've been to the cold hospital floor.
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We've been to the cold hospital floor. we've teed you up
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The cold hospital floor. we've teed you up for the miracle.
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We've teed you up for the miracle. like this is going
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For the miracle. like this is going to be for your glory.
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Like this is going to be for your glory. and when it is not,
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To be for your glory. and when it is not, it caused me not to doubt
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And when it is not, it caused me not to doubt in a way of walking away
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It caused me not to doubt in a way of walking away but to doubt in really
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In a way of walking away but to doubt in really like let's look under
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But to doubt in really like let's look under the microscope of these truths
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Like let's look under the microscope of these truths that i've always just
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The microscope of these truths that i've always just taken at face value
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That i've always just taken at face value my whole life.
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Taken at face value my whole life. i'll never forget
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My whole life. i'll never forget sitting in my pastor's office
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I'll never forget sitting in my pastor's office at the time, and it was about
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Sitting in my pastor's office at the time, and it was about a month after ben passed,
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At the time, and it was about a month after ben passed, and asking him
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A month after ben passed, and asking him that question.
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And asking him that question. why do we pray for healing?
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That question. why do we pray for healing? because i did and i will
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Why do we pray for healing? because i did and i will never forget, obviously.
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Because i did and i will never forget, obviously. he referred me back to jesus.
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Never forget, obviously. he referred me back to jesus. he is our model for everything
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He referred me back to jesus. he is our model for everything in the garden of gethsemane.
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He is our model for everything in the garden of gethsemane. he said, "you know that
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In the garden of gethsemane. he said, "you know that was jesus's battle too.
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He said, "you know that was jesus's battle too. he said, 'i want a plan b.
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Your will not mine.'"
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Your will not mine.'" that doesn't make you feel
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That doesn't make you feel better in that moment when
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Better in that moment when your miracle answer is no,
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Something about prayer
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Something about prayer that changed my life
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Something about prayer that changed my life in the way that
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That changed my life in the way that i relate to god.
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In the way that i relate to god. i remember a friend
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I relate to god. i remember a friend later asking me, "do you pray
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I remember a friend later asking me, "do you pray for healing when
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Later asking me, "do you pray for healing when people ask you?"
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For healing when people ask you?" i said, "to be honest,
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People ask you?" i said, "to be honest, for a while i didn't."
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I said, "to be honest, for a while i didn't." because i didn't know
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For a while i didn't." because i didn't know that it mattered.
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Because i didn't know that it mattered. was the outcome already set?
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That it mattered. was the outcome already set? and then i realized,
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Was the outcome already set? and then i realized, that when we go to god
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And then i realized, that when we go to god knowing he can answer yes
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That when we go to god knowing he can answer yes and knowing he can answer no,
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Knowing he can answer yes and knowing he can answer no, we are first of all
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And knowing he can answer no, we are first of all being obedient to worship him
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We are first of all being obedient to worship him when the outcome may
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Being obedient to worship him when the outcome may or may not be what
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When the outcome may or may not be what we want it to be.
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Or may not be what we want it to be. and b, he is drawing you
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We want it to be. and b, he is drawing you closer to who he is
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And b, he is drawing you closer to who he is and separating that
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Closer to who he is and separating that from what he does.
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And separating that from what he does. and that was a hard lesson
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From what he does. and that was a hard lesson for me.
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And that was a hard lesson for me. to be like if god doesn't
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For me. to be like if god doesn't do what you want,
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To be like if god doesn't do what you want, will you still love him
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Do what you want, will you still love him for who he is to you?
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Will you still love him for who he is to you? and that's a big call.
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For who he is to you? and that's a big call. that was a big call for me
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And that's a big call. that was a big call for me to write this book
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That was a big call for me to write this book which is so just drenched
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To write this book which is so just drenched in scripture and the gospel.
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Which is so just drenched in scripture and the gospel. i'll tell you, i just
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In scripture and the gospel. i'll tell you, i just did the audiobook
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I'll tell you, i just did the audiobook and i was going back through
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Did the audiobook and i was going back through and i was like, girl,
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And i was going back through and i was like, girl, you were not light
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And i was like, girl, you were not light on the gospel.
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You were not light on the gospel. like i'm glad.
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On the gospel. like i'm glad. i was like we did not
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Like i'm glad. i was like we did not sugarcoat this.
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I was like we did not sugarcoat this. but my big lesson was
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Sugarcoat this. but my big lesson was when god's hand doesn't
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But my big lesson was when god's hand doesn't feel good in your life,
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When god's hand doesn't feel good in your life, where do you go to learn
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Feel good in your life, where do you go to learn that his heart is still good?
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Where do you go to learn that his heart is still good? and it is in his word.
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That his heart is still good? and it is in his word. so that's what sustained me
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And it is in his word. so that's what sustained me and that's what brought me
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So that's what sustained me and that's what brought me back to prayer is just
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And that's what brought me back to prayer is just as much about drawing
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Back to prayer is just as much about drawing near to god as it is about
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As much about drawing near to god as it is about getting the outcome you want.
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Near to god as it is about getting the outcome you want. because sometimes you do,
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Getting the outcome you want. because sometimes you do, and sometimes you don't.
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Because sometimes you do, and sometimes you don't. that's tragic. it is!
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And sometimes you don't. that's tragic. it is! tammy: totally.
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That's tragic. it is! tammy: totally. i think that's what
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Tammy: totally. i think that's what i love, mattie about
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I think that's what i love, mattie about your devotional too because
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I love, mattie about your devotional too because it is drenched
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Your devotional too because it is drenched in the word of god.
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It is drenched in the word of god. so many times it is easy
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In the word of god. so many times it is easy for us especially when
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I mean grief looks like
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I mean grief looks like a lot of things, whether
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A lot of things, whether it is loss that we've gone
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It is loss that we've gone through, divorce,
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Through, divorce, the death of a dream,
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The death of a dream, a ministry that didn't
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Or a friendship that failed.
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Or a friendship that failed. i mean loss is loss and
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Or a friendship that failed. i mean loss is loss and it feels deep in the heart,
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I mean loss is loss and it feels deep in the heart, and lonely and painful.
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It feels deep in the heart, and lonely and painful. if we are constantly in
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And lonely and painful. if we are constantly in a place where we are saying,
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If we are constantly in a place where we are saying, well, i say this
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A place where we are saying, well, i say this about the situation
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Well, i say this about the situation or i feel this about it.
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About the situation or i feel this about it. well, what does god say?
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Or i feel this about it. well, what does god say? and if we don't know
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Well, what does god say? and if we don't know the word, then we don't know
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And if we don't know the word, then we don't know what god is saying
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The word, then we don't know what god is saying to our loneliness,
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What god is saying to our loneliness, to the feeling of isolation,
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To our loneliness, to the feeling of isolation, to the feeling of loss,
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To the feeling of isolation, to the feeling of loss, to the feeling of
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To the feeling of loss, to the feeling of i'm not worthy,
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To the feeling of i'm not worthy, i'm not good enough,
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I'm not worthy, i'm not good enough, i'm not smart enough,
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I'm not good enough, i'm not smart enough, i'm without.
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I'm not smart enough, i'm without. and if we don't know
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I'm without. and if we don't know the word of god then we will
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And if we don't know the word of god then we will stay in that rather than
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The word of god then we will stay in that rather than what does god say?
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Stay in that rather than what does god say? i can't do this.
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What does god say? i can't do this. well, with all things
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I can't do this. well, with all things it is possible.
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Well, with all things it is possible. i've not given you
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It is possible. i've not given you a spirit of fear.
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I've not given you a spirit of fear. there are so many promises
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A spirit of fear. there are so many promises from god.
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There are so many promises from god. what i love about
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From god. what i love about through the valley of grief ,
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What i love about through the valley of grief , there is so much.
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Through the valley of grief , there is so much. and it was good for me.
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There is so much. and it was good for me. mattie, 23 years later
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And it was good for me. mattie, 23 years later in my own loss, there was
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Mattie, 23 years later in my own loss, there was so much in this book,
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In my own loss, there was so much in this book, probably every day
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So much in this book, probably every day there was something
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Probably every day there was something where i thought, wow!
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There was something where i thought, wow! i needed this today.
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Where i thought, wow! i needed this today. i thought i handled
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I needed this today. i thought i handled something right
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I thought i handled something right and i didn't and i needed
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Something right and i didn't and i needed this truth from god's word.
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And i didn't and i needed this truth from god's word. but you know what?
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This truth from god's word. but you know what? there are a lot of people
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But you know what? there are a lot of people that are probably watching
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There are a lot of people that are probably watching today that feel like
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That are probably watching today that feel like their whole future has been
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Today that feel like their whole future has been erased because of the path
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Their whole future has been erased because of the path that's been chosen for them
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Erased because of the path that's been chosen for them or that they're on,
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That's been chosen for them or that they're on, that they're taking.
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Or that they're on, that they're taking. what would you say to somebody
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That they're taking. what would you say to somebody that feels like that?
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What would you say to somebody that feels like that? because in the season
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That feels like that? because in the season they're in
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Because in the season they're in like their whole future
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They're in like their whole future is erased. it is done.
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Like their whole future is erased. it is done. this is all it will ever be.
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Is erased. it is done. this is all it will ever be. mattie: i would say
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This is all it will ever be. mattie: i would say first of all, i've written
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Mattie: i would say first of all, i've written and spoken those exact words
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First of all, i've written and spoken those exact words over and over that
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And spoken those exact words over and over that my future looked like
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Over and over that my future looked like it was erased.
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My future looked like it was erased. because for all intents
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It was erased. because for all intents and purposes, a lot
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Because for all intents and purposes, a lot of it was, right?
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And purposes, a lot of it was, right? that i had dreamed
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Of it was, right? that i had dreamed and planned, so i get it.
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That i had dreamed and planned, so i get it. and that is a very hopeless
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And planned, so i get it. and that is a very hopeless and helpless feeling
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And that is a very hopeless and helpless feeling and it is very disorienting
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And helpless feeling and it is very disorienting from every direction.
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And it is very disorienting from every direction. so you're not alone in it.
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From every direction. so you're not alone in it. the next thing i would say
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So you're not alone in it. the next thing i would say is to be in god's word.
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The next thing i would say is to be in god's word. he says in isaiah that
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Is to be in god's word. he says in isaiah that he makes streams
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He says in isaiah that he makes streams in the desert
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He makes streams in the desert and he makes ways
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In the desert and he makes ways where there are no ways.
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And he makes ways where there are no ways. that's what he does.
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Everything new.
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Everything new. and you are the pinnacle
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And you are the pinnacle of what he creates
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Of what he creates so he's creating something
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So he's creating something new and beautiful.
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New and beautiful. i know it is horrible
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And i know that it is scary
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And i know that it is scary when you can't see it.
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And i know that it is scary when you can't see it. i hope that you can see hope
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When you can't see it. i hope that you can see hope in my life when you can't
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I hope that you can see hope in my life when you can't see hope in yours because
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In my life when you can't see hope in yours because tammy, that's what i had.
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See hope in yours because tammy, that's what i had. we were talking backstage.
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Tammy, that's what i had. we were talking backstage. i had widows who lost husbands
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We were talking backstage. i had widows who lost husbands in their 30s
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I had widows who lost husbands in their 30s who were then in their 50s
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In their 30s who were then in their 50s who walked with me.
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Who were then in their 50s who walked with me. and i saw their life
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Who walked with me. and i saw their life full of joy, remarried,
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And i saw their life full of joy, remarried, with children, thriving,
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Full of joy, remarried, with children, thriving, ministering.
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With children, thriving, ministering. and when none of that
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Ministering. and when none of that seemed possible for me,
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And when none of that seemed possible for me, i could see it in them
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Seemed possible for me, i could see it in them and they could speak it to me.
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I could see it in them and they could speak it to me. they would speak
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And they could speak it to me. they would speak god's truth back to me.
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They would speak god's truth back to me. when you go back to his word
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God's truth back to me. when you go back to his word you see him make new things
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When you go back to his word you see him make new things out of broken things,
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You see him make new things out of broken things, and you see him restore.
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Out of broken things, and you see him restore. what you can't picture
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And you see him restore. what you can't picture god has already written.
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What you can't picture god has already written. i know that may sound trite
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God has already written. i know that may sound trite but like dream big with him.
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I know that may sound trite but like dream big with him. imagine the beauty.
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But like dream big with him. imagine the beauty. imagine the restoration
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Imagine the beauty. imagine the restoration because he'll do it
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Imagine the restoration because he'll do it in his way.
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Because he'll do it in his way. stick around to see
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In his way. stick around to see what it is because his way
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Stick around to see what it is because his way is awesome eventually.
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What it is because his way is awesome eventually. tammy: i love that you said
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Is awesome eventually. tammy: i love that you said his way.
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Tammy: i love that you said his way. so we have to be careful,
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His way. so we have to be careful, even for me, i remember
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So we have to be careful, even for me, i remember a lot of people thought
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Even for me, i remember a lot of people thought for me, the redemption story,
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A lot of people thought for me, the redemption story, the resolve would be that
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For me, the redemption story, the resolve would be that i would find love again.
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The resolve would be that i would find love again. then she'll be whole,
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I would find love again. then she'll be whole, then she'll be healed.
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Then she'll be whole, then she'll be healed. but i think that looks like --
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Then she'll be healed. but i think that looks like -- look our stories
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But i think that looks like -- look our stories are parallel but your story
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Look our stories are parallel but your story is different than mine
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Are parallel but your story is different than mine right now.
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Is different than mine right now. but i am healed, mattie.
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Right now. but i am healed, mattie. you are healed, and that story
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But i am healed, mattie. you are healed, and that story looks a little bit different.
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You are healed, and that story looks a little bit different. so we have to be careful
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Looks a little bit different. so we have to be careful not to say, it needs
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So we have to be careful not to say, it needs to look exactly like this
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Not to say, it needs to look exactly like this or then god's not in it.
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To look exactly like this or then god's not in it. god is in the business
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That looks like for mattie,
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That looks like for mattie, whatever that looks like
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Whatever that looks like for tammy, whatever
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For tammy, whatever that looks like for you.
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That looks like for you. it might look different
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It might look different and you have to be willing
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To god's way, and trust
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To god's way, and trust god's will for your life.
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To god's way, and trust god's will for your life. so can pain and joy coexist?
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God's will for your life. so can pain and joy coexist? mattie: this is one of
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So can pain and joy coexist? mattie: this is one of my favorite topics honestly,
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Mattie: this is one of my favorite topics honestly, now, to speak about
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My favorite topics honestly, now, to speak about to people
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Now, to speak about to people and conversations to have.
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To people and conversations to have. because for all intents
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And conversations to have. because for all intents and purposes, he wired me
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Because for all intents and purposes, he wired me as a pretty joyful person.
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And purposes, he wired me as a pretty joyful person. i'm grateful for that.
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As a pretty joyful person. i'm grateful for that. i'm just a glass half full
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I'm grateful for that. i'm just a glass half full almost to a fault.
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I'm just a glass half full almost to a fault. so when i lost ben,
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Almost to a fault. so when i lost ben, those were very foreign
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So when i lost ben, those were very foreign feelings to me.
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Those were very foreign feelings to me. like just feelings of despair,
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Feelings to me. like just feelings of despair, feelings of darkness.
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Like just feelings of despair, feelings of darkness. that was just not something
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Feelings of darkness. that was just not something i had ever traversed.
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That was just not something i had ever traversed. and so for me, one of
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I had ever traversed. and so for me, one of the biggest lessons was
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And so for me, one of the biggest lessons was you don't have to
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The biggest lessons was you don't have to come out of that
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You don't have to come out of that to experience joy again.
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Come out of that to experience joy again. because in this type of loss,
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To experience joy again. because in this type of loss, you don't come out of it,
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Because in this type of loss, you don't come out of it, you just keep moving forward
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You don't come out of it, you just keep moving forward and healing forward.
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You just keep moving forward and healing forward. but you don't have to be
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And healing forward. but you don't have to be in your better place
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But you don't have to be in your better place or your new normal
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In your better place or your new normal to experience joy.
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Or your new normal to experience joy. i think that was a lesson
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To experience joy. i think that was a lesson the lord taught me
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I think that was a lesson the lord taught me early in my grief.
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The lord taught me early in my grief. not because of me but
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Early in my grief. not because of me but really because of ben.
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Not because of me but really because of ben. i write about him often.
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Really because of ben. i write about him often. just like i said earlier,
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I write about him often. just like i said earlier, he was the most abundant man
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Just like i said earlier, he was the most abundant man i have ever experienced.
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He was the most abundant man i have ever experienced. and so in a way, it was
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I have ever experienced. and so in a way, it was god saying carry on
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And so in a way, it was god saying carry on ben's legacy.
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God saying carry on ben's legacy. don't miss these joys.
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Ben's legacy. don't miss these joys. celebrate the things
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Don't miss these joys. celebrate the things he would celebrate.
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Celebrate the things he would celebrate. in that way, he taught me
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He would celebrate. in that way, he taught me how to do that.
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In that way, he taught me how to do that. he taught me how
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How to do that. he taught me how to keep my eyes open
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He taught me how to keep my eyes open for small goodnesses.
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To keep my eyes open for small goodnesses. and really, i think
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For small goodnesses. and really, i think we overuse the word
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And really, i think we overuse the word gratitude now.
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We overuse the word gratitude now. but can you really overuse
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Gratitude now. but can you really overuse the word gratitude ?
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But can you really overuse the word gratitude ? like to pause
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The word gratitude ? like to pause and thank him.
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Like to pause and thank him. to pause and worship him
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And thank him. to pause and worship him when i didn't feel
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To pause and worship him when i didn't feel like worshipping.
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When i didn't feel like worshipping. i think keeping my eyes
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Like worshipping. i think keeping my eyes open and my heart open,
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I think keeping my eyes open and my heart open, and literally praying,
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A little joy, a tiny joy
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A little joy, a tiny joy today, and let me see it.
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Today, and let me see it. that accrues
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That accrues and that adds up,
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And that adds up, and then you learn to look
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And then you learn to look for those things the moment
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On the floor weeping.
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On the floor weeping. and both are true.
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On the floor weeping. and both are true. they just are.
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And both are true. they just are. it is miraculous!
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They just are. it is miraculous! tammy: so let's talk about
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It is miraculous! tammy: so let's talk about grace now.
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Tammy: so let's talk about grace now. and where god has brought you
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Grace now. and where god has brought you now to this day
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And where god has brought you now to this day and the beautiful story
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Now to this day and the beautiful story that he's continued to write
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And the beautiful story that he's continued to write for your life.
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That he's continued to write for your life. mattie: yeah.
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For your life. mattie: yeah. so i appreciate what
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Mattie: yeah. so i appreciate what you said earlier about
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So i appreciate what you said earlier about redemption and restoration
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You said earlier about redemption and restoration not looking cookie cutter.
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Redemption and restoration not looking cookie cutter. you didn't use those words
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Not looking cookie cutter. you didn't use those words but it is not cookie cutter.
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You didn't use those words but it is not cookie cutter. there was a part of me
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But it is not cookie cutter. there was a part of me that before i met my
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There was a part of me that before i met my now husband connor,
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That before i met my now husband connor, and before we remarried
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Now husband connor, and before we remarried last year, praise god,
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And before we remarried last year, praise god, and before we had
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Last year, praise god, and before we had our baby boy three months ago,
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And before we had our baby boy three months ago, just unbelievable
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Our baby boy three months ago, just unbelievable the direct answer
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Just unbelievable the direct answer to these prayers
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The direct answer to these prayers that i prayed tearfully
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To these prayers that i prayed tearfully for years and years and years.
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That i prayed tearfully for years and years and years. i just tell people,
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For years and years and years. i just tell people, remember, the first redemption
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I just tell people, remember, the first redemption was me like you just said.
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Remember, the first redemption was me like you just said. there was a point where
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Was me like you just said. there was a point where i could sit with myself
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There was a point where i could sit with myself and i could sit with the lord
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I could sit with myself and i could sit with the lord and i could sit with
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And i could sit with the lord and i could sit with my very best friends where
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And i could sit with my very best friends where i don't sugarcoat things
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My very best friends where i don't sugarcoat things and say, if this isn't it
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I don't sugarcoat things and say, if this isn't it if god healing me
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And say, if this isn't it if god healing me and him giving me
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If god healing me and him giving me this beautiful love story
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And him giving me this beautiful love story that only lasted three years,
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This beautiful love story that only lasted three years, one year in marriage,
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That only lasted three years, one year in marriage, then that's enough.
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One year in marriage, then that's enough. then he is enough
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Then that's enough. then he is enough and i will live my life
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Then he is enough and i will live my life as best i can,
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And i will live my life as best i can, and some days i do it great,
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As best i can, and some days i do it great, and some days i don't,
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And some days i do it great, and some days i don't, as if everything else
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And some days i don't, as if everything else is a cherry on top.
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As if everything else is a cherry on top. i really feel like
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Is a cherry on top. i really feel like when you get to the depths
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I really feel like when you get to the depths through the valley
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When you get to the depths through the valley with the lord, he teaches you
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Through the valley with the lord, he teaches you in a way that he doesn't
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With the lord, he teaches you in a way that he doesn't teach you anywhere else,
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In a way that he doesn't teach you anywhere else, i am enough and
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Teach you anywhere else, i am enough and everything else is a bonus.
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I am enough and everything else is a bonus. and like connor
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Everything else is a bonus. and like connor and my baby boy
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And like connor and my baby boy are the biggest bonus
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And my baby boy are the biggest bonus i've ever experienced.
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Are the biggest bonus i've ever experienced. and my joy for that
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I've ever experienced. and my joy for that is even deeper than
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And my joy for that is even deeper than it's ever been because
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Is even deeper than it's ever been because of what i've gone through.
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It's ever been because of what i've gone through. but if god didn't take me to
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Of what i've gone through. but if god didn't take me to the god-you-and-me-are-enough
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But if god didn't take me to the god-you-and-me-are-enough place, i would be right back
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The god-you-and-me-are-enough place, i would be right back where i was which is
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Place, i would be right back where i was which is just taking it for granted
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Where i was which is just taking it for granted or thinking it is
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Just taking it for granted or thinking it is what is going to complete me.
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Or thinking it is what is going to complete me. or thinking being a wife
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What is going to complete me. or thinking being a wife again is my identity
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Or thinking being a wife again is my identity when it is just the cherry
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That god already gave me.
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That god already gave me. and that is a life-changing
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And that is a life-changing lesson to learn at 28,
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Lesson to learn at 28, 30, 34 years old.
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30, 34 years old. not to my credit.
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Tammy: amen for that.
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Tammy: amen for that. let's talk about
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Tammy: amen for that. let's talk about through the valley of grief .
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Let's talk about through the valley of grief . what do you hope
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Through the valley of grief . what do you hope for this devotional
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What do you hope for this devotional and how did it even
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For this devotional and how did it even come about?
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And how did it even come about? mattie: well, it came about
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Come about? mattie: well, it came about because i wrote
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Mattie: well, it came about because i wrote those entries to myself.
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Because i wrote those entries to myself. when i was grieving
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Those entries to myself. when i was grieving in the first year,
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When i was grieving in the first year, long story short,
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In the first year, long story short, my mom's best friend gave me
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Long story short, my mom's best friend gave me a similar book but
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My mom's best friend gave me a similar book but it was just quotes.
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A similar book but it was just quotes. it was called
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It was just quotes. it was called healing after loss
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It was called healing after loss and it was specifically about
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Healing after loss and it was specifically about when you've lost someone
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And it was specifically about when you've lost someone to death.
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When you've lost someone to death. it spoke so directly
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To death. it spoke so directly to my experience that
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It spoke so directly to my experience that i read it every day but
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To my experience that i read it every day but it wasn't scripture-based.
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I read it every day but it wasn't scripture-based. it wasn't a christian book.
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It wasn't scripture-based. it wasn't a christian book. i said every day
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It wasn't a christian book. i said every day i wish this was god's word.
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I said every day i wish this was god's word. i wish these words
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I wish this was god's word. i wish these words shepherding me
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I wish these words shepherding me were god's word.
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Shepherding me were god's word. so i started writing
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Were god's word. so i started writing the entries like they were
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So i started writing the entries like they were written in that book but
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The entries like they were written in that book but with scripture
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Written in that book but with scripture instead of just quotes.
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With scripture instead of just quotes. so i started doing that
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Instead of just quotes. so i started doing that as my daily routine.
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So i started doing that as my daily routine. and then i thought,
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As my daily routine. and then i thought, my goodness like other people
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And then i thought, my goodness like other people probably want this too.
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My goodness like other people probably want this too. and this is just a resource
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Probably want this too. and this is just a resource that i wanted.
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And this is just a resource that i wanted. my hope for it is that
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That i wanted. my hope for it is that it is not only a soft place
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My hope for it is that it is not only a soft place for people to land
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It is not only a soft place for people to land in the comfort of god's arms.
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For people to land in the comfort of god's arms. i heard a quote one time,
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In the comfort of god's arms. i heard a quote one time, "when you hit rock bottom
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I heard a quote one time, "when you hit rock bottom he's the softest place
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"when you hit rock bottom he's the softest place you can land."
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He's the softest place you can land." so i hope it is that
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You can land." so i hope it is that from a spiritual perspective.
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So i hope it is that from a spiritual perspective. and honestly,
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From a spiritual perspective. and honestly, from a practical perspective,
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And honestly, from a practical perspective, i hope it gives people
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There is a call to meditate
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There is a call to meditate or pray or do some sort
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Or pray or do some sort of call to action
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Of call to action at the end of every day
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At the end of every day to practice one of
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To practice one of these four rhythms
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These four rhythms that i think ended up saving
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What they were
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What they were and how to do them
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What they were and how to do them in a practical daily way.
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And how to do them in a practical daily way. tammy: mattie, this is
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You and i both needed.
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You and i both needed. we needed this.
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We needed this. and i think we as widows
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And i think we as widows early on in life,
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Early on in life, we searched for things
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We searched for things -- i did.
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-- i did. i'm sure you did too.
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You took the time
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You took the time to write this devotional.
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You took the time to write this devotional. because again, i don't think
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To write this devotional. because again, i don't think it is just for someone
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Because again, i don't think it is just for someone who has lost.
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It is just for someone who has lost. it can be grief
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Who has lost. it can be grief on any level.
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It can be grief on any level. it will minister to
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On any level. it will minister to so many people who just need
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It will minister to so many people who just need the word of god,
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So many people who just need the word of god, who need a little help,
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The word of god, who need a little help, who need a tool,
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Who need a little help, who need a tool, and every day --
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Who need a tool, and every day -- every day there is just
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And every day -- every day there is just a little nugget
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Every day there is just a little nugget where you walk away.
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A little nugget where you walk away. i did!
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Where you walk away. i did! day 30: "any time the lord
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I did! day 30: "any time the lord allows you to struggle
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Day 30: "any time the lord allows you to struggle is because he can already
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Allows you to struggle is because he can already see the magnificent fruit
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Is because he can already see the magnificent fruit on the other side.
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See the magnificent fruit on the other side. when you rejoice,
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On the other side. when you rejoice, pray and thank him
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When you rejoice, pray and thank him even in your low valleys.
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Pray and thank him even in your low valleys. that's when your heart
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Even in your low valleys. that's when your heart is most open to receive
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That's when your heart is most open to receive his divine work
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Is most open to receive his divine work of sanctifying your soul.
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His divine work of sanctifying your soul. his ultimate will is
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Of sanctifying your soul. his ultimate will is to lead each one of us
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His ultimate will is to lead each one of us to become more and more
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To lead each one of us to become more and more like christ even in
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To become more and more like christ even in the struggle."
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Like christ even in the struggle." mattie, i cannot thank you
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The struggle." mattie, i cannot thank you enough for today,
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Mattie, i cannot thank you enough for today, for you, for your life.
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Enough for today, for you, for your life. it is not even that
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For you, for your life. it is not even that your prayer was to be known
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It is not even that your prayer was to be known and seen, but to be known
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Your prayer was to be known and seen, but to be known and seen by jesus.
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And seen, but to be known and seen by jesus. he sees every piece of you,
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And seen by jesus. he sees every piece of you, every part of your life
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He sees every piece of you, every part of your life and nothing is wasted.
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Every part of your life and nothing is wasted. i love that about
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And nothing is wasted. i love that about the connection we had
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I love that about the connection we had just briefly in 2018.
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The connection we had just briefly in 2018. we get to be in this space
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Just briefly in 2018. we get to be in this space together today to say,
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We get to be in this space together today to say, look!
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Together today to say, look! look at what god has done
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Look! look at what god has done in our lives.
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Look at what god has done in our lives. it is possible
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In our lives. it is possible to breathe again.
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It is possible to breathe again. it is possible to live again.
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To breathe again. it is possible to live again. it is possible to be restored.
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It is possible to live again. it is possible to be restored. it is possible to be healed.
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It is possible to be restored. it is possible to be healed. our stories look entirely
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It is possible to be healed. our stories look entirely different than what we thought
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Our stories look entirely different than what we thought they would look like.
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Different than what we thought they would look like. but we are here today,
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They would look like. but we are here today, strong women of god
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But we are here today, strong women of god who are growing and breathing
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Strong women of god who are growing and breathing and moving because of what
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Who are growing and breathing and moving because of what god has done in our lives.
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And moving because of what god has done in our lives. i love you.
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God has done in our lives. i love you. i appreciate you.
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I love you. i appreciate you. and i'm so glad you're here.
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I appreciate you. and i'm so glad you're here. you know there are
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And i'm so glad you're here. you know there are a lot of people in the world
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You know there are a lot of people in the world right now all around
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A lot of people in the world right now all around the world that are struggling,
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Right now all around the world that are struggling, that are facing loss,
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The world that are struggling, that are facing loss, that are facing grief.
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That are facing loss, that are facing grief. i've had the privilege
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That are facing grief. i've had the privilege and opportunity to travel
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And i've seen a lot of it.
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And i've seen a lot of it. one of the most
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One of the most heartbreaking things
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Heartbreaking things i've witnessed
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I've witnessed is the food crisis
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Is the food crisis and many people,
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And many people, many children
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Many children starving to death.
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It is overwhelming
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When you ask the mothers
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How many children they've lost
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Because of it
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And hands go up everywhere.
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And not just one child,
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Many have lost
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Multiple children.
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To be there with them
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Personally, seeing firsthand
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Suffering and losing so much
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Because of the lack of food,
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Well, it is devastating.
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You know what?
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These families are not
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Asking for much --
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Just enough to survive.
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But without it,
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Without our help,
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Many will perish,
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Especially those precious,
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Precious little children,
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And babies.
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So if the lord is moving
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Your heart today to come
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Alongside us to help bring
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Relief, hope, and the love
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Of jesus, then please,
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Please consider
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Giving that gift.
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We are currently feeding
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350,000 children
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In desperate need
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Throughout africa.
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So if you haven't yet
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Had the chance to give,
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I encourage you right now
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To take a moment and pray.
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Just ask the lord if today
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Is the day to partner with us.
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Because together, i know
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We can help change lives
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And bring hope
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Through mission feeding.
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This is what
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That would look like.
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For $30 that will help feed
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And minister to three children
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For three full months.
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$50 will help feed and
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Minister to five children.
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$100 will help ten children.
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And for those who are able,
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$1,000 will help feed
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And minister to 100 children
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For three full months.
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I believe god reveals
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Many things to us
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For so many reasons.
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So i pray today,
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Just as he has shown us
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This need that we will
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Be faithful.
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Not to ignore it,
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But to respond to it.
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So please, go to your phone,
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Or go online and give --
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Just give something today.
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Right now across the continent of africa,
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Children are suffering,
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Facing severe malnutrition and even death.
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Extreme drought and famine
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Putting at risk thousands of lives
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Means we must replenish food supplies immediately
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To keep feeding the 350,000 children
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And help reach more people in desperate need.
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Through life's mission feeding outreach,
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Your gift of love can be an answer to prayer
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For a hurting and hungry child in their time of need.
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Call now with your life-saving gift
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Of $30, $50, or $100
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To help feed and care for
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Three, five, or ten children
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For three full months.
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With your gift of any amount,
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We'll send the daily life devotional calendar.
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This perpetual calendar has 365 days' worth of scriptures
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And inspirational thoughts to remind you
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Of the rest you can find in god's loving arms.
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With your gift of $100 or more,
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You may request the "the light of life" desk lamp.
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Find comfort and encouragement
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From jesus' words in john 8:12
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Displayed on this stand-alone acrylic gas lamp,
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Perfect for home or office décor
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As a reminder that jesus is the light of the world.
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Finally, with your gift of $1,000 or more
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To help feed and care for 100 children,
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Be sure to request our inspiring
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Bronze sculpture, "a cup of water."
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Please call, write, or make your gift online today.
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Tammy: i hope
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Tammy: i hope you're going online
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Tammy: i hope you're going online and giving the best gift
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You're going online and giving the best gift you possibly can give.
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And giving the best gift you possibly can give. you must know it will
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You possibly can give. you must know it will make such a huge difference
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You must know it will make such a huge difference in so many lives.
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Make such a huge difference in so many lives. and for whatever gift
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In so many lives. and for whatever gift that you can give today,
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And for whatever gift that you can give today, we want to send you
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That you can give today, we want to send you mattie jackson smith's
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We want to send you mattie jackson smith's devotional,
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Mattie jackson smith's devotional, through the valley of grief .
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Devotional, through the valley of grief . mattie, thank you so much
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Through the valley of grief . mattie, thank you so much for being here.
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Mattie, thank you so much for being here. is there anything
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For being here. is there anything you want to say at all,
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Is there anything you want to say at all, one last little something?
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You want to say at all, one last little something? mattie: i would just say,
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One last little something? mattie: i would just say, your pain is not wasted.
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Mattie: i would just say, your pain is not wasted. that was my greatest fear.
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Your pain is not wasted. that was my greatest fear. in the hands of god,
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That was my greatest fear. in the hands of god, everything is made new
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In the hands of god, everything is made new and every story is redeemable.
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Everything is made new and every story is redeemable. tammy: pain is real
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And every story is redeemable. tammy: pain is real but so is hope.
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Tammy: pain is real but so is hope. i love you.
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But so is hope. i love you. gosh, and i want to leave you
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I love you. gosh, and i want to leave you with a little something
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Gosh, and i want to leave you with a little something from day 147.
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With a little something from day 147. mattie says, "you may not
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From day 147. mattie says, "you may not fathom it now, but
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Mattie says, "you may not fathom it now, but the lord has dreams
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Fathom it now, but the lord has dreams in mind for your future.
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The lord has dreams in mind for your future. he has plans to bring you
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In mind for your future. he has plans to bring you back, bring your life back
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He has plans to bring you back, bring your life back into your barren heart.
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Back, bring your life back into your barren heart. not to replace what
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Into your barren heart. not to replace what you've lost but
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Not to replace what you've lost but to restore the days of joy."
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You've lost but to restore the days of joy." psalms 126:5 says,
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To restore the days of joy." psalms 126:5 says, "those who plant in tears
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Psalms 126:5 says, "those who plant in tears will harvest with shouts
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"those who plant in tears will harvest with shouts of joy!"
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Will harvest with shouts of joy!" thank you so much
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Of joy!" thank you so much for watching.
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Thank you so much for watching. we'll see you next time
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For watching. we'll see you next time right here on life today .
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♪
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♪ right now i want that mountain moved ♪
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♪ right now i want that ocean to part ♪
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♪ right now, god, i'm looking for you ♪
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♪ and i'm wondering where you are ♪
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♪ but why do i worry? ♪
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♪ god, i know you haven't failed me yet ♪
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♪ why do i worry ♪
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♪ you prove it over and over again ♪
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♪ every, every, every day ♪
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♪ jesus ♪
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♪ you're right on, right on, right on time ♪
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♪ jesus ♪
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♪ never been a minute, hour, day ♪
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♪ where my god has ever shown up late ♪
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♪ because every, every, every time ♪
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♪ you're right there right on time ♪
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♪ like a movie when all hope is lost ♪
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♪ and the hero comes and saves the day ♪
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♪ that's who you are to me you're never far from me ♪
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♪ even when i have to wait ♪
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♪ so why do i worry? ♪
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♪ god, i know you haven't failed me yet ♪
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♪ why do i worry? ♪
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♪ you prove it over and over again ♪
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♪ every, every, every day ♪
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♪ jesus ♪
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♪ you're right on, right on, right on time ♪
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♪ jesus ♪
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♪ never been a minute, hour, day ♪
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♪ when my god has ever shown up late ♪
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♪ cause every, every, every time ♪
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♪ he's right there right on time ♪
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♪ hallelujah! hallelujah! ♪
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♪ got a god who will always come through, yeah ♪
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♪ hallelujah! hallelujah! ♪
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♪ there ain't nothing my god can't do, yeah ♪
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♪ hallelujah! hallelujah! ♪
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♪ got a god who will always come through, yeah! ♪
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♪ hallelujah! hallelujah ♪
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♪ there ain't nothing my god can't do, yeah! ♪
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♪ every, every, every day ♪
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♪ jesus ♪
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♪ you're right on right on, right on time ♪
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♪ jesus ♪
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♪ never been a minute, hour, day ♪
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♪ when my god has ever shown up late ♪
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♪ cause every, every, every time ♪
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♪ you're right there right on time ♪
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♪ hallelujah! hallelujah! ♪
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♪ got a god who always comes through, yeah ♪
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♪ hallelujah! hallelujah! ♪
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♪ there ain't nothing my god can't do, yeah! ♪
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♪ hallelujah! hallelujah! ♪
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♪ got a god who always comes through, yeah ♪
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♪ hallelujah! hallelujah! ♪
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♪ there ain't nothing my god can't do, yeah! ♪
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>> during my battle with crohn's disease,
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I took 30 different products, not capsules a day, bottles.
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None of them worked.
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The one element that changed jordan rubin's life.
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Tomorrow!
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As examples of the programs it supports and conducts.
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Gifts are considered to be without restriction
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As to use unless explicitly stipulated by the donor.
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The ministry is a member of the ecfa.
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Mattie Jackson Smith - Hope During Suffering

November 26, 2024 | S24:E1126

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