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Praise | Brian & Jenn Johnson | 2/5/19

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February 5, 2019
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Matt & Laurie Crouch host Brian & Jenn Johnson.

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Praise | Brian & Jenn Johnson | 2/5/19

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  • [MUSIC]
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  • - ANNOUNCER: TONIGHT ON PRAISE, FROM REDDING,
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  • CALIFORNIA, CO FOUNDERS OF BETHEL MUSIC AND
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  • WORSHIP LEADERS AT BETHEL CHURCH, BRIAN AND
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  • JENN JOHNSON.
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  • AND NOW MATT AND LAURIE CROUCH.
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  • - MATT CROUCH: WE WELCOME YOU TO THE
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  • BEAUTIFUL NORTHERN CALIFORNIA LOCATION.
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  • WE ARE IN BETHEL COUNTRY.
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  • WE ARE RIGHT HERE IN REDDING, CALIFORNIA OR
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  • NEAR REDDING OVERLOOKING LAKE SHASTA. OKAY.
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  • BRIAN AND JENN JOHNSON.
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  • - LAURIE CROUCH: YEAH!
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  • WELCOME.
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  • - WE WANT TO TALK ABOUT MUSIC.
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  • WE WANT TO TALK ABOUT FOOD.
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  • YOU TRIMMED YOUR BEARD FOR THIS.
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  • EVERYTHING IS FANTASTIC.
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  • - JENN JOHNSON: OUR TODDLER MAY WALK IN ANY TIME NOW.
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  • - THAT WOULD BE AWESOME.
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  • [LAUGHTER]
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  • - SO WE KNOW YOU PRIMARILY BECAUSE OF
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  • MUSIC, OKAY, SO LET'S START THERE.
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  • THAT'S KIND OF A GOOD START.
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  • WHEN DID YOU GUYS MEET AND START DOING
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  • MUSIC TOGETHER?
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  • WHAT'S THAT ALL ABOUT?
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  • - JENN JOHNSON: WE KNEW OF EACH OTHER WHEN WE
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  • WERE YOUNGER BECAUSE HIS DAD USED TO COME TO MY
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  • LITTLE CHURCH OVER ON THE COAST IN
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  • NORTHERN CALIFORNIA.
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  • HE GREW UP IN THE MOUNTAINS, AND SO WE KNEW
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  • OF EACH OTHER, AND I BECAME FRIENDS WITH HIS
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  • SISTER THROUGH CHURCH CAMPS.
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  • AND THEN I MOVED TO BETHEL WHEN I WAS 17 TO
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  • GO TO SCHOOL MINISTRY WITH MY FAMILY.
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  • AND MY PARENTS SOLD EVERYTHING WE OWNED.
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  • WE MOVED OVER, AND THEN THAT'S HOW WE CONNECTED, AND --
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  • - BRIAN JOHNSON: SHE WAS SITTING IN THE CENTER AISLE, 17
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  • YEARS OLD, AND SHE LOOKED A LITTLE DIFFERENT.
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  • - THAN WHEN WE WERE LITTLE.
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  • - AND I THINK RIGHT AFTER THAT MY
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  • BROTHER-IN-LAW-- I SAID, YOU GLOTTAL HOOK ME UP WITH HER.
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  • - YEAH.
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  • - SO HE DID.
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  • AND THEN WE WERE TOGETHER.
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  • - VERY SHORTLY, YEAH.
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  • - WE WERE ENGAGED FOR -- WE GOT TOGETHER
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  • OFFICIALLY AND THEN WERE ENGAGED IN TEN DAYS.
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  • - REALLY?
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  • - WOW.
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  • - WE JUST KIND OF HUNG OUT OVER THE SUMMER AND
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  • THEN HAPPENED FAST.
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  • - AND THAT WAS HOW MANY YEARS AGO?
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  • - ALMOST 19.
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  • - ALMOST 19.
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  • - SEE, AND YOU'RE SO YOUNG AND YOU'VE GOT 19
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  • BEAUTIFUL YEARS.
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  • - YEAH.
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  • IT'S BEEN AMAZING.
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  • WE HAVE NO REGRETS.
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  • IT'S BEEN AMAZING.
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  • - MET AT CHURCH. KIDS?
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  • - FOUR KIDS.
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  • UH-HUH.
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  • AND IT'S INCREDIBLE.
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  • TO BE A PART OF A CHURCH AND THE MUSIC
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  • AND EVERYTHING.
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  • IT'S JUST AMAZING.
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  • - WERE YOU A SINGER AT 17?
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  • - YEAH.
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  • I GREW UP SINGING IN CHURCH.
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  • STARTED AT WOMEN'S AGLOW WHEN I WAS 5, YOU KNOW,
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  • SINGING ACHY ARCHY, YOU KNOW.
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  • SO I'VE LOVED THE CHURCH AND THE LORD MY WHOLE LIFE.
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  • WE BOTH HAVE, SO YEAH.
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  • - IN FACT, THE NIGHT I PROPOSED WAS ON THE STAGE.
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  • WE WERE LEADING WORSHIP TOGETHER, SO RIGHT BEFORE
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  • - I HAD NO IDEA.
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  • MY HAIR WASN'T FIXED.
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  • - RIGHT?
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  • - IT WAS MEANT TO BE.
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  • - NO IDEA.
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  • - I PROPOSED TO HER LIVE ON TV.
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  • SO YOU WERE LIVE IN THE CHURCH.
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  • I WAS LIVE ON TV.
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  • - HOW LONG AGO?
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  • - 34.
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  • - 33.
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  • - SO 33 AND A HALF YEARS AGO HE PROPOSED.
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  • - THEN WE WENT TO FRIDAY'S AFTER AND
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  • HAD NACHOS.
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  • - WE WENT TO APPLEBEES.
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  • [LAUGHTER]
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  • - WE GOT FOOD IN.
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  • YOU SEE HOW THAT WORKS?
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  • - IT'S ALWAYS GOING TO REVOLVE AROUND FOOD IF
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  • YOU HANG OUT FOR US FOR FIVE MINUTES.
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  • WE LOVE JESUS, PEOPLE, AND FOOD.
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  • AND OUR HOME IS PROBABLY --
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  • - JESUS, FOOD, AND PEOPLE.
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  • - I MEAN, MOST DAYS, LET'S BE HONEST.
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  • - OUR HOME IS IN THERE THOUGH SOMEWHERE.
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  • [LAUGHTER]
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  • - KIDS.
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  • KIDS COME IN THERE SOMEWHERE.
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  • - NO, THAT'S PEOPLE.
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  • THEY'RE PEOPLE.
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  • [LAUGHTER]
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  • - SO WHEN DID YOU SING YOUR FIRST
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  • SONG TOGETHER?
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  • THAT WAS BACK IN THE DAY.
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  • - 19 PLUS YEARS, AND A HALF YEARS AGO.
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  • - YEAH, PROBABLY.
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  • - WHEN DID YOU HAVE YOUR FIRST NATIONAL EXPOSURE,
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  • A SONG YOU WROTE, PERFORMED, THAT OTHER
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  • CHURCHES STARTED?
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  • WHEN DID WE GET TO KNOW YOU THROUGH YOUR MUSIC?
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  • WHEN WAS THAT?
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  • - THERE WAS A SONG ON THE RENEWAL, THAT WHOLE
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  • THING THAT WAS IN THAT KIND OF WORLD, BUT IT
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  • WASN'T ON A REAL NATIONAL -- BUT I THINK ONE THING
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  • REMAINS, YOUR LOVE NEVER FAILS, THAT SONG.
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  • WHEN THAT CAME OUT, THAT KIND OF OPENED UP THAT
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  • WHOLE WORLD.
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  • - YEAH.
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  • - SO THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN 2008 MAYBE.
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  • - DIFFERENT SONGS KIND OF SHOT OUT DIFFERENT
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  • PLACES OR KIND OF HAD THEIR IN THE EARLY YEARS
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  • HAD THEIR KIND OF -- IT WAS KIND OF RANDOM BUT THEN
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  • IT JUST STARTED GAINING MOMENTUM.
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  • THE CHURCH, ALSO.
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  • - ONE OF THE MOST AMAZING THINGS I REMEMBER
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  • LAURIE AND I ARE KIND OF PATHETIC AT SOCIAL MEDIA,
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  • AND SHE DOESN'T DO IT AT ALL SO THAT'S LEFT
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  • UP TO ME, SO I POST THESE LITTLE VIDEOS AND STUFF
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  • LIKE THAT.
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  • IT'S VERY UNPROFESSIONAL STUFF.
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  • I'M PARTICULAR WHEN IT COMES TO THIS KIND OF
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  • STUFF, YOU KNOW, SO THIS IS A REAL SET UP, AND BY
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  • THE WAY, WELCOME TO NORTHERN CALIFORNIA.
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  • BRIAN AND JENN JOHNSON, OUR GUESTS ALL ONE HOUR.
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  • SO ANYWAY, WE KIND OF-- WE'RE TERRIBLE AT THIS,
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  • SO I THINK I REMEMBER POSTING A LITTLE BIT AND
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  • THEN WE WENT TO ISRAEL TOGETHER.
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  • I WAS JUST STANDING -- I THINK YOU MADE A JOKE
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  • ABOUT IT.
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  • I KIND OF WALKED UP ON STAGE.
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  • I TOOK MY I PHONE.
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  • HE WAS JUST LAUGHING.
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  • - HE LOVED IT.
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  • - YEAH.
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  • HE'S JUST LAUGHING, SO I POST THAT AND I THINK I'D
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  • GOTTEN 100 VIEWS ON SOMETHING PRIOR TO THAT,
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  • AND THIS WAS LIKE 17.000 PEOPLE.
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  • SO IT WAS JUST A CRAZY THING THAT HAPPENED, AND
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  • SO BETHEL AND TBN WE REALLY KIND OF HOOKED UP
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  • FOR REAL ABOUT 18 MONTHS, MAYBE A COUPLE OF YEARS
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  • AGO, BEEN TO ISRAEL NOW TOGETHER AND
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  • DOING CONTENT.
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  • AND SO WE'LL GO HUNTING TOGETHER REAL SOON.
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  • - HE CAME HOME, HE'S LIKE BABE, THESE ARE
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  • MY PEOPLE.
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  • I LOVE THE CROUCHES.
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  • I LOVE THE PEOPLE.
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  • HE'S LIKE, YOU GOTTA MEET THEM.
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  • I WISH YOU WERE HERE.
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  • AND THEN WE GOT TO HANG OUT.
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  • - YEAH.
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  • - SO BRIAN, WE INTERVIEWED TOGETHER IN
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  • ISRAEL, AND THE ONE THING THAT KIND OF WAS A BIT OF
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  • A SHOCK IS, YOU KNOW, YOU'RE A BOW HUNTER,
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  • RIFLE HUNTER, YOU DO ALL THAT KIND OF STUFF, YOU
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  • BUILD YOUR OWN FURNITURE. I MEAN --
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  • - NOT REALLY.
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  • I PAY GUYS TO DO THAT AND I MICRO MANAGE.
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  • [LAUGHTER]
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  • - LIKE HIM.
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  • - BUT THE THING THAT I WAS LIKE WAIT, WHAT?
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  • IS WHEN YOU STARTED TALKING ABOUT THINGS THAT
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  • YOU'VE DEALT WITHIN YOUR LIFE THAT HAD TO DO WITH FEAR.
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  • OKAY.
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  • - RIGHT.
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  • - IN CASE SOMEBODY MISSED THAT WHOLE THING
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  • AND WE MIGHT BE INTRODUCING YOU TO A FEW
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  • PEOPLE, STEP INTO THAT BECAUSE WE WANT TO GET IN
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  • AND I WANT TO GET SOME CONTENT AUTO OF YOUR
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  • NEW BOOK THAT'S COMING OUT SOON, WHEN GOD
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  • BECOMES REAL.
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  • SO WHEN IT'S KIND OF YOUR TESTIMONY, YEAH?
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  • BIT OF IT.
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  • - IT'S MY LATEST.
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  • - THERE WILL BE MORE LATER.
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  • - ONLY GOOD.
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  • - SO KIND OF JUMP BACKWARDS A LITTLE BIT
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  • AND SHOCK EVERYBODY IN CASE THEY HAVEN'T HEARD.
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  • - I THINK, YOU KNOW, EVERYONE DEALS WITH
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  • ANXIETY AND FEAR TO SOME DEGREE AND SOME MORE THAN
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  • OTHERS, BUT I THINK WHAT HAPPENED WAS I HAD DEALT
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  • WITH STUFF AND THOUGHT IT WAS I WOULDN'T SAY FINE,
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  • BUT IT CAME TO A POINT WHERE I HIT A WALL EVEN
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  • PHYSICALLY WHERE SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH
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  • MY BODY.
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  • AND THAT WASN'T JUST EMOTIONS, FEELING SCARED
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  • OR WHATEVER BUT LIKE SOMETHING, AND IT WAS
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  • ACTUALLY A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN BECAUSE
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  • SOMETHING HAPPENED AND I JUST COULDN'T HANDLE IT.
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  • I GOT TO A POINT, AND I JUST BLEW, I GUESS, POPPED.
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  • AND COULDN'T BREATHE.
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  • - PHYSICALLY SOMETHING HAPPENED.
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  • DID THE DOCTOR SAY THAT IT'S CHEMICALS INSIDE
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  • OR HORMONES?
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  • - IT COULD BE A MIX OF THINGS, BUT MY FEAR OR MY
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  • ANXIETY OR MY STRESS, YOU KNOW, YOU THINK YOU'RE
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  • MANAGING IT OKAY, BUT IT LED ME TO THIS PLACE
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  • WHERE I JUST COULDN'T HANDLE IT ANYMORE, AND IT
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  • WAS A REALLY SCARY MOMENT BECAUSE YOU FEEL LIKE
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  • YOU'RE OUT OF CONTROL.
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  • I CAN'T BREATHE.
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  • I'M HAVING A HEART ATTACK.
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  • PHYSICALLY I FEEL NUMB.
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  • JUST REALLY WEIRD, WEIRD PHYSICAL FEELING ON TOP
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  • OF COMPLETE TERROR BECAUSE YOU FEEL LIKE
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  • YOUR OUT OF CONTROL.
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  • AND SO GO TO THE HOSPITAL AND THROUGH THAT PROCESS
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  • JUST REALLY STARTED LEARNING ABOUT OH, WOW,
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  • AND THEN REALLY DEEP DIVING I FINALLY GOT
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  • DESPERATE ENOUGH TO LIKE, I QUIT EVERYTHING AND
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  • STARTED GETTING UP IN THE MORNINGS AND DOING MY
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  • DEVOTIONS ON A TOTALLY DIFFERENT LEVEL AND GOD
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  • POINTED OUT A FEW THINGS TO ME, AND ONE OF THOSE
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  • THINGS WAS YOU'RE DEALING WITH HEART STUFF,
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  • FORGIVENESS, PRIORITIES.
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  • BECAUSE I THINK WE'RE LIKE ALL INDESTRUCTIBLE
  • 00:08:45.270 --> 00:08:49.110
  • AND WE CAN HANDLE EVERYTHING BUT I JUST GOT
  • 00:08:49.130 --> 00:08:50.280
  • TO THE POINT WHERE I HIT A WALL, AND LITERALLY IT
  • 00:08:51.000 --> 00:08:53.280
  • WAS THE SCARIEST THING EVER BECAUSE I THOUGHT
  • 00:08:54.000 --> 00:08:55.190
  • EITHER I WAS DYING OR HAVING A HEART ATTACK,
  • 00:08:55.210 --> 00:08:58.000
  • BUT IT WAS PRETTY MIRACULOUS I THINK THE
  • 00:08:58.020 --> 00:09:02.280
  • PROCESS OF GETTING ALONE WITH GOD BECAUSE WHAT
  • 00:09:03.000 --> 00:09:04.240
  • STARTED HAPPENING IS YOU KNOW THAT DAILY BREAD, I
  • 00:09:04.260 --> 00:09:09.110
  • WAS GETTING DAILY IN MY DEVOTIONS ALMOST WORD FOR
  • 00:09:09.130 --> 00:09:12.190
  • WORD SOMETIMES WHAT I NEEDED FOR THAT DAY AND
  • 00:09:12.210 --> 00:09:15.020
  • I'D FIND OUT LATER, AND IT WASN'T FOR THE NEXT DAY.
  • 00:09:15.040 --> 00:09:17.050
  • IT WAS LITERALLY EVERYTHING SLOWED WAY DOWN.
  • 00:09:17.070 --> 00:09:19.020
  • AND IT WAS JUST LIKE IN SLOW MOTION, SO GOD
  • 00:09:19.040 --> 00:09:22.120
  • STARTED TEACHING ME ABOUT THAT, AND IF I MISSED A
  • 00:09:22.140 --> 00:09:26.060
  • DAY WHAT I EXPERIENCED IN THAT DAY, AND THEN I'D GO
  • 00:09:26.080 --> 00:09:29.020
  • AND READ THE NEXT DAY, WHAT I READ WAS FOR -- IT
  • 00:09:29.040 --> 00:09:32.050
  • WAS THE WEIRDEST --
  • 00:09:32.070 --> 00:09:33.210
  • IT WAS THIS JOURNEY THAT GOD TOOK ME ON THAT
  • 00:09:33.230 --> 00:09:35.080
  • REALLY BROUGHT A LOT OF HEALING TO MY MIND, AND
  • 00:09:35.100 --> 00:09:40.080
  • IT'S REALLY HARD TO EXPLAIN, BUT MY MIND FELT
  • 00:09:40.100 --> 00:09:42.090
  • LIKE SCRAMBLED EGGS, SO I FEEL LIKE HE BROUGHT
  • 00:09:42.110 --> 00:09:44.040
  • HEALING EMOTIONALLY, SPIRITUALLY, AND ALSO
  • 00:09:44.060 --> 00:09:46.020
  • MENTALLY, YOU KNOW.
  • 00:09:46.040 --> 00:09:47.260
  • - WHAT WERE YOU SEEING, JENN, DURING
  • 00:09:47.280 --> 00:09:49.190
  • THAT TIME?
  • 00:09:49.210 --> 00:09:51.040
  • WHAT WAS YOUR LENS TO WHAT THAT WAS?
  • 00:09:51.060 --> 00:09:55.080
  • I MEAN, YOU OBVIOUSLY HAD A RING SIDE SEAT, BUT
  • 00:09:55.100 --> 00:09:57.090
  • WHAT WERE YOU SEEING?
  • 00:09:57.110 --> 00:09:59.270
  • - I THINK THAT, YOU KNOW, WE'D BEEN MARRIED
  • 00:09:59.290 --> 00:10:01.250
  • AT THE TIME FOR 15, ALMOST 16 YEARS, SO YOU
  • 00:10:01.270 --> 00:10:05.070
  • KNOW YOU REALLY KNOW THAT PERSON, AND HE JUST KIND
  • 00:10:05.090 --> 00:10:10.200
  • OF HAD THAT PATTERN OF THINKING HE WAS OKAY
  • 00:10:10.220 --> 00:10:12.150
  • WITH A LOT.
  • 00:10:12.170 --> 00:10:14.100
  • MINISTRY IS AMAZING BUT ESPECIALLY FAMILY AND ALL
  • 00:10:14.120 --> 00:10:18.050
  • DIFFERENT LEVELS AND THE LABEL, IT'S VERY
  • 00:10:18.070 --> 00:10:20.010
  • STRESSFUL, YOU KNOW.
  • 00:10:20.030 --> 00:10:21.180
  • AND WE JUST WOULD WALK THROUGH THESE REALLY
  • 00:10:21.200 --> 00:10:25.080
  • DIFFICULT THINGS, AND YOU KNOW, YOU DO THE BEST OF
  • 00:10:25.100 --> 00:10:27.140
  • YOUR ABILITY, BUT I COULD SEE HIM BOTTLING UP.
  • 00:10:27.160 --> 00:10:30.190
  • SO I THINK FOR HIM HE DID HAVE THAT DEMONIC ATTACK
  • 00:10:30.210 --> 00:10:37.050
  • WHEN HE WAS LITTLE.
  • 00:10:37.070 --> 00:10:38.120
  • HE USED TO HAVE A LOT OF THOSE WHEN HE WAS LITTLE,
  • 00:10:38.140 --> 00:10:40.020
  • SO I THINK IT WAS PART THAT, BUT I THINK THAT
  • 00:10:40.040 --> 00:10:42.020
  • WAS KIND OF THE ICING ON THE CAKE.
  • 00:10:42.040 --> 00:10:43.160
  • I THINK HE WAS SO BOTTLED UP WITH JUST
  • 00:10:43.180 --> 00:10:46.010
  • CONVERSATIONS HE NEEDED TO HAVE, PEOPLE HE NEEDED
  • 00:10:46.030 --> 00:10:47.250
  • TO FORGIVE THAT HE WAS THOUGHT HE WAS OKAY,
  • 00:10:47.270 --> 00:10:49.180
  • THOUGHT HE'D LET GO.
  • 00:10:49.200 --> 00:10:51.020
  • BUT LIKE HE SAID, HE JUST POPPED AND THAT KIND OF
  • 00:10:51.040 --> 00:10:54.070
  • JUST TOOK HIM OVER THE EDGE.
  • 00:10:54.090 --> 00:10:55.190
  • BUT I THINK THE MOST AMAZING THING FOR ME WAS
  • 00:10:55.210 --> 00:10:57.170
  • WATCHING HIM GET THROUGH THAT, LIKE WITH THE
  • 00:10:57.190 --> 00:11:01.280
  • STRENGTH OF THE LORD BUT LIKE, HE HAD THOSE
  • 00:11:02.000 --> 00:11:03.280
  • DIFFICULT CONVERSATIONS THAT HE NEEDED TO HAVE,
  • 00:11:04.000 --> 00:11:06.000
  • AND HE FORGAVE AND JUST DEALT, LET THE LORD DEAL
  • 00:11:06.020 --> 00:11:10.190
  • WITH HIM LIKE A WITH A MICROSCOPE, YOU KNOW, ON
  • 00:11:10.210 --> 00:11:13.280
  • LITTLE THINGS IN HIS LIFE THAT WEREN'T A BIG DEAL
  • 00:11:14.000 --> 00:11:15.130
  • BUT HE KNEW GOD WAS LEANING IN AND GOING THIS
  • 00:11:15.150 --> 00:11:17.120
  • IS ISN'T FOR YOU OR WHATNOT.
  • 00:11:17.140 --> 00:11:19.140
  • AND WATCHING THAT I THINK WAS AMAZING,
  • 00:11:19.160 --> 00:11:22.240
  • BUT IT WAS TOUGH.
  • 00:11:22.260 --> 00:11:25.000
  • AND I'M HAVING TO -- I'VE GOT THE KIDS AND THE
  • 00:11:25.020 --> 00:11:27.240
  • MINISTRY AND THE DECISIONS AND THE LABEL
  • 00:11:27.260 --> 00:11:30.000
  • WITH JOEL, SO IT WAS A LOT, BUT I THINK THAT THE
  • 00:11:30.020 --> 00:11:33.130
  • THING THAT CHANGED MY LIFE IS I REMEMBER JUST
  • 00:11:33.150 --> 00:11:36.030
  • CRYING ONE NIGHT, LIKE I'D JUST BE SO STRONG,
  • 00:11:36.050 --> 00:11:38.040
  • AND I REMEMBER BEING IN MY BED JUST CRYING, AND
  • 00:11:38.060 --> 00:11:40.240
  • THE LORD JUST SPOKE TO ME THIS VERSE, ECCLESIASTES,
  • 00:11:40.260 --> 00:11:43.130
  • AND I JUST OPENED IT UP.
  • 00:11:43.150 --> 00:11:45.020
  • I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT IT SAID.
  • 00:11:45.040 --> 00:11:46.110
  • I OPENED IT UP, AND IT SAID -- LIKE THE WORDS
  • 00:11:46.130 --> 00:11:47.250
  • JUMPED OUT.
  • 00:11:47.270 --> 00:11:49.030
  • IT WAS A MESSAGE BIBLE, AND IT SAID THE WORST IS
  • 00:11:49.050 --> 00:11:50.220
  • NEVER THE WORST.
  • 00:11:50.240 --> 00:11:53.020
  • AND I MEAN, THAT BECAME MY ANCHOR, YOU KNOW, LIKE
  • 00:11:53.040 --> 00:11:56.150
  • THIS IS NOT THE WORST.
  • 00:11:56.170 --> 00:11:57.290
  • AND IT ENDED UP THIS THING HAPPENING TO HIM IT
  • 00:11:58.010 --> 00:12:00.060
  • WAS HELL, BUT IT BECAME THE BEST THING FOR HIM,
  • 00:12:00.080 --> 00:12:03.010
  • YOU KNOW.
  • 00:12:03.030 --> 00:12:04.010
  • IT REALLY DID.
  • 00:12:04.030 --> 00:12:05.100
  • DO I THINK GOD CAUSED IT? NO.
  • 00:12:05.120 --> 00:12:06.170
  • BUT I THINK, YOU KNOW, HE'LL USE IT.
  • 00:12:06.190 --> 00:12:09.060
  • BUT IT BECAME THE BEST THING FOR HIM BECAUSE IT
  • 00:12:09.080 --> 00:12:10.280
  • BROUGHT HIM BACK TO GROUND ZERO WITH
  • 00:12:11.000 --> 00:12:12.230
  • PRIORITIES AND THE LORD AND IT ENDED UP
  • 00:12:12.250 --> 00:12:16.210
  • BEING A GIFT.
  • 00:12:16.230 --> 00:12:18.050
  • - YOU SAID A MINUTE AGO, BRIAN, THAT YOU WERE
  • 00:12:18.070 --> 00:12:21.100
  • GETTING DAILY BREAD MEANING IF YOU PUT THE
  • 00:12:21.120 --> 00:12:26.120
  • TIME IN, WHAT GOD DELIVERED TO YOU
  • 00:12:26.140 --> 00:12:29.260
  • SUSTAINED YOU FOR THAT DAY.
  • 00:12:29.280 --> 00:12:31.190
  • HE GROUND YOU DOWN TO THE POINT WHERE DAILY BREAD
  • 00:12:31.210 --> 00:12:34.090
  • MANNA WAS NECESSARY.
  • 00:12:34.110 --> 00:12:35.230
  • - YEAH.
  • 00:12:35.250 --> 00:12:37.100
  • I WAS TAKING MEDS JUST TO COPE THROUGHOUT THE DAY
  • 00:12:37.120 --> 00:12:41.040
  • TOO, SO I COULDN'T EVEN FULLY FUNCTION WITHOUT
  • 00:12:41.060 --> 00:12:42.290
  • IT AT ALL.
  • 00:12:43.010 --> 00:12:44.200
  • LIKE I WAS HAVING PANIC ATTACKS SO I HAD TO TAKE IT.
  • 00:12:44.220 --> 00:12:46.220
  • SO I GOT SO GROUND DOWN TO THE POINT WHERE I
  • 00:12:46.240 --> 00:12:48.050
  • DIDN'T HAVE ANY OTHER OPTIONS, AND I FELT LIKE
  • 00:12:48.070 --> 00:12:49.170
  • THE LORD SPOKE TO ME ABOUT GETTING UP AND JUST
  • 00:12:49.190 --> 00:12:52.010
  • START READING AND NOT READING FOR QUANTITY BUT
  • 00:12:52.030 --> 00:12:54.120
  • FOR QUALITY.
  • 00:12:54.140 --> 00:12:55.200
  • SOMETIMES I'D READ ONE VERSE FOR AN HOUR JUST
  • 00:12:55.220 --> 00:12:57.120
  • OVER AND OVER UNTIL YOU JUST FELT -- AND IT WAS
  • 00:12:57.140 --> 00:13:00.120
  • MORE ABOUT GOD'S PRESENCE BEING NEAR AND LIKE
  • 00:13:00.140 --> 00:13:03.090
  • BECOMING REAL.
  • 00:13:03.110 --> 00:13:07.070
  • LIKE, WE KNOW GOD'S REAL OBVIOUSLY.
  • 00:13:07.090 --> 00:13:09.100
  • LOOK AROUND, BUT IN THOSE MOMENTS I NEEDED THAT
  • 00:13:09.120 --> 00:13:11.160
  • REALNESS TO FEEL AND BE DIFFERENT, AND THE
  • 00:13:11.180 --> 00:13:14.090
  • REALITY OF HIS PRESENCE WAS THERE SO I WAS
  • 00:13:14.110 --> 00:13:16.050
  • GETTING STUFF OUT OF THE WORD NOT JUST IN HEAD
  • 00:13:16.070 --> 00:13:18.110
  • KNOWLEDGE OR LIKE A VERSE THAT ANSWERED MY DILEMMA,
  • 00:13:18.130 --> 00:13:21.020
  • BUT THERE WAS A PRESENCE IN A MOMENT THAT KIND OF
  • 00:13:21.040 --> 00:13:23.080
  • CAME WITH IT.
  • 00:13:23.100 --> 00:13:24.190
  • AND IT WAS REALLY SURREAL, LIKE IT WAS
  • 00:13:24.210 --> 00:13:27.010
  • REALLY SPOOKY ALMOST TO WHERE I'D READ SOMETHING
  • 00:13:27.030 --> 00:13:28.090
  • AND THEN THAT'S WHAT I NEEDED FOR THE DAY.
  • 00:13:28.110 --> 00:13:29.130
  • BUT IT WAS INTERESTING.
  • 00:13:29.150 --> 00:13:31.000
  • IT WAS ALL SLOWED DOWN AND I DIDN'T EVER GET
  • 00:13:31.020 --> 00:13:32.230
  • ANYTHING FOR THE NEXT DAY.
  • 00:13:32.250 --> 00:13:34.170
  • IT WAS LIKE EVERYTHING HAD TO STOP AND RESTART.
  • 00:13:34.190 --> 00:13:37.080
  • AND LIKE I SAID, IT'S LIKE APPROACHING GOD IF
  • 00:13:37.100 --> 00:13:41.220
  • YOU WERE ON A DESERTED ISLAND AND THERE WAS NO
  • 00:13:41.240 --> 00:13:43.180
  • ONE ELSE THERE FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE, YOU
  • 00:13:43.200 --> 00:13:44.270
  • WOULD APPROACH GOD AND READ THE BIBLE
  • 00:13:44.290 --> 00:13:45.280
  • TOTALLY DIFFERENT.
  • 00:13:46.000 --> 00:13:47.060
  • IT WOULDN'T BE A RAT RACE TO TRY TO COME UP
  • 00:13:47.080 --> 00:13:48.230
  • WITH SOMETHING.
  • 00:13:48.250 --> 00:13:50.030
  • IT WOULD BE LIKE THE PUREST FORM OF
  • 00:13:50.050 --> 00:13:52.030
  • RELATIONSHIP I THINK ON THIS SIDE OF HEAVEN.
  • 00:13:52.050 --> 00:13:55.120
  • AND I THINK APPROACHING GOD IN THAT WAY IS WHAT
  • 00:13:55.140 --> 00:13:59.260
  • BROUGHT THE MOST HEALING TO ME.
  • 00:13:59.280 --> 00:14:03.000
  • - WOULD IT TO BE FAIR TO SAY THEN THAT YOU WOULD
  • 00:14:03.020 --> 00:14:05.250
  • HAVE NEVER CHOSEN THAT PATH IF YOU GOT -- YOU
  • 00:14:05.270 --> 00:14:08.230
  • NEVER WOULD HAVE CHOSEN TO FEEL LIKE YOU'RE
  • 00:14:08.250 --> 00:14:12.270
  • HAVING A HEART ATTACK.
  • 00:14:12.290 --> 00:14:14.110
  • YOU WOULD HAVE NEVER CHOSEN THAT BUT
  • 00:14:14.130 --> 00:14:15.260
  • ULTIMATELY WHEN YOU GET TO THE POINT WHERE YOU'RE
  • 00:14:15.280 --> 00:14:18.210
  • DESPERATE ENOUGH TO DO WHAT YOU SAID, TO TAKE
  • 00:14:18.230 --> 00:14:20.250
  • THE RELATIONSHIP WITH JESUS A DAY AT A TIME AND
  • 00:14:20.270 --> 00:14:25.190
  • LET THAT BE, ARE YOU BETTER FOR IT NOW?
  • 00:14:25.210 --> 00:14:29.230
  • I MEAN, YOUR BOOK WHEN GOD BECOMES REAL, YOU
  • 00:14:29.250 --> 00:14:34.240
  • WOULDN'T HAVE CHOSEN IT BUT YOU'RE HERE NOW AND
  • 00:14:34.260 --> 00:14:37.080
  • YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH SOMETHING THAT YOU WOULD HAVE NEVER --
  • 00:14:37.100 --> 00:14:39.060
  • - LIKE JENN SAID WAS THAT WAS A
  • 00:14:39.080 --> 00:14:40.260
  • GIFT, AND I THINK THAT'S WHAT GOD DOES I THINK
  • 00:14:40.280 --> 00:14:44.050
  • IN GROWING US.
  • 00:14:44.070 --> 00:14:45.270
  • NO MATTER HOW WE FIGHT IT OR HOW WE TRY TO MANAGE
  • 00:14:45.290 --> 00:14:50.020
  • OUR LIVES, THINGS COME, YOU KNOW, AND WE HAVE TO
  • 00:14:50.040 --> 00:14:53.180
  • DEAL WITH IT.
  • 00:14:53.200 --> 00:14:54.270
  • NOW, THE GREAT THING ABOUT HAVING GOD ON OUR
  • 00:14:54.290 --> 00:14:56.190
  • SIDE IS THAT HE GIVES US THE GRACE AND THE
  • 00:14:56.210 --> 00:14:59.010
  • STRENGTH AND THE GROWS AND HE BLOOMS, AND WE
  • 00:14:59.030 --> 00:15:01.270
  • BLOSSOM AND WE BECOME FRUITFUL THROUGH THAT
  • 00:15:01.290 --> 00:15:04.070
  • THING WHERE IT COULD DESTROY THE NORMAL PERSON
  • 00:15:04.090 --> 00:15:07.040
  • WITHOUT GOD.
  • 00:15:07.060 --> 00:15:08.170
  • IT WOULD DESTROY THEM, BUT WITH CHRISTIANS AND
  • 00:15:08.190 --> 00:15:11.190
  • GOD WITH US, IT DOES AMAZING THINGS.
  • 00:15:11.210 --> 00:15:14.290
  • I LOVE WHAT YOUR DAD SAID IN HIS LATEST BOOK.
  • 00:15:15.010 --> 00:15:18.140
  • HE WAS TALKING ABOUT GIVE THE LORD'S PRAYER, AND HE
  • 00:15:18.160 --> 00:15:22.030
  • REALLY CALLS IT THE DISCIPLES PRAYER.
  • 00:15:22.050 --> 00:15:24.050
  • AND THAT IS GIVE US THIS DAY, OUR DAILY BREAD.
  • 00:15:24.070 --> 00:15:27.010
  • AND SO THAT'S A BEAUTIFUL THING BECAUSE I THINK
  • 00:15:27.030 --> 00:15:30.170
  • IT'S GOING TO ENCOURAGE THE PEOPLE.
  • 00:15:30.190 --> 00:15:32.190
  • IT KIND OF HAS DONE ME, TOO.
  • 00:15:32.210 --> 00:15:34.140
  • I MEAN, I'M SORRY, SOMETIMES I DON'T READ
  • 00:15:34.160 --> 00:15:37.270
  • THE BIBLE EVERY DAY.
  • 00:15:37.290 --> 00:15:39.170
  • YOU KNOW, TIME GOES AND ALL THE SUDDEN IT'S BEEN
  • 00:15:39.190 --> 00:15:42.010
  • A DAY OR 2 SINCE I GRABBED MY BIBLE, AND I
  • 00:15:42.030 --> 00:15:45.100
  • JUST READ, AND I KNOW PEOPLE DON'T WANT TO HEAR THAT.
  • 00:15:45.120 --> 00:15:48.290
  • - NO, THEY DO WANT TO HEAR THAT.
  • 00:15:49.010 --> 00:15:50.280
  • - AND THAT ENCOURAGES ME NOW.
  • 00:15:51.000 --> 00:15:54.140
  • - I'M TALKING ABOUT --
  • 00:15:54.160 --> 00:15:55.250
  • - SINNER.
  • 00:15:55.270 --> 00:15:56.290
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:15:57.010 --> 00:15:58.130
  • - IT REMINDS ME I NEED TO READ.
  • 00:15:58.150 --> 00:16:00.040
  • - RIGHT.
  • 00:16:00.060 --> 00:16:01.120
  • THAT'S SO GOOD THOUGH.
  • 00:16:01.140 --> 00:16:02.240
  • IF WE CAN JUST GRAB A VERSE BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT
  • 00:16:02.260 --> 00:16:05.120
  • WE'RE SUPPOSED TO PRAY, GIVE ME THIS DAY WHAT I'M
  • 00:16:05.140 --> 00:16:07.260
  • SUPPOSED TO LIVE BY TODAY.
  • 00:16:07.280 --> 00:16:09.200
  • - YES.
  • 00:16:09.220 --> 00:16:11.070
  • - AND SO THAT JUST ENCOURAGES ME JUST TO
  • 00:16:11.090 --> 00:16:13.230
  • WHATEVER YOU HAVE TO DO, IF YOU HAVE TO POST IT ON
  • 00:16:13.250 --> 00:16:16.200
  • YOUR MIRROR, JUST SOMETHING HIT YOU THAT
  • 00:16:16.220 --> 00:16:18.230
  • DAY, READ SOMETHING, YOU KNOW.
  • 00:16:18.250 --> 00:16:21.180
  • - IT HELPED ME GET OFF THE MEDS ACTUALLY.
  • 00:16:21.200 --> 00:16:23.150
  • IT GAVE ME THE GRACE AND I FELT LIKE GOD'S
  • 00:16:23.170 --> 00:16:25.210
  • PRESENCE WAS NEAR.
  • 00:16:25.230 --> 00:16:27.110
  • IT'S CALLED THERE WAS A PEACE IN THE PANIC IN
  • 00:16:27.130 --> 00:16:29.100
  • THIS WEIRD KIND OF WAY BECAUSE THE PANIC ATTACKS
  • 00:16:29.120 --> 00:16:31.060
  • WERE CONSTANT, BUT IN THE MIDST OF THIS THERE WAS
  • 00:16:31.080 --> 00:16:34.050
  • THIS WEIRD PEACE, SO I CHOSE TO WEAN MYSELF OFF
  • 00:16:34.070 --> 00:16:38.030
  • EVEN THOUGH I WAS HAVING PANIC ATTACKS.
  • 00:16:38.050 --> 00:16:40.050
  • I ENDURED IT BECAUSE I KNEW THAT GOD WAS WITH
  • 00:16:40.070 --> 00:16:43.110
  • ME, AND IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I KNEW THAT I KNEW
  • 00:16:43.130 --> 00:16:45.140
  • THIS WAS THE PATH I WAS SUPPOSED TO TAKE.
  • 00:16:45.160 --> 00:16:47.230
  • INSTEAD OF TRYING TO TAKE SOMETHING ELSE SO I
  • 00:16:47.250 --> 00:16:49.290
  • WOULDN'T HAVE A PANIC ATTACK, I JUST WOULDN'T.
  • 00:16:50.010 --> 00:16:53.020
  • - EXPERIENCE GOD.
  • 00:16:53.040 --> 00:16:54.250
  • - IT'S A BEAUTIFUL AFTERNOON HERE IN
  • 00:16:54.270 --> 00:16:56.230
  • NORTHERN CALIFORNIA, AND WE ARE DOING A
  • 00:16:56.250 --> 00:17:01.180
  • PRAISE PROGRAM.
  • 00:17:01.200 --> 00:17:03.250
  • BRIAN AND JENN JOHNSON WILL BE WITH US THIS
  • 00:17:03.270 --> 00:17:06.030
  • ENTIRE ONE HOUR.
  • 00:17:06.050 --> 00:17:08.100
  • WE'RE TALKING ABOUT KIND OF A STRESS RELATED KIND
  • 00:17:08.120 --> 00:17:13.210
  • OF PANICKY KIND OF STUFF, BUT YOU KNOW, THE SUBJECT
  • 00:17:13.230 --> 00:17:18.280
  • COULD BE DIFFERENT FOR OUR VIEWING AUDIENCE.
  • 00:17:19.000 --> 00:17:20.250
  • IT COULD BE THE LOSS OF A LOVED ONE, A DEVASTATING
  • 00:17:20.270 --> 00:17:24.110
  • SITUATION OF THE LOSS OF A FAMILY MEMBER
  • 00:17:24.130 --> 00:17:27.040
  • OR SOMETHING.
  • 00:17:27.060 --> 00:17:28.130
  • YOU KNOW, IT COULD BE SOMETHING COMPLETELY
  • 00:17:28.150 --> 00:17:30.030
  • DIFFERENT, BUT THE POINT WAS YOU WERE AT A POINT
  • 00:17:30.050 --> 00:17:33.260
  • WHERE WITHOUT JESUS DAILY CONNECTING TO YOU
  • 00:17:33.280 --> 00:17:38.250
  • YOU WERE IN A REALLY BAD SITUATION.
  • 00:17:38.270 --> 00:17:41.170
  • - OH, YEAH.
  • 00:17:41.190 --> 00:17:43.090
  • I COULDN'T COPE WITHOUT MEDS, AND YOU
  • 00:17:43.110 --> 00:17:45.120
  • PROBLEM IS YOU KEEP HAVING TO TAKE MORE JUST
  • 00:17:45.140 --> 00:17:47.120
  • TO FUNCTION, SO IT WAS EITHER GO THAT ROAD OR
  • 00:17:47.140 --> 00:17:50.130
  • GOD DOING WHAT HE DID WHICH IN MY MIND WAS A
  • 00:17:50.150 --> 00:17:53.170
  • MIRACULOUS THING.
  • 00:17:53.190 --> 00:17:54.290
  • - AND YOUR BOOK, WHEN GOD BECOMES REAL, IS THAT
  • 00:17:55.010 --> 00:17:57.120
  • CHRONICLING THIS WHOLE THING SO THAT NO MATTER
  • 00:17:57.140 --> 00:18:00.140
  • WHAT THE SITUATION IS, PEOPLE CAN USE
  • 00:18:00.160 --> 00:18:04.150
  • THE PROCESS?
  • 00:18:04.170 --> 00:18:06.030
  • THE PROCESS IS WHAT GOT YOU THROUGH.
  • 00:18:06.050 --> 00:18:07.260
  • - YEAH.
  • 00:18:07.280 --> 00:18:09.080
  • AND IT'S A LOT OF YOUR LIFE STORY TOO, ISN'T IT?
  • 00:18:09.100 --> 00:18:10.210
  • - YEAH.
  • 00:18:10.230 --> 00:18:11.290
  • WHEN I WAS 7, THE FIRST TIME I HAD SOMETHING
  • 00:18:12.010 --> 00:18:13.170
  • HAPPEN LIKE THAT, AND IT GOES THROUGH 7 TO NOW
  • 00:18:13.190 --> 00:18:16.270
  • BASICALLY OF JUST THAT WHOLE, ALL THAT STUFF SO.
  • 00:18:16.290 --> 00:18:20.230
  • - SO DURING THIS TIME YOU'RE ON THE PLATFORM.
  • 00:18:20.250 --> 00:18:23.070
  • - YEAH.
  • 00:18:23.090 --> 00:18:25.020
  • - AND YOU'RE WORSHIPPING AND YOU'RE DOING YOUR THING.
  • 00:18:25.040 --> 00:18:29.020
  • HOW WAS THAT FOR YOU?
  • 00:18:29.040 --> 00:18:31.160
  • - WELL, I DIDN'T -- - DID YOU STOP?
  • 00:18:31.180 --> 00:18:34.020
  • - NO, I STOPPED.
  • 00:18:34.040 --> 00:18:34.260
  • - YOU STOPPED.
  • 00:18:34.280 --> 00:18:36.070
  • - DURING THE REAL INTENSITY IT I STOPPED.
  • 00:18:36.090 --> 00:18:39.050
  • A LITTLE BIT IN THE BEGINNING I WAS UP THERE,
  • 00:18:39.070 --> 00:18:42.120
  • YOU KNOW, DOING IT, BUT I ENDED UP REMOVING MYSELF
  • 00:18:42.140 --> 00:18:45.150
  • COMPLETELY FOR A FEW MONTHS JUST BECAUSE I
  • 00:18:45.170 --> 00:18:48.200
  • NEEDED TO GET BETTER BECAUSE I WAS, YOU KNOW,
  • 00:18:48.220 --> 00:18:51.080
  • IN ORDER TO FUNCTION I WAS HAVING TO TAKE STUFF,
  • 00:18:51.100 --> 00:18:54.010
  • AND I JUST DIDN'T WANT TO DO THAT.
  • 00:18:54.030 --> 00:18:56.130
  • I WANTED TO GET BETTER, SO I PULLED MYSELF FROM
  • 00:18:56.150 --> 00:18:59.030
  • EVERYTHING THAT WOULD BE ANY SORT OF STRESS
  • 00:18:59.050 --> 00:19:03.230
  • RELATED ANYTHING IN ANY WAY. YEAH.
  • 00:19:03.250 --> 00:19:06.280
  • - AND SO YOU'RE STILL WORSHIPPING.
  • 00:19:07.000 --> 00:19:09.160
  • I MEAN WAS THAT JUST A HUGE PART OF
  • 00:19:09.180 --> 00:19:11.140
  • YOUR GETTING THROUGH IT?
  • 00:19:11.170 --> 00:19:12.260
  • - YEAH.
  • 00:19:12.280 --> 00:19:14.080
  • I THINK THAT WE'RE REALLY OPEN AND VULNERABLE WITH
  • 00:19:14.100 --> 00:19:19.160
  • OUR TEAM AND THE WORLD, SO PEOPLE KNEW WHAT WE
  • 00:19:19.180 --> 00:19:22.120
  • WERE GOING THROUGH, AND IT WAS WILD EVEN SOME
  • 00:19:22.140 --> 00:19:25.180
  • PEOPLE, OUR FRIENDS WHO DIDN'T, THE AMOUNT OF
  • 00:19:25.200 --> 00:19:28.140
  • TEXTS AND PHONE CALLS AND PROPHETIC WORDS OF
  • 00:19:28.160 --> 00:19:32.140
  • ENCOURAGEMENT, PEOPLE WHO HAD NO IDEA BUT KNEW THE
  • 00:19:32.160 --> 00:19:35.110
  • HOLY SPIRIT WOULD JUST CONTACT US, TO WATCH HOW
  • 00:19:35.130 --> 00:19:38.110
  • WE WERE COVERED NOT ONLY BY THE LORD IN THAT BUT
  • 00:19:38.130 --> 00:19:41.190
  • BY COMMUNITY AND IT WAS INCREDIBLE, ABSOLUTELY
  • 00:19:41.210 --> 00:19:45.060
  • INCREDIBLE. PEOPLE WOULD SEND US VERSES, AND IT WOULD
  • 00:19:45.080 --> 00:19:47.100
  • BE THE EXACT THING WE NEEDED IN THE MOMENT.
  • 00:19:47.120 --> 00:19:49.110
  • BUT YEAH, I THINK THAT THERE WAS A MASSIVE GRACE
  • 00:19:49.130 --> 00:19:54.090
  • ON ME JUST TO KEEP GOING, BUT THERE WERE HARD MOMENTS.
  • 00:19:54.110 --> 00:19:57.210
  • WHEN HE'S A VEGETABLE, MEDICATED, I HAVE TO
  • 00:19:57.230 --> 00:20:00.290
  • COACH HIM THROUGH THAT HE'S NOT LOSING HIS MIND
  • 00:20:01.010 --> 00:20:03.050
  • AND HE'S GONNA MAKE IT, MOMENT-TO-MOMENT, THOSE
  • 00:20:03.070 --> 00:20:05.050
  • WERE DAYS, THOSE WERE MONTHS THAT WENT BY.
  • 00:20:05.070 --> 00:20:08.010
  • IT WAS WEARYING.
  • 00:20:08.030 --> 00:20:09.280
  • WE WERE IN THE MIDDLE OF A MASSIVE CONSTRUCTION,
  • 00:20:10.000 --> 00:20:12.140
  • SO THERE'S CONTRACTORS EVERYWHERE.
  • 00:20:12.160 --> 00:20:13.230
  • I MEAN, IT WAS A ZOO!
  • 00:20:13.250 --> 00:20:17.060
  • LOOKING BACK I'M LIKE OH, MY GOSH.
  • 00:20:17.080 --> 00:20:19.140
  • BUT THERE'S NOT A LOT WE COULD HAVE CHANGED, BUT
  • 00:20:19.160 --> 00:20:22.010
  • I DID FEEL THE GRACE OF GOD AND THE STRENGTH
  • 00:20:22.030 --> 00:20:25.150
  • OF GOD AND COMMUNITY.
  • 00:20:25.170 --> 00:20:27.240
  • - SO WHAT'S COME OUT OF THAT? WHAT'S THE--
  • 00:20:27.260 --> 00:20:32.160
  • BECAUSE IN THE DARKNESS IS WHERE YOU
  • 00:20:32.180 --> 00:20:34.100
  • GET YOUR BEST TREASURES, THE MOST BEAUTIFUL
  • 00:20:34.120 --> 00:20:36.070
  • TREASURES FROM GOD.
  • 00:20:36.090 --> 00:20:38.000
  • WHAT IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING THAT
  • 00:20:38.020 --> 00:20:39.160
  • HAS COME OUT OF THAT?
  • 00:20:39.180 --> 00:20:42.120
  • - I THINK THERE'S A LOT. - LAURIE: TELL US.
  • 00:20:42.140 --> 00:20:44.220
  • - I THINK THERE'S SOME UNSEEN, I THINK GOD
  • 00:20:44.240 --> 00:20:46.170
  • REWARDS, YOU KNOW WHEN WE GO THROUGH SOMETHING LIKE
  • 00:20:46.190 --> 00:20:49.170
  • THAT, I THINK THERE'S REWARD THAT WE DON'T
  • 00:20:49.190 --> 00:20:51.040
  • MAYBE KNOW IT'S CONNECTED TO THAT, BUT A LOT OF
  • 00:20:51.060 --> 00:20:53.120
  • AMAZING FRUIT HAS COME OUT OF IT LIKE JUST
  • 00:20:53.140 --> 00:20:56.230
  • NATURAL FRUIT IN THE MINISTRY.
  • 00:20:56.250 --> 00:20:58.220
  • BUT I THINK FOR ME PERSONALLY, LIKE I KNOW
  • 00:20:58.240 --> 00:21:01.110
  • THAT IN FACT OUR 15 MONTH OLD BABY LOVES TO PARTY,
  • 00:21:01.130 --> 00:21:06.160
  • AND HE'S UP UNTIL 11:30.
  • 00:21:06.180 --> 00:21:09.130
  • SO I USED TO GET UP AT 5:15 DURING ALL THIS AND
  • 00:21:09.150 --> 00:21:12.080
  • DO MY TIME WITH THE LORD, BUT SINCE WE HAD THE
  • 00:21:12.100 --> 00:21:15.240
  • BABY, THINGS ARE A LITTLE DIFFERENT.
  • 00:21:15.260 --> 00:21:18.140
  • SO EVEN THOUGH WE HAVE A LOT OF HELP, BUT I KNOW,
  • 00:21:18.160 --> 00:21:22.020
  • I LEARNED THROUGH THAT SEASON THAT I KNOW MY LIMITS.
  • 00:21:22.040 --> 00:21:24.080
  • I'M STARTING TO LEARN MORE WHEN I CAN FEEL I
  • 00:21:24.100 --> 00:21:27.080
  • PULL OUT OF THINGS USUALLY A LOT QUICKER,
  • 00:21:27.100 --> 00:21:29.210
  • AND I KNOW THAT IF I GET UP IN THE MORNING--
  • 00:21:29.230 --> 00:21:37.160
  • HE'S JUST SO GOOD LOOKING.
  • 00:21:37.180 --> 00:21:39.060
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:21:39.080 --> 00:21:40.230
  • - JENN: HE'S ALL CHOKED UP OVER IT.
  • 00:21:40.250 --> 00:21:42.060
  • - I HEAR THAT A LOT.
  • 00:21:42.080 --> 00:21:43.270
  • - NO, I KNOW IF I GET UP IN THE MORNING, IF I'M
  • 00:21:43.290 --> 00:21:45.230
  • GOING THROUGH SOMETHING AND I GET UP IN THE
  • 00:21:45.250 --> 00:21:47.090
  • MORNING, JUST SPEND TIME WITH GOD.
  • 00:21:47.110 --> 00:21:48.190
  • IT'S RIGHT THERE.
  • 00:21:48.210 --> 00:21:50.240
  • SO REVELATION STARTS TO COME, THIS WHOLE THING,
  • 00:21:50.260 --> 00:21:56.030
  • SO I HAVE THAT ANCHOR THAT I'LL TAKE WITH ME
  • 00:21:56.050 --> 00:21:59.230
  • THROUGH THE REST OF MY LIFE.
  • 00:21:59.250 --> 00:22:01.030
  • - SO IT'S ALMOST LIKE YOU WERE FORCED THERE,
  • 00:22:01.050 --> 00:22:03.140
  • BUT NOW YOU KNOW IT'S THERE.
  • 00:22:03.160 --> 00:22:05.110
  • YOU FOUND THE SECRET FOR WHAT YOU NEED BECAUSE YOU
  • 00:22:05.130 --> 00:22:11.150
  • GUYS, WE ALL GET-- I HAVE GOOSE BUMPS JUST THINKING
  • 00:22:11.170 --> 00:22:16.040
  • ABOUT YOUR MUSIC, SO YOU DO SOMETHING TO THE REST
  • 00:22:16.060 --> 00:22:21.200
  • OF US, AND I'M SORRY THAT YOU HAD TO BE
  • 00:22:21.220 --> 00:22:24.200
  • FILETED OUT ON THIS.
  • 00:22:24.220 --> 00:22:28.030
  • - I PROBABLY DID IT TO MYSELF.
  • 00:22:28.050 --> 00:22:30.030
  • - BUT AT SOME POINT YOU WERE JUST, YOU WERE PUT
  • 00:22:30.050 --> 00:22:32.230
  • ON THE STRETCHING RACK, BUT WHAT HAS COME OUT OF
  • 00:22:32.250 --> 00:22:38.110
  • THAT IS THIS MUSIC.
  • 00:22:38.130 --> 00:22:40.170
  • BY THE WAY, IF YOU JUST TUNED IN, BRIAN AND JENN
  • 00:22:40.190 --> 00:22:44.220
  • JOHNSON SING ALL THAT GREAT MUSIC, SO JUST
  • 00:22:44.240 --> 00:22:47.000
  • GO LOOK IT UP. IT'S A THING.
  • 00:22:47.020 --> 00:22:49.080
  • IT'S CALLED BETHEL MUSIC.
  • 00:22:49.100 --> 00:22:51.240
  • SO WE HEAR THIS AMAZING MUSIC.
  • 00:22:51.260 --> 00:22:54.200
  • WE GET MINISTERED TO.
  • 00:22:54.220 --> 00:22:57.120
  • BUT YOU HAD TO GO AND FIND THIS PLACE THAT GOD
  • 00:22:57.140 --> 00:23:02.050
  • FORCED YOU TO GO TO, AND NOW THERE'S A TREASURE
  • 00:23:02.070 --> 00:23:06.030
  • THERE THAT YOU'RE ABLE TO WRITE ABOUT, YOU'RE ABLE
  • 00:23:06.050 --> 00:23:08.150
  • TO SING ABOUT, AND YOU-- MILLIONS OF ALBUMS LATER
  • 00:23:08.170 --> 00:23:15.040
  • NOW AND YOU'RE HELPING US.
  • 00:23:15.060 --> 00:23:19.030
  • I MEAN SERIOUSLY. IT'S AMAZING.
  • 00:23:19.050 --> 00:23:21.070
  • SO THANK YOU FOR BEING TORTURED ALMOST TO DEATH.
  • 00:23:21.090 --> 00:23:25.260
  • - I THINK IT'S AMAZING TOO TO SEE WHAT THAT
  • 00:23:25.280 --> 00:23:29.290
  • SEASON DID EVEN THOUGH IT WAS HELL FOR THE KIDS.
  • 00:23:30.010 --> 00:23:33.010
  • THE REASON THE BOOK IS TITLED THAT IS BECAUSE
  • 00:23:33.030 --> 00:23:37.180
  • THAT'S WHAT HE SAID TO OUR KIDS WHEN HE WAS
  • 00:23:37.200 --> 00:23:40.170
  • LITERALLY FIGHTING FOR HIS LIFE, ABOUT TO
  • 00:23:40.190 --> 00:23:42.070
  • GO TO THE HOSPITAL.
  • 00:23:42.090 --> 00:23:43.290
  • - IT WAS A REALLY COOL MOMENT, EVEN THOUGH I
  • 00:23:44.010 --> 00:23:47.020
  • COULDN'T BREATHE AND I WAS LIKE ON A LEVEL OF
  • 00:23:47.040 --> 00:23:49.230
  • PANIC LIKE TAKE ME TO THE HOSPITAL, PUT ME OUT,
  • 00:23:49.250 --> 00:23:53.030
  • I CAN'T. YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
  • 00:23:53.050 --> 00:23:56.000
  • BUT I HAD THIS ONE, LIKE, LIGHT AT THE
  • 00:23:56.020 --> 00:23:58.180
  • END OF THE TUNNEL MOMENT, WHERE I'M HAVING A HARD
  • 00:23:58.200 --> 00:24:01.220
  • TIME BREATHING, AMBULANCE WALKED IN, THEY'RE ABOUT TO DO
  • 00:24:01.240 --> 00:24:04.050
  • THE OXYGEN, AND I FELT LIKE I WAS SUPPOSED TO GO TO MY
  • 00:24:04.070 --> 00:24:06.260
  • KIDS, AND I WENT UP TO MY KIDS AND I SAID THIS IS
  • 00:24:06.280 --> 00:24:09.100
  • WHEN GOD BECOMES REAL, IN THAT--
  • 00:24:09.120 --> 00:24:12.250
  • BECAUSE OF MY HISTORY WITH THE LORD, I GREW UP
  • 00:24:12.270 --> 00:24:16.140
  • SEEING THE CHURCH AND FAITH AND THE WHOLE THING.
  • 00:24:16.160 --> 00:24:20.080
  • I KNEW THE OUTCOME OF THIS COULD ONLY BE GOOD,
  • 00:24:20.100 --> 00:24:23.050
  • EVEN THOUGH EVERYTHING I KNEW WAS NOT A CHANCE
  • 00:24:23.070 --> 00:24:24.140
  • THIS IS THE WORST.
  • 00:24:24.160 --> 00:24:25.290
  • I WANTED THEM TO HAVE SOMETHING TO HANG ONTO
  • 00:24:26.010 --> 00:24:27.150
  • BECAUSE IN THE END, I WANTED THEM TO SEE THIS
  • 00:24:27.170 --> 00:24:29.060
  • PROCESS, WHEN GOD BECOMES REAL, IT'S A GIFT.
  • 00:24:29.080 --> 00:24:32.030
  • THIS IS WHEN GOD BECOMES GIFT, SO THAT'S WHY WE
  • 00:24:32.050 --> 00:24:35.070
  • TITLED IT THAT BECAUSE IT WAS JUST THAT MOMENT.
  • 00:24:35.090 --> 00:24:37.280
  • AND I LOOK BACK AND I DON'T KNOW HOW I DID
  • 00:24:38.000 --> 00:24:39.230
  • THAT, BUT I FELT LIKE I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO IT,
  • 00:24:39.250 --> 00:24:41.170
  • AND IT WAS ONE OF THE BIGGEST STEPS OF FAITH
  • 00:24:41.190 --> 00:24:43.160
  • I'VE EVER DONE IN MY LIFE.
  • 00:24:43.180 --> 00:24:45.170
  • IT'S JUST KIND OF A COOL STORY.
  • 00:24:45.190 --> 00:24:48.120
  • - TOTAL STEP OF FAITH.
  • 00:24:48.140 --> 00:24:49.230
  • I CAN SEE THAT IN THE DARKEST MOMENT,
  • 00:24:49.250 --> 00:24:51.290
  • YOU'RE SAYING TO YOUR KIDS, YOU'RE ALMOST PROPHESYING.
  • 00:24:52.010 --> 00:24:54.210
  • - THAT'S WHAT IT'S ALL ABOUT.
  • 00:24:54.230 --> 00:24:56.130
  • THAT IS WHAT IT'S ALL ABOUT.
  • 00:24:56.150 --> 00:24:58.210
  • - AND THEY WATCHED HIM NOT FIGHT GOD BUT THEY
  • 00:24:58.230 --> 00:25:01.080
  • WATCHED HIM AND OUR COMMUNITY AND NOW THE
  • 00:25:01.100 --> 00:25:04.170
  • WORLD, THEY WATCHED HIM HAVE GOD HELP HIM
  • 00:25:04.190 --> 00:25:08.190
  • FIGHT THIS BATTLE.
  • 00:25:08.210 --> 00:25:11.050
  • AND IT WASN'T LIKE HE WAS FIGHTING GOD, BUT THEY
  • 00:25:11.070 --> 00:25:12.190
  • WATCHED GOD HELP HIM FIGHT THIS THING, AND HE
  • 00:25:12.210 --> 00:25:15.050
  • WAS WORSHIPPING, AND HE'D PRAY THROUGH IT, AND
  • 00:25:15.070 --> 00:25:17.190
  • WORSHIP THROUGH IT, AND READ HIS BIBLE, AND I
  • 00:25:17.210 --> 00:25:19.230
  • THINK THAT THE FRUIT FOR ME, I MEAN TO WATCH THAT
  • 00:25:19.250 --> 00:25:22.210
  • FOR OUR KIDS AND FOR OUR COMMUNITY.
  • 00:25:22.230 --> 00:25:24.190
  • IT MASSIVELY CHANGED AND GREW OUR COMMUNITY EVEN
  • 00:25:24.210 --> 00:25:27.250
  • TIGHTER ALSO AS WE ALL KIND OF WENT MAN, WE
  • 00:25:27.270 --> 00:25:30.120
  • DON'T WANT TO BE FORCED INTO THIS BUT WE WANT
  • 00:25:30.140 --> 00:25:33.030
  • THIS WITHOUT A FIGHT.
  • 00:25:33.050 --> 00:25:35.010
  • GOD, WE WANT THE WORD TO BE OUR DAILY-- WE WANT TO
  • 00:25:35.030 --> 00:25:37.130
  • PROCESS THROUGH HARD THINGS WITH PEOPLE AND
  • 00:25:37.150 --> 00:25:39.110
  • NOT-- SO IT WAS REALLY FOR OUR WHOLE COMMUNITY.
  • 00:25:39.130 --> 00:25:42.170
  • - MATT CROUCH: WHEN GOD BECOMES REAL.
  • 00:25:42.190 --> 00:25:43.260
  • BY THE WAY, THIS BOOK IS AVAILABLE BY GOING TO
  • 00:25:43.280 --> 00:25:47.150
  • THAT 800 NUMBER.
  • 00:25:47.170 --> 00:25:49.210
  • I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT IT FEELS LIKE IN
  • 00:25:49.230 --> 00:25:53.180
  • THIS BEAUTIFUL AFTERNOON, YOU GUYS ARE JUST KIND OF
  • 00:25:53.200 --> 00:25:56.140
  • PERFECTLY LIT AND ALL THAT.
  • 00:25:56.160 --> 00:25:58.040
  • I'D LOVE FOR YOU TO KIND OF LOOK BACK OFF THIS WAY
  • 00:25:58.060 --> 00:26:02.120
  • TO YOUR CAMERA, AND I KNOW THAT THERE'S PEOPLE
  • 00:26:02.140 --> 00:26:04.100
  • IN OUR AUDIENCE THAT ARE WHERE YOU WERE A NUMBER
  • 00:26:04.120 --> 00:26:07.270
  • OF YEARS AGO THAT WITHOUT SOMETHING, RIGHT HERE
  • 00:26:07.290 --> 00:26:11.110
  • RIGHT NOW FOR TODAY, AND YOU KNOW WHAT THAT IS.
  • 00:26:11.130 --> 00:26:16.140
  • SO I'D LOVE FOR YOU GUYS TO KIND OF JUST PRAY FOR
  • 00:26:16.160 --> 00:26:18.210
  • THE AUDIENCE, AND THEN WE'LL WRAP UP WITH A FEW
  • 00:26:18.230 --> 00:26:21.100
  • THINGS. JUST KIND OF TALK TO THEM FOR A MINUTE
  • 00:26:21.120 --> 00:26:23.180
  • IF YOU WOULD BRIAN. THIS IS AMAZING.
  • 00:26:23.200 --> 00:26:26.020
  • - LORD, I JUST PRAY FOR PEOPLE OUT THERE THAT ARE
  • 00:26:26.040 --> 00:26:29.050
  • GOING THROUGH THE IMPOSSIBLE SITUATIONS,
  • 00:26:29.070 --> 00:26:31.250
  • WHETHER IT'S A MENTAL THING, PHYSICAL,
  • 00:26:31.270 --> 00:26:34.020
  • RELATIONAL, WHATEVER IT IS, YOU'RE THE GOD OF THE
  • 00:26:34.040 --> 00:26:39.110
  • IMPOSSIBLE, AND I CONSIDER IT A GIFT WHEN
  • 00:26:39.130 --> 00:26:43.050
  • YOU'RE OUR ONLY OPTION.
  • 00:26:43.070 --> 00:26:45.020
  • I PRAY THAT YOU GIVE THESE PEOPLE THAT LIGHT
  • 00:26:45.040 --> 00:26:49.100
  • AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL I SAW THAT DAY WITH MY
  • 00:26:49.120 --> 00:26:50.290
  • KIDS. YOU'D SHOW THEM THAT.
  • 00:26:51.010 --> 00:26:53.010
  • GIVE THEM SOMETHING TO HANG ON TO.
  • 00:26:53.030 --> 00:26:54.120
  • GIVE THEM A WORD, A VERSE OR SOMETHING AND MAKE IT
  • 00:26:54.140 --> 00:26:56.080
  • REALLY CLEAR TO THEM THAT YOU'RE SPEAKING TO THEM
  • 00:26:56.100 --> 00:26:58.080
  • AND THAT YOU HAVE ONLY GOOD IN MIND FOR US.
  • 00:26:58.100 --> 00:27:04.020
  • AND IF IT'S NOT HOPEFUL, IT'S NOT THE END.
  • 00:27:04.040 --> 00:27:07.290
  • SO I JUST SPEAK WHAT YOU DID OVER ME OVER THESE
  • 00:27:08.010 --> 00:27:10.150
  • PEOPLE, ANYONE THAT'S GOING THROUGH, ESPECIALLY
  • 00:27:10.170 --> 00:27:12.180
  • ANXIETY, MENTAL DISORDER, ANY OF THOSE TYPE OF
  • 00:27:12.200 --> 00:27:16.000
  • THINGS OR STRESS RELATED STUFF, I JUST SPEAK THAT
  • 00:27:16.020 --> 00:27:18.250
  • PEACE THAT PASSES ALL HUMAN UNDERSTANDING, THAT
  • 00:27:18.270 --> 00:27:22.170
  • PEACE IN THE PANIC, THAT PEACE THAT COMES WHEN IT
  • 00:27:22.190 --> 00:27:24.180
  • DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE.
  • 00:27:24.200 --> 00:27:26.100
  • EVERYTHING CAN BE CRASHING AROUND BUT
  • 00:27:26.120 --> 00:27:27.270
  • THERE'S THIS INTERNAL PEACE THAT ONLY CAN
  • 00:27:27.290 --> 00:27:30.110
  • BE FROM YOU, LORD.
  • 00:27:30.130 --> 00:27:31.230
  • I PRAY FOR THAT KIND OF PEACE FOR THESE SITUATIONS.
  • 00:27:31.250 --> 00:27:34.150
  • - FATHER, I JUST THANK YOU THAT THAT SAME VERSE
  • 00:27:34.170 --> 00:27:37.150
  • THAT YOU SPOKE OVER ME THAT THE WORST
  • 00:27:37.170 --> 00:27:38.250
  • IS NEVER THE WORST.
  • 00:27:38.270 --> 00:27:40.040
  • I SPEAK THAT OVER EVERY PERSON WATCHING RIGHT NOW
  • 00:27:40.060 --> 00:27:42.150
  • THAT NO MATTER WHAT THEY'RE GOING THROUGH,
  • 00:27:42.170 --> 00:27:44.000
  • GOD, THAT THERE IS HOPE.
  • 00:27:44.020 --> 00:27:45.160
  • I THANK YOU FOR EVEN WHAT BILL TEACHES THAT
  • 00:27:45.180 --> 00:27:47.110
  • ANYTHING THAT WITHOUT HOPE IS UNDER THE
  • 00:27:47.130 --> 00:27:50.070
  • INFLUENCE OF A LIE, AND I JUST SPEAK THAT OUT.
  • 00:27:50.090 --> 00:27:52.210
  • IF THERE'S SOMETHING THAT YOU FEEL IS HOPELESS,
  • 00:27:52.230 --> 00:27:54.110
  • I JUST SPEAK FRESH HOPE TO THAT.
  • 00:27:54.130 --> 00:27:56.040
  • LORD, I THANK YOU FOR COURAGE, THE COURAGE THAT
  • 00:27:56.060 --> 00:27:58.260
  • BRIAN TOOK TO HAVE THOSE DIFFICULT MEETINGS AND
  • 00:27:58.280 --> 00:28:02.070
  • ALL THE THINGS THAT HE WAS KIND OF STUFFING
  • 00:28:02.090 --> 00:28:04.080
  • DOWN, I THANK YOU FOR THE COURAGE THAT HE HAD LORD,
  • 00:28:04.100 --> 00:28:07.170
  • AND I PROPHESY THAT COURAGE TO PEOPLE RIGHT
  • 00:28:07.190 --> 00:28:09.210
  • NOW THAT THEY WOULD ACTUALLY PARTNER WITH
  • 00:28:09.230 --> 00:28:11.170
  • YOU, HOLY SPIRIT AS YOU LEAD THEM THROUGH WHAT
  • 00:28:11.190 --> 00:28:14.000
  • THEY NEED TO DO, WHATEVER IT IS GOD, I THANK YOU
  • 00:28:14.020 --> 00:28:16.030
  • THAT YOU IN OUR LIFE HAVE EVERY STEP OF
  • 00:28:16.050 --> 00:28:18.290
  • THE WAY IDENTIFIED.
  • 00:28:19.010 --> 00:28:20.070
  • YOU'VE LED US LIKE A GOOD SHEPHERD THAT YOU ARE IN
  • 00:28:20.090 --> 00:28:22.040
  • THE GOOD AND IN THE HARD TIMES HOLY SPIRIT.
  • 00:28:22.060 --> 00:28:24.230
  • I THANK YOU THAT YOU ARE WITH US, EMMANUEL, NO
  • 00:28:24.250 --> 00:28:27.200
  • MATTER WHAT IT IS THAT YOU WILL LEAD US AND GUIDE
  • 00:28:27.220 --> 00:28:30.140
  • US. SO I JUST PRAY THAT OVER EVERY PERSON WATCHING
  • 00:28:30.160 --> 00:28:32.240
  • RIGHT NOW, LORD, JUST THE EARS TO HEAR AND THE EYES
  • 00:28:32.260 --> 00:28:35.150
  • TO SEE YOU RIGHT NOW, WHATEVER THEY'RE GOING
  • 00:28:35.170 --> 00:28:38.150
  • THROUGH, LORD, AND I PRAY THAT THE REST OF THEIR
  • 00:28:38.170 --> 00:28:40.130
  • LIFE THEY'D BE LED BY YOU IN EVERY SITUATION
  • 00:28:40.150 --> 00:28:42.230
  • IN JESUS NAME.
  • 00:28:42.250 --> 00:28:44.130
  • - THANK YOU, LORD.
  • 00:28:44.150 --> 00:28:46.100
  • - YOU KNOW, I SAY THIS SO MUCH ON THE AIR, BUT
  • 00:28:46.120 --> 00:28:50.020
  • MY FAVORITE PART OF SOME OF THE SCRIPTURE IS JOB
  • 00:28:50.040 --> 00:28:54.240
  • WHERE I MEAN HE WAS A RIGHTEOUS MAN, HE WAS A
  • 00:28:54.260 --> 00:28:57.240
  • GOOD MAN, YOU KNOW?
  • 00:28:57.260 --> 00:28:59.210
  • AND HIS LIFE JUST WENT TO HELL.
  • 00:28:59.230 --> 00:29:02.210
  • HE LOST EVERYTHING, HIS FAMILY, HIS PROPERTY, HIS
  • 00:29:02.230 --> 00:29:06.250
  • COWS, HE LOST EVERYTHING WAS GONE, AND GOD
  • 00:29:06.270 --> 00:29:10.290
  • RESTORES UNTO HIM, AND HE SAYS TO GOD, HE SAID GOD,
  • 00:29:11.010 --> 00:29:14.270
  • I HAVE HEARD ABOUT YOU, I HAD HEARD ABOUT YOU ALL
  • 00:29:14.290 --> 00:29:18.140
  • THROUGH THESE YEARS BUT NOW I HAVE SEEN YOU.
  • 00:29:18.160 --> 00:29:22.280
  • AND THAT'S WHAT WE ARE SUPPOSED TO TASTE AND
  • 00:29:23.000 --> 00:29:25.170
  • SEE THAT GOD IS A GOOD GOD IN EVERYTHING.
  • 00:29:25.190 --> 00:29:29.190
  • AND WE ALWAYS THINK THAT GOD IS OUT JUST TO BEAT
  • 00:29:29.210 --> 00:29:34.100
  • US UP, BUT HE'S HERE TO SHOW US HOW GOOD HE IS TO
  • 00:29:34.120 --> 00:29:38.230
  • WHEN WE GO THROUGH OUR STUFF THAT WE SEE HIM AND
  • 00:29:38.250 --> 00:29:41.260
  • WE LOOK TO HIM FOR EVERYTHING WE NEED.
  • 00:29:41.280 --> 00:29:45.020
  • AND TO ACTUALLY DO THAT AND PULL THROUGH AND BE
  • 00:29:45.040 --> 00:29:48.120
  • ABLE TO FEED THE NATIONS WITH THAT, THAT'S WHAT
  • 00:29:48.140 --> 00:29:52.020
  • WE'RE TALKING ABOUT. THAT'S AMAZING!
  • 00:29:52.040 --> 00:29:55.010
  • - SHE'S JUST A SWEET LITTLE THING.
  • 00:29:55.030 --> 00:29:56.150
  • - I LOVE THAT.
  • 00:29:56.170 --> 00:29:58.140
  • - THE FIRST TIME WE EVER WROTE TOGETHER WAS CALLED
  • 00:29:58.160 --> 00:30:00.290
  • OH, TASTE AND SEE THAT THE LORD WAS GOOD.
  • 00:30:01.010 --> 00:30:03.070
  • THAT WAS THE FIRST SONG WE EVER WROTE.
  • 00:30:03.090 --> 00:30:04.170
  • - THAT WAS YOUR FIRST SONG?
  • 00:30:04.190 --> 00:30:05.180
  • - YEAH, EVER, TOGETHER.
  • 00:30:05.200 --> 00:30:07.210
  • - CAN YOU SING A LITTLE BIT OF THAT RIGHT NOW?
  • 00:30:07.230 --> 00:30:09.250
  • JUST A LITTLE BIT.
  • 00:30:09.270 --> 00:30:12.230
  • [SINGING] TASTE AND SEE THAT THE LORD IS GOOD...
  • 00:30:12.250 --> 00:30:15.000
  • - IT HAD HAND MOTIONS AND EVERYTHING.
  • 00:30:15.020 --> 00:30:16.100
  • - TEACH THEM TO US.
  • 00:30:16.120 --> 00:30:18.030
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:30:18.050 --> 00:30:20.120
  • - YOU CAN FIND IT ON YOU TUBE.
  • 00:30:20.140 --> 00:30:22.090
  • - WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE SONG YOU'VE WRITTEN?
  • 00:30:22.110 --> 00:30:26.210
  • - OH, WOW.
  • 00:30:26.230 --> 00:30:30.060
  • MINE IS PROBABLY A SONG CALLED COME TO ME.
  • 00:30:30.080 --> 00:30:34.260
  • JESUS, WE COME TO YOU...
  • 00:30:34.280 --> 00:30:39.230
  • 'CAUSE YOU'RE ALL WE NEED...
  • 00:30:39.250 --> 00:30:45.050
  • AND WE COME TO YOU, FAITH AND STRENGTH!
  • 00:30:45.070 --> 00:30:52.080
  • - JENN: IT'S A SONG THAT I WAS WRITING FOR ONE OF OUR
  • 00:30:52.100 --> 00:30:56.100
  • ALBUMS, AND I LAID ON THE FLOOR IN MY ROOM AND SAID
  • 00:30:56.120 --> 00:30:58.190
  • GOD, THERE'S A LOT ON MY HEART TO WRITE,
  • 00:30:58.210 --> 00:31:00.240
  • BUT WHAT DO YOU WANT?
  • 00:31:00.260 --> 00:31:02.090
  • WHAT DO YOU WANT THE WHOLE WORLD TO KNOW THAT
  • 00:31:02.110 --> 00:31:04.210
  • WOULD BE IMPORTANT TO MAKE IT ON THIS ALBUM?
  • 00:31:04.230 --> 00:31:06.260
  • AND I JUST CLEARED MY MIND AND JUST ASKED THE
  • 00:31:06.280 --> 00:31:09.040
  • HOLY SPIRIT TO SHOW ME, AND INSTANTLY-- AT THE
  • 00:31:09.060 --> 00:31:11.070
  • TIME THERE WAS SO MANY NATURAL DISASTERS HAPPENING.
  • 00:31:11.090 --> 00:31:14.090
  • THIS WAS YEARS AGO, AND IT WAS JUST IF YOU
  • 00:31:14.110 --> 00:31:16.260
  • WEREN'T HAVING ONE WHERE YOU WERE AT, YOU WERE
  • 00:31:16.280 --> 00:31:18.150
  • FEARING ONE WAS GONNA FLOOD OR JUST ALL
  • 00:31:18.170 --> 00:31:20.250
  • THESE TERRIBLE THINGS.
  • 00:31:20.270 --> 00:31:23.090
  • SO I JUST SAW THOSE THINGS HAPPENING AND
  • 00:31:23.110 --> 00:31:26.000
  • I SAW THE LORD SAY I'M WITH THEM IN THIS.
  • 00:31:26.020 --> 00:31:28.230
  • I'M THE GOD OF ISAAC, JACOB, THIS ETERNAL GOD
  • 00:31:28.250 --> 00:31:32.050
  • THAT KINDNESS OF GOD, BUT IT WAS LIKE A BIBLICAL
  • 00:31:32.070 --> 00:31:35.250
  • SEVERITY OF I AM WITH THEM AND THEY HAVE
  • 00:31:35.270 --> 00:31:37.250
  • NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT.
  • 00:31:37.270 --> 00:31:39.150
  • AND I KNEW THAT THE SPIRIT OF FEAR THAT THESE
  • 00:31:39.170 --> 00:31:41.190
  • NATURAL DISASTERS WERE BRINGING THAT THE LORD
  • 00:31:41.210 --> 00:31:43.230
  • WANTED TO JUST SILENCE THOSE FEARS LIKE A TIDAL WAVE.
  • 00:31:43.250 --> 00:31:47.080
  • SO I JUST BEGAN TO WRITE OUT WHAT HE WAS SAYING TO
  • 00:31:47.100 --> 00:31:49.040
  • ME, AND I THINK IT'S "I AM YOUR ANCHOR IN THE
  • 00:31:49.060 --> 00:31:52.210
  • WIND AND THE WAVES, I AM YOUR STEADFAST,
  • 00:31:52.230 --> 00:31:54.130
  • DO NOT BE AFRAID."
  • 00:31:54.150 --> 00:31:56.140
  • IT'S JUST THIS SONG THAT'S PERSONAL TO ME
  • 00:31:56.160 --> 00:31:59.250
  • BECAUSE IT'S WAY BEYOND THIS NATURAL DISASTER.
  • 00:31:59.270 --> 00:32:02.090
  • IT'S VERY PERSONAL TO ME IN MY LIFE.
  • 00:32:02.110 --> 00:32:04.200
  • BUT I THINK IT'S MY FAVORITE BECAUSE IT WAS
  • 00:32:04.220 --> 00:32:06.230
  • LIKE BEING A FUNNEL FOR WHAT-- AND I KNEW THAT
  • 00:32:06.250 --> 00:32:11.080
  • THAT'S WHAT GOD WAS SAYING.
  • 00:32:11.100 --> 00:32:12.150
  • IT BECAME, IT SPREAD LIKE WILDFIRE BECAUSE I THINK
  • 00:32:12.170 --> 00:32:14.270
  • THAT'S WHAT GOD WANTED HIS PEOPLE TO KNOW.
  • 00:32:14.290 --> 00:32:18.000
  • - WHAT SONG--
  • 00:32:18.020 --> 00:32:20.150
  • - WHAT'S YOURS BRIAN?
  • 00:32:20.170 --> 00:32:21.290
  • - WELL, WHAT SONG IS THE ONE THAT MOST EVERYONE
  • 00:32:22.010 --> 00:32:24.250
  • KNOWS? LIKE WHICH ONE HAS LIKE BEEN SUNG THE MOST
  • 00:32:24.270 --> 00:32:30.130
  • OR BEEN REPEATED MOST OR BEEN YOU KNOW WHAT.
  • 00:32:30.150 --> 00:32:35.150
  • - THERE'S A HANDFUL OF THEM THAT WOULD PROBABLY
  • 00:32:35.170 --> 00:32:38.290
  • GO HEAD-TO-HEAD ON THAT.
  • 00:32:39.010 --> 00:32:41.090
  • - LIKE WHAT?
  • 00:32:41.110 --> 00:32:42.140
  • - ONE THING REMAINS.
  • 00:32:42.160 --> 00:32:45.120
  • THIS ONE THING REMAINS...
  • 00:32:45.140 --> 00:32:58.040
  • YOUR LOVE NEVER FAILS, IT NEVER GIVES UP...
  • 00:32:58.060 --> 00:33:01.100
  • IT NEVER RUNS OUT ON ME...
  • 00:33:01.120 --> 00:33:04.160
  • YOUR LOVE NEVER FAILS...
  • 00:33:04.180 --> 00:33:06.140
  • IT NEVER GIVES UP...
  • 00:33:06.160 --> 00:33:08.010
  • IT NEVER RUNS OUT ON ME...
  • 00:33:08.030 --> 00:33:09.260
  • - MATT: ONE THING REMAINS. TALK ABOUT THAT SONG.
  • 00:33:09.280 --> 00:33:13.140
  • - I HAD THE CHORUS DURING-- THE CHORUS IS A
  • 00:33:13.160 --> 00:33:16.260
  • HUNDRED PERCENT SPONTANEOUS DURING A BAPTISM.
  • 00:33:16.280 --> 00:33:19.180
  • YOUR LOVE NEVER FAILS, NEVER GIVES UP,
  • 00:33:19.200 --> 00:33:20.280
  • NEVER RUNS OUT ON ME.
  • 00:33:21.000 --> 00:33:22.280
  • I HAD IT FOR SEVEN YEARS.
  • 00:33:23.000 --> 00:33:24.230
  • - SEVEN YEARS!
  • 00:33:24.250 --> 00:33:26.140
  • - WOW!
  • 00:33:26.160 --> 00:33:27.270
  • I'VE HEARD IT 20 MILLION TIMES IN MY HEAD.
  • 00:33:27.290 --> 00:33:29.270
  • - YOU'RE WELCOME.
  • 00:33:29.290 --> 00:33:33.140
  • YOUR LOVE NEVER FAILS, IT NEVER GIVES UP...
  • 00:33:33.160 --> 00:33:36.080
  • IT NEVER RUNS OUT ON ME...
  • 00:33:36.100 --> 00:33:39.000
  • YOUR LOVE NEVER FAILS...
  • 00:33:39.020 --> 00:33:40.270
  • IT NEVER GIVES UP...
  • 00:33:40.290 --> 00:33:42.210
  • IT NEVER RUNS OUT ON ME...
  • 00:33:42.230 --> 00:33:45.220
  • YOUR LOVE NEVER FAILS...
  • 00:33:45.240 --> 00:33:47.090
  • IT NEVER GIVES UP...
  • 00:33:47.110 --> 00:33:49.050
  • IT NEVER RUNS OUT ON ME...
  • 00:33:49.070 --> 00:33:52.140
  • - SO SEVEN YEARS THAT CHORUS WAS THERE WITHOUT
  • 00:33:52.160 --> 00:33:55.020
  • VERSUS OR A BRIDGE, AND SOME FRIENDS MOVED TO
  • 00:33:55.040 --> 00:33:57.070
  • TOWN AND HEARD ME DO IT, AND WE END UP CO-WRITING.
  • 00:33:57.090 --> 00:34:00.110
  • WE FINISHED THE SONG.
  • 00:34:00.130 --> 00:34:02.040
  • AND THEN NO LONGER SLAVES, THAT'S ANOTHER
  • 00:34:02.060 --> 00:34:04.160
  • ONE OF OURS.
  • 00:34:04.180 --> 00:34:07.150
  • - OKAY, GO TO NO LONGER SLAVES BECAUSE
  • 00:34:07.170 --> 00:34:09.160
  • EVERYBODY'S HEARD THAT SONG.
  • 00:34:09.180 --> 00:34:11.080
  • - WE RECORDED IT RIGHT OVER THERE.
  • 00:34:11.100 --> 00:34:12.190
  • ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THIS MOUNTAIN, WE RECORDED OUR
  • 00:34:12.210 --> 00:34:15.080
  • WHOLE ALBUM, WE WILL NOT BE SHAKEN.
  • 00:34:15.100 --> 00:34:17.050
  • - OVER AT YOUR FRIEND'S HOUSE.
  • 00:34:17.070 --> 00:34:18.190
  • - WE'LL LOOK AT IT LATER.
  • 00:34:18.210 --> 00:34:19.290
  • - YOU AND ME. OKAY.
  • 00:34:20.010 --> 00:34:22.210
  • BUT WHERE WERE YOU WHEN THAT GOT--HOW DID THAT
  • 00:34:22.230 --> 00:34:27.180
  • SONG COME ABOUT?
  • 00:34:27.200 --> 00:34:29.030
  • - JOHNNY HOUSER SENT THIS LITTLE IDEA, AND
  • 00:34:29.050 --> 00:34:33.100
  • THEN WE STARTED WORKING ON IT CO-WRITING ON THAT
  • 00:34:33.120 --> 00:34:38.070
  • SONG, AND 20 MINUTES BEFORE WE RECORDED IT
  • 00:34:38.090 --> 00:34:41.110
  • LIVE OVER THERE WHERE WE'RE GONNA GO TONIGHT IN
  • 00:34:41.130 --> 00:34:43.170
  • A LITTLE BIT, YOU AND ME, I REMEMBER SITTING THERE
  • 00:34:43.190 --> 00:34:47.060
  • WITH JOHNNY AND MEL, AND BECAUSE I HAD WROTE THE
  • 00:34:47.080 --> 00:34:49.220
  • BRIDGE, MELODY AND TEACHING THE BRIDGE MELODY,
  • 00:34:49.240 --> 00:34:52.160
  • AND IT WENT THROUGH A MILLION LYRIC REVISIONS.
  • 00:34:52.180 --> 00:34:55.190
  • I THINK ONE OF THE BRIDGE LYRICS WAS "YOU DROWN MY
  • 00:34:55.210 --> 00:34:57.190
  • FOES IN BRIGHT RED BLOOD."
  • 00:34:57.210 --> 00:34:59.150
  • NOW YOU AND ME WOULD HAVE BEEN FINE WITH THAT
  • 00:34:59.170 --> 00:35:01.070
  • LYRIC, BUT I DON'T THINK THE GREATER CHURCH
  • 00:35:01.090 --> 00:35:03.220
  • WOULD HAVE BEEN.
  • 00:35:03.240 --> 00:35:05.120
  • SO YOU DROWN MY FEARS IN PERFECT LOVE.
  • 00:35:05.140 --> 00:35:08.240
  • OKAY, THERE WE GO.
  • 00:35:08.260 --> 00:35:10.090
  • SO I FELT LIKE JOEL HOUSTON WOULDN'T SING THE
  • 00:35:10.110 --> 00:35:12.260
  • OTHER BUT HE'D SING YOU DROWN MY FEARS IN PERFECT
  • 00:35:12.280 --> 00:35:15.110
  • LOVE. SO WE SAID THAT'S IT.
  • 00:35:15.130 --> 00:35:17.210
  • THEN WE RECORDED IT, AND THE AMAZING THING
  • 00:35:17.230 --> 00:35:20.030
  • HAPPENED THE FIRST TIME THEY EVER SANG IT LIVE
  • 00:35:20.050 --> 00:35:22.120
  • WAS THAT NIGHT, AND EVERYTHING WAS KEPT FROM
  • 00:35:22.140 --> 00:35:25.060
  • THAT NIGHT AND THEY LEARNED IT, SHE LEARNED
  • 00:35:25.080 --> 00:35:29.050
  • THE MELODY 20 MINUTES BEFORE.
  • 00:35:29.070 --> 00:35:31.030
  • - SAY THE WORDS AGAIN?
  • 00:35:31.050 --> 00:35:32.230
  • - YOU SPLIT THE SEA SO I COULD WALK RIGHT THROUGH,
  • 00:35:32.250 --> 00:35:36.120
  • YOU DOWN MY FEARS IN PERFECT LOVE.
  • 00:35:36.140 --> 00:35:39.010
  • - IT'S A JOHNNY AND MELISSA SONG THAT
  • 00:35:39.030 --> 00:35:40.120
  • I HELPED THEM WITH.
  • 00:35:40.140 --> 00:35:42.040
  • - THEY'RE INCREDIBLE.
  • 00:35:42.060 --> 00:35:43.140
  • YOU SPLIT THE SEA SO I COULD WALK...
  • 00:35:43.160 --> 00:35:46.160
  • RIGHT THROUGH IT...
  • 00:35:46.180 --> 00:35:49.060
  • MY FEARS ARE DROWNED IN PERFECT LOVE...
  • 00:35:49.080 --> 00:35:55.000
  • YOU RESCUED ME...
  • 00:35:55.020 --> 00:35:57.230
  • - AND THEN THE CHORUS, I AM A CHILD, THEN YOU SING
  • 00:35:57.250 --> 00:36:02.210
  • SUPER BIG AND SUPER LOUD AT THE END.
  • 00:36:02.230 --> 00:36:04.210
  • - SUPER BIG AND SUPER LOUD, THAT'S US.
  • 00:36:04.230 --> 00:36:06.060
  • THAT'S BETHEL MUSIC IN A BOTTLE RIGHT THERE.
  • 00:36:06.080 --> 00:36:08.010
  • - BIG!
  • 00:36:08.030 --> 00:36:10.270
  • I AM A CHILD OF GOD!
  • 00:36:10.290 --> 00:36:16.080
  • FULL OF FAITH, YES, I AM A CHILD OF GOD!
  • 00:36:16.100 --> 00:36:24.030
  • I AM A CHILD OF GOD!
  • 00:36:24.050 --> 00:36:29.000
  • - OKAY, ANOTHER SONG THAT EVERYONE'S HEARD,
  • 00:36:29.020 --> 00:36:30.180
  • BIG ONES.
  • 00:36:30.200 --> 00:36:32.020
  • - FOREVER WOULD DEFINITELY BE, [SINGING] FOREVER HE...
  • 00:36:32.040 --> 00:36:34.250
  • - WHERE DID THAT GET WRITTEN AND WHAT'S
  • 00:36:34.270 --> 00:36:37.120
  • THE STORY THERE?
  • 00:36:37.140 --> 00:36:38.260
  • - IT'S ALWAYS AN ETERNAL PROCESS WITH ME.
  • 00:36:38.280 --> 00:36:41.230
  • FIFTEEN WRITERS AND TEN YEARS TO MAKE.
  • 00:36:41.250 --> 00:36:44.100
  • - MATT: REALLY?
  • 00:36:44.120 --> 00:36:45.280
  • - YEAH, BECAUSE IT HAS TO BE RIGHT.
  • 00:36:46.000 --> 00:36:47.270
  • SO I REMEMBER IT HAD LYRICS, AND WE WENT INTO
  • 00:36:47.290 --> 00:36:51.000
  • THE STUDIO TO RECORD IT, AND ONE OF THE GUYS, THEY
  • 00:36:51.020 --> 00:36:53.080
  • WERE GENERIC LYRICS, AND HE POPS OUT THE MOON
  • 00:36:53.100 --> 00:36:56.060
  • AND STARS THEY WEPT.
  • 00:36:56.080 --> 00:36:58.290
  • IT DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE,
  • 00:36:59.010 --> 00:37:00.230
  • BUT WE'RE LIKE IT WORKS THOUGH.
  • 00:37:00.250 --> 00:37:02.180
  • AND THEN THERE WAS ANOTHER ONE AT THE END OF
  • 00:37:02.200 --> 00:37:03.290
  • THAT PRE-CHORUS THAT SAID RENDERED YOU
  • 00:37:04.010 --> 00:37:06.060
  • DEFEATED, THE GROUND BEGAN TO SHAKE, THE STONE
  • 00:37:06.080 --> 00:37:09.080
  • WAS ROLLED AWAY, HIS PERFECT LOVE WOULD NOT BE
  • 00:37:09.100 --> 00:37:11.000
  • OVERCOME, NOW DEATH WHERE IS YOUR STING, OUR
  • 00:37:11.020 --> 00:37:12.290
  • RESURRECTED KING HAS RENDERED YOU HAVE DEFEATED.
  • 00:37:13.010 --> 00:37:15.160
  • - IT'S VERY BRAVE HEART!
  • 00:37:15.180 --> 00:37:18.270
  • - I'M A RHYME GUY, SO IT'S LIKE AWE, BUT
  • 00:37:18.290 --> 00:37:21.130
  • THERE WAS SOMETHING... WE'RE DOING IT.
  • 00:37:21.150 --> 00:37:23.150
  • WE'RE DOING IT.
  • 00:37:23.170 --> 00:37:25.240
  • NOW DEATH WHERE IS YOUR STING...
  • 00:37:25.260 --> 00:37:30.250
  • OUR RESURRECTED KING...
  • 00:37:30.270 --> 00:37:34.050
  • HAS RENDERED YOU DEFEATED...
  • 00:37:34.070 --> 00:37:39.070
  • FOREVER HE IS GLORIFIED...
  • 00:37:39.090 --> 00:37:45.170
  • FOREVER HE IS LIFTED HIGH..
  • 00:37:45.190 --> 00:37:52.170
  • FOREVER HE IS RISEN...
  • 00:37:52.190 --> 00:37:58.060
  • HE IS OUR GOD...
  • 00:37:58.080 --> 00:38:02.150
  • - I REMEMBER THE FIRST TIME I LED IT WITH THAT
  • 00:38:02.170 --> 00:38:04.120
  • UPDATE AND IT WAS COMPLETE, I REMEMBER IT.
  • 00:38:04.140 --> 00:38:06.090
  • - THAT WAS FIRE.
  • 00:38:06.110 --> 00:38:07.200
  • - THEN WE HAD ALREADY RECORDED IT AND WE LED
  • 00:38:07.220 --> 00:38:09.090
  • IT, AND THEN JENN OVER HERE AT THE END OF THE
  • 00:38:09.110 --> 00:38:12.190
  • SONG STARTED PLAYING THAT CHORUS CHORD PROGRESSION,
  • 00:38:12.210 --> 00:38:15.040
  • SHE SPONTANEOUSLY POPS OUT "WE SING HALLELUJAH,
  • 00:38:15.060 --> 00:38:19.120
  • WE SING HALLELUJAH, THE LAMB IS OVERCOME."
  • 00:38:19.140 --> 00:38:21.200
  • AND RIGHT AFTER THAT I TOLD THE GUYS I SAID
  • 00:38:21.220 --> 00:38:23.160
  • SCRAP THE RECORDING, THIS IS THE PART THAT IT
  • 00:38:23.180 --> 00:38:26.190
  • NEEDED, AND THEN WE RECORDED IT THE
  • 00:38:26.210 --> 00:38:28.040
  • FOLLOWING WEEK, AND THAT WAS THAT SONG.
  • 00:38:28.060 --> 00:38:29.270
  • - THAT'S AWESOME!
  • 00:38:29.290 --> 00:38:33.070
  • - YEAH, WE WERE SITTING IN THE ROOM WITH A GUY
  • 00:38:33.090 --> 00:38:35.030
  • THAT SAID, WE NEED A SONG THAT IS ABOUT -- I SAID
  • 00:38:35.050 --> 00:38:38.110
  • THERE ARE SOME CERTAIN THINGS THAT I CAN'T SAY
  • 00:38:38.130 --> 00:38:40.040
  • ON VIDEO, NOT THAT I SAID BAD THINGS.
  • 00:38:40.060 --> 00:38:42.060
  • I SAID I JUST NEED THE SONG TO FEEL LIKE A
  • 00:38:42.080 --> 00:38:44.200
  • PUNCH IN THE FACE.
  • 00:38:44.220 --> 00:38:46.120
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:38:46.140 --> 00:38:48.000
  • - BRAVE HEART, YEAH.
  • 00:38:48.020 --> 00:38:50.080
  • - WHAT CHRIST DID ON THE CROSS AND THROUGH THE
  • 00:38:50.100 --> 00:38:52.080
  • RESURRECTION, LITERALLY IT WAS LIKE
  • 00:38:52.100 --> 00:38:53.170
  • THE CHAMPION SKIT.
  • 00:38:53.190 --> 00:38:55.010
  • - TOTALLY, THE CARMAN SKIT, YEAH.
  • 00:38:55.030 --> 00:38:56.280
  • - I SAID I WANT THIS To FEEL, I WANT THIS TO FEEL --
  • 00:38:57.000 --> 00:38:58.230
  • - YES, WE MENTIONED CARMAN.
  • 00:38:58.250 --> 00:39:00.160
  • - AND RALLIED EVERYONE UP AND THEN WE WERE ABLE
  • 00:39:00.180 --> 00:39:03.190
  • TO DO THAT, SO ANYWAYS.
  • 00:39:03.210 --> 00:39:06.030
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:39:06.050 --> 00:39:08.000
  • - SO WILD. - YOU MENTIONED CARMAN.
  • 00:39:08.020 --> 00:39:10.260
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:39:10.280 --> 00:39:12.290
  • - YOU HAVE TO MENTION CARMAN.
  • 00:39:13.010 --> 00:39:14.150
  • - I LOVE CARMAN.
  • 00:39:14.170 --> 00:39:16.240
  • - IF YOU DON'T KNOW THE ARCHY ARCHY IN A CARMAN
  • 00:39:16.260 --> 00:39:18.160
  • SONG, I DON'T IF I CAN HANG OUT WITH YOU.
  • 00:39:18.180 --> 00:39:20.180
  • - YEAH, CARMAN, I KNOW HIM PRETTY WELL.
  • 00:39:20.200 --> 00:39:22.220
  • HI, CARMAN.
  • 00:39:22.240 --> 00:39:25.030
  • SO BRIAN AND JENN, THEY DO MUSIC, AND IT'S CALLED
  • 00:39:25.050 --> 00:39:30.270
  • BETHEL MUSIC, OKAY?
  • 00:39:30.290 --> 00:39:33.030
  • AND IT'S KIND OF A THING GLOBALLY, AND WE ARE HERE.
  • 00:39:33.050 --> 00:39:37.030
  • WE CAME ALL THE WAY UP HERE TO SET.
  • 00:39:37.050 --> 00:39:40.000
  • CAN YOU TELL US WHERE WE ARE?
  • 00:39:40.020 --> 00:39:41.200
  • I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE WE ARE.
  • 00:39:41.220 --> 00:39:43.170
  • WE'RE AT LIKE ONE OF YOUR FRIEND'S HOUSE.
  • 00:39:43.190 --> 00:39:45.010
  • - YES.
  • 00:39:45.030 --> 00:39:46.140
  • - OKAY, BUT THIS GUY WHO THIS IS HIS HOUSE UP ON
  • 00:39:46.160 --> 00:39:48.070
  • THIS BEAUTIFUL MOUNTAIN IS AMAZING BECAUSE HE'S
  • 00:39:48.090 --> 00:39:51.000
  • AN INTEGRAL PART OF OUR STORY.
  • 00:39:51.020 --> 00:39:53.080
  • HE CAME TO A LEADERS ADVANCE.
  • 00:39:53.100 --> 00:39:54.220
  • HE LIVED DOWN SOUTH.
  • 00:39:54.240 --> 00:39:56.140
  • HE USED TO WORK WITH KEITH GREEN AGES AGO,
  • 00:39:56.160 --> 00:39:58.170
  • AND SO HE JUST LOVED AUTHENTIC WORSHIP, AND HE
  • 00:39:58.190 --> 00:40:00.180
  • WOULD COME TO THE BETHEL LEADERS ADVANCES.
  • 00:40:00.200 --> 00:40:02.170
  • AND WE WERE LEADING WORSHIP, WE WERE JUST
  • 00:40:02.190 --> 00:40:05.220
  • TOGETHER, AND THIS GUY CAME UP AND GAVE US A
  • 00:40:05.240 --> 00:40:08.290
  • WORD, JUST A KIND DAD.
  • 00:40:09.010 --> 00:40:10.180
  • YOU KNOW, YOU COULD JUST TELL.
  • 00:40:10.200 --> 00:40:12.210
  • SO HE ENDED UP, HE GAVE US A WORD, AND HE JUST
  • 00:40:12.230 --> 00:40:14.110
  • SAID THERE'S SOMETHING ON YOUR LIFE.
  • 00:40:14.130 --> 00:40:15.280
  • IT'S REALLY AUTHENTIC, AND I JUST FEEL LIKE I'M
  • 00:40:16.000 --> 00:40:18.010
  • SUPPOSED TO SOW INTO YOU, AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT
  • 00:40:18.030 --> 00:40:19.170
  • THAT LOOKS LIKE.
  • 00:40:19.190 --> 00:40:21.110
  • AND WE COULD JUST TELL, AND HE WAS A FRIEND OF
  • 00:40:21.130 --> 00:40:23.020
  • THE HOUSE, BUT THIS GUY SINGLE HANDEDLY BELIEVED
  • 00:40:23.040 --> 00:40:24.240
  • IN US WAY IN THE BEGINNING, 1999 - 2000.
  • 00:40:24.260 --> 00:40:27.010
  • AND HE SOWED INTO US WITH
  • 00:40:27.030 --> 00:40:28.230
  • ENCOURAGEMENT, WITH DINNERS.
  • 00:40:28.250 --> 00:40:30.100
  • HE WROTE US A BLANK CHECK TO RECORD OUR FIRST
  • 00:40:30.120 --> 00:40:34.030
  • ALBUM; NEVER HAS ONCE EVER ASKED FOR
  • 00:40:34.050 --> 00:40:36.260
  • ANYTHING IN RETURN.
  • 00:40:36.280 --> 00:40:38.220
  • HE JUST LOVES AND BELIEVES IN AUTHENTIC
  • 00:40:38.240 --> 00:40:40.160
  • WORSHIP, AND HE'S JUST A PRECIOUS SOUL.
  • 00:40:40.180 --> 00:40:42.210
  • AND THEN HE ENDED UP BUYING THIS PROPERTY
  • 00:40:42.230 --> 00:40:45.000
  • BECAUSE HIS INITIAL GOAL WAS FOR THIS TO BE A
  • 00:40:45.020 --> 00:40:47.160
  • RETREAT CENTER FOR WORSHIPPERS TO WRITE AND CREATE.
  • 00:40:47.180 --> 00:40:51.180
  • AND ALMOST EVERY WORSHIP LEADER I KNOW FROM AROUND
  • 00:40:51.200 --> 00:40:53.210
  • THE WORLD HAS BEEN TO THIS PROPERTY.
  • 00:40:53.230 --> 00:40:55.110
  • - SO WHERE ARE WE EXACTLY?
  • 00:40:55.130 --> 00:40:56.290
  • WE'RE KIND OF ABOVE --
  • 00:40:57.010 --> 00:40:59.120
  • - WE'RE IN A LAKE HEAD ABOVE REDDING.
  • 00:40:59.140 --> 00:41:01.080
  • - OKAY, AND WE'RE WAY UP, LIKE ALMOST AT THE
  • 00:41:01.100 --> 00:41:02.260
  • TOP OF THE HILL, AREN'T WE?
  • 00:41:02.280 --> 00:41:04.060
  • - WE'RE HIGH.
  • 00:41:04.080 --> 00:41:05.160
  • - 3.000 FEET ABOVE REDDING I THINK.
  • 00:41:05.180 --> 00:41:07.030
  • - YEAH, THIS IS THE TOP, BUT IT OVERLOOKS REDDING.
  • 00:41:07.050 --> 00:41:09.010
  • - SO THIS IS YOUR PLACE. YOU DEER HUNT HERE.
  • 00:41:09.030 --> 00:41:12.100
  • YOU DO ALL OF THAT STUFF HERE.
  • 00:41:12.120 --> 00:41:13.270
  • YOU RUN AROUND LOOK A CRAZY PERSON.
  • 00:41:13.290 --> 00:41:15.250
  • - LEGALLY, ALL LEGALLY WITH TAGS, YES, YES.
  • 00:41:15.270 --> 00:41:18.270
  • - OF COURSE. - HE'S LIKE A DAD TO US.
  • 00:41:18.290 --> 00:41:21.070
  • - THERE ARE DEER EVERYWHERE.
  • 00:41:21.090 --> 00:41:23.120
  • - WE DO, AND I COOK IT, I COOK IT.
  • 00:41:23.140 --> 00:41:25.070
  • - ALL I KNOW IS OCCASIONALLY, WHEN I'M IN
  • 00:41:25.090 --> 00:41:29.040
  • THE WOODS, THE LORD CALLS A DEER HOME.
  • 00:41:29.060 --> 00:41:31.270
  • THAT'S ALL THAT HAPPENS. SO WE'RE HERE IN REDDING.
  • 00:41:31.290 --> 00:41:35.160
  • THIS IS A BEAUTIFUL AFTERNOON BY THE WAY.
  • 00:41:35.180 --> 00:41:38.060
  • BRIAN AND JENN JOHNSON.
  • 00:41:38.080 --> 00:41:40.000
  • ALSO, THE BOOK IS AVAILABLE "WHEN GOD
  • 00:41:40.020 --> 00:41:43.060
  • BECOMES REAL", THE WHOLE STORY.
  • 00:41:43.080 --> 00:41:45.270
  • BUT THIS IS AN AMAZING AFTERNOON.
  • 00:41:45.290 --> 00:41:47.250
  • BEAUTIFUL, THE SUN KIND OF COOPERATED.
  • 00:41:47.270 --> 00:41:50.280
  • - IT GOT IN MY LEFT EYE ABOUT TEN MINUTES AGO.
  • 00:41:51.000 --> 00:41:54.030
  • - RIGHT?
  • 00:41:54.050 --> 00:41:55.270
  • - IT WAS ROUGH ON YOU FOR A LITTLE BIT.
  • 00:41:55.290 --> 00:41:57.140
  • - WE'RE GOOD NOW. - THIS IS SMOKE.
  • 00:41:57.160 --> 00:41:59.150
  • - JUST TOUGHEN YOU UP.
  • 00:41:59.170 --> 00:42:01.230
  • SO DOWN HERE IS LAKE SHASTA, BIG LAKE IN
  • 00:42:01.250 --> 00:42:03.180
  • NORTHERN CALIFORNIA IS WHERE WE ARE.
  • 00:42:03.200 --> 00:42:05.100
  • OKAY, SO YOUR LOGO IS A DEAR WITH ANTLERS.
  • 00:42:05.120 --> 00:42:08.070
  • - IT IS.
  • 00:42:08.090 --> 00:42:09.290
  • - SO WHERE'D THAT COME FROM?
  • 00:42:10.010 --> 00:42:11.270
  • - IT WASN'T MY IDEA.
  • 00:42:11.290 --> 00:42:13.200
  • - OKAY, WHERE DID IT COME FROM?
  • 00:42:13.220 --> 00:42:15.110
  • - YOU KNOW WHEN YOU HAVE A REALLY GOOD TEAM WHEN
  • 00:42:15.130 --> 00:42:16.260
  • THEY DO STUFF, AND YOU DON'T TELL THEM TO.
  • 00:42:16.280 --> 00:42:18.290
  • THEY JUST START THINKING LIKE YOU.
  • 00:42:19.010 --> 00:42:20.160
  • AND ACTUALLY, I WILL SAY THIS --
  • 00:42:20.180 --> 00:42:22.030
  • - IT HAS A LOT OF MEANING.
  • 00:42:22.050 --> 00:42:23.150
  • - IT HAS A LOT OF MEANING.
  • 00:42:23.170 --> 00:42:25.040
  • WE HAD ALL OF THESE -- NOT TO GET OVERLY
  • 00:42:25.060 --> 00:42:26.200
  • SPIRITUAL, BUT LET GET A LITTLE.
  • 00:42:26.220 --> 00:42:28.210
  • WE HAD ALL OF THESE PROPHETIC WORDS ABOUT
  • 00:42:28.230 --> 00:42:30.100
  • HINDS FEET IN HIGH PLACES AND ALL OF THESE
  • 00:42:30.120 --> 00:42:32.030
  • THINGS, AND THE PERSON THAT GAVE THESE WORDS
  • 00:42:32.050 --> 00:42:33.230
  • DIDN'T KNOW THAT WE HAD JUST COME UP WITH THIS LOGO.
  • 00:42:33.250 --> 00:42:35.160
  • AND SO I FEEL LIKE IT'S PROPHETIC BUT IT'S ALSO
  • 00:42:35.180 --> 00:42:38.110
  • FUN BECAUSE I LOVE DEER HUNTING.
  • 00:42:38.130 --> 00:42:40.130
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:42:40.150 --> 00:42:42.160
  • - NO, BUT THE FUNNY THING ABOUT YOU IS YOU
  • 00:42:42.180 --> 00:42:45.000
  • EQUALLY LOVE DEER.
  • 00:42:45.020 --> 00:42:47.000
  • HE LOVES TO WATCH THEM.
  • 00:42:47.020 --> 00:42:49.160
  • - WAIT, GOD, PEOPLE, FOOD, HUNTING.
  • 00:42:49.180 --> 00:42:52.080
  • - I THINK IF YOU HAD NO HUNTING DESIRE --
  • 00:42:52.100 --> 00:42:55.230
  • - GOD, DEER, FOOD, PEOPLE.
  • 00:42:55.250 --> 00:42:57.060
  • - HE LOVES DEER.
  • 00:42:57.080 --> 00:42:59.000
  • - YEAH, IT'S KIND OF -- IT'S MASCULINE, TOO.
  • 00:42:59.020 --> 00:43:00.270
  • WE NEED MORE OF THAT IN THE CHRISTIAN WORSHIP
  • 00:43:00.290 --> 00:43:03.190
  • THING, YOU KNOW?
  • 00:43:03.210 --> 00:43:05.200
  • - I'M UP WITH THAT.
  • 00:43:05.220 --> 00:43:07.270
  • - YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT ABSOLUTELY.
  • 00:43:07.290 --> 00:43:09.240
  • - OKAY, GOOD.
  • 00:43:09.260 --> 00:43:11.220
  • - OKAY, LAURIE AND I GET ASKED JUST A ZILLION
  • 00:43:11.240 --> 00:43:13.280
  • TIMES, WHERE SHOULD OUR KIDS LEARN HOW TO
  • 00:43:14.000 --> 00:43:18.040
  • DO ALL OF THIS STUFF?
  • 00:43:18.060 --> 00:43:20.050
  • EITHER COMMUNICATIONS OR MUSIC AND ALL THE FILM
  • 00:43:20.070 --> 00:43:24.150
  • AND ALL OF THAT KIND OF STUFF.
  • 00:43:24.170 --> 00:43:26.070
  • OKAY, SO DO YOU TRAIN SOMEONE TO SING, OR ARE
  • 00:43:26.090 --> 00:43:32.210
  • YOU JUST A BORN SINGER?
  • 00:43:32.230 --> 00:43:34.240
  • HOW DO YOU FIGURE THAT OUT?
  • 00:43:34.260 --> 00:43:37.150
  • - I THINK YOU HAVE A GOD GIFT FOR SINGING OR NOT.
  • 00:43:37.170 --> 00:43:41.080
  • I THINK EVERYONE CAN GROW.
  • 00:43:41.100 --> 00:43:43.240
  • I THINK EVERYONE SHOULD TAKE MUSIC LESSONS, BUT
  • 00:43:43.260 --> 00:43:46.110
  • YEAH, I THINK SOME PEOPLE ARE JUST NOT CALLED
  • 00:43:46.130 --> 00:43:49.070
  • TO IT, BUT IF YOU ARE.
  • 00:43:49.090 --> 00:43:50.220
  • - I AM.
  • 00:43:50.240 --> 00:43:52.050
  • - YOU ARE, YEAH, I'M JUST TRYING TO SAY IT NICELY, NO.
  • 00:43:52.070 --> 00:43:53.220
  • YOU ARE DEFINITELY CALLED TO IT.
  • 00:43:53.240 --> 00:43:55.010
  • - YOU CAN TALK.
  • 00:43:55.030 --> 00:43:57.040
  • - YOU NEED TO RUB ON ME HERE, BRIAN, BECAUSE,
  • 00:43:57.060 --> 00:43:58.170
  • YEAH. I CAN'T.
  • 00:43:58.190 --> 00:44:00.090
  • - YOU KNOW, YOU'RE CALLED TO OTHER THINGS.
  • 00:44:00.110 --> 00:44:02.060
  • BUT YOU THINK THAT WE STARTED A SCHOOL OF
  • 00:44:02.080 --> 00:44:05.280
  • WORSHIP ACTUALLY 18 YEARS AGO JUST TO HELP TRAIN
  • 00:44:06.000 --> 00:44:10.180
  • PEOPLE IN THE PRACTICAL THINGS BUT ALSO IN THE
  • 00:44:10.200 --> 00:44:12.160
  • SPIRITUAL THINGS LIKE HOW WITH CO-LEAD, HOW WE PLAY
  • 00:44:12.180 --> 00:44:14.210
  • A SONG AND THEN HEAR WHAT THE LORD IS SAYING AND
  • 00:44:14.230 --> 00:44:17.230
  • INVOLVE THAT IN WHAT WE'RE DOING AND KIND OF
  • 00:44:17.250 --> 00:44:20.060
  • JUST WHAT WE'VE LEARNED.
  • 00:44:20.080 --> 00:44:23.080
  • AND WE BRING IN THE OTHER EXPERTS AROUND THE WORLD
  • 00:44:23.100 --> 00:44:25.070
  • THAT ARE JUST REALLY INCREDIBLE IN
  • 00:44:25.090 --> 00:44:26.150
  • SPIRIT AND IN GIFT.
  • 00:44:26.170 --> 00:44:28.040
  • - OKAY BEING YOUR SCHOOL?
  • 00:44:28.060 --> 00:44:29.140
  • - YEAH?
  • 00:44:29.160 --> 00:44:31.010
  • - PARENTS AROUND THE WORLD, THEY NOW KNOW
  • 00:44:31.030 --> 00:44:35.060
  • THAT IT EXISTS. IS IT A WEEKEND THING? IS IT A MONTH THING?
  • 00:44:35.080 --> 00:44:38.020
  • IS IT A YEAR THING?
  • 00:44:38.040 --> 00:44:40.160
  • - THERE'S TWO WEEKS IN THE SUMMER HERE, BUT WE
  • 00:44:40.180 --> 00:44:43.120
  • ALSO HAVE AN ONLINE SCHOOL THAT EXISTS
  • 00:44:43.140 --> 00:44:45.230
  • YEAR-ROUND, SO PEOPLE ALL AROUND THE WORLD CAN TAKE
  • 00:44:45.250 --> 00:44:47.290
  • THE ONLINE SCHOOL.
  • 00:44:48.010 --> 00:44:49.240
  • - OKAY, IF THE PASTORS THAT ASK US, LIKE WE'RE
  • 00:44:49.260 --> 00:44:53.240
  • SUPPOSED TO KNOW, WE DON'T KNOW,
  • 00:44:53.260 --> 00:44:55.260
  • THAT'S WHY I'M ASKING YOU ON THE AIR.
  • 00:44:55.280 --> 00:44:57.260
  • SO YOU DON'T EVER HAVE TO ASK ME AGAIN, OKAY?
  • 00:44:57.280 --> 00:45:00.250
  • BUT WHAT CAN A PARENT EXPECT IF THEY SEND THEIR
  • 00:45:00.270 --> 00:45:04.190
  • KID TO THE TWO WEEK THING IN THE MIDDLE OF
  • 00:45:04.210 --> 00:45:08.100
  • THE SUMMER, AND IS IT RESERVATION ONLY KIND OF THING?
  • 00:45:08.120 --> 00:45:11.180
  • DOES IT PACK OUT?
  • 00:45:11.200 --> 00:45:13.150
  • - EVERY YEAR.
  • 00:45:13.170 --> 00:45:14.280
  • - SO YOU HAVE TO GET IN EARLY.
  • 00:45:15.000 --> 00:45:16.110
  • - OKAY, CAN YOU EXPAND IT?
  • 00:45:16.130 --> 00:45:17.190
  • BECAUSE WE'RE ABOUT TO PACK IT OUT RIGHT NOW.
  • 00:45:17.210 --> 00:45:18.280
  • - THE THING IS WE LIVE IN REDDING, AND THAT'S
  • 00:45:19.000 --> 00:45:21.050
  • THE HARDEST PART IS THERE'S JUST NOT MASSIVE VENUES.
  • 00:45:21.070 --> 00:45:24.220
  • - WHICH IS WHY WE HAVE THE ONLINE SCHOOL BECAUSE
  • 00:45:24.240 --> 00:45:27.240
  • THE AMOUNT OF PEOPLE OBVIOUSLY, YOU KNOW?
  • 00:45:27.260 --> 00:45:29.210
  • - OKAY, WHAT DO YOU THINK CAN HAPPEN FOR
  • 00:45:29.230 --> 00:45:32.070
  • SOMEONE IN TWO WEEKS WHEN THEY COME TO BETHEL SCHOOL?
  • 00:45:32.090 --> 00:45:34.210
  • - OH, WOW, IT'S AMAZING.
  • 00:45:34.230 --> 00:45:37.250
  • - I THINK THAT ONE OF THE BEST THINGS THAT
  • 00:45:37.270 --> 00:45:40.010
  • WE'VE GOT GOING FOR US HERE IS WE DIDN'T
  • 00:45:40.030 --> 00:45:41.250
  • LEARN HOW TO BE PROFESSIONAL BEFORE.
  • 00:45:41.270 --> 00:45:49.060
  • PLAYING TWO TO THREE CHORDS, TYING TO
  • 00:45:49.080 --> 00:45:51.070
  • GET HOLD OF GOD.
  • 00:45:51.090 --> 00:45:53.000
  • THAT'S WHERE WE STARTED, AND WE DIDN'T LEARN HOW
  • 00:45:53.020 --> 00:45:54.100
  • TO BE PROFESSIONAL BEFORE THAT.
  • 00:45:54.120 --> 00:45:55.220
  • SO IT FEELS A LITTLE BIT LIKE -- WE JOKE AROUND A
  • 00:45:55.240 --> 00:45:57.230
  • LOT JUST LIKE WE'RE DOING IN THIS INTERVIEW.
  • 00:45:57.250 --> 00:45:59.220
  • THAT SCHOOL, WE TELL THE REAL STORIES.
  • 00:45:59.240 --> 00:46:02.050
  • - VERY NORMAL.
  • 00:46:02.070 --> 00:46:04.020
  • - AS NORMAL AS WE CAN BE, NOT EXAGGERATING WHAT
  • 00:46:04.040 --> 00:46:06.120
  • DOESN'T NEED TO BE EXAGGERATED.
  • 00:46:06.140 --> 00:46:08.000
  • TELLING THE TRUTH IS MUCH BETTER.
  • 00:46:08.020 --> 00:46:09.190
  • YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN?
  • 00:46:09.210 --> 00:46:11.090
  • THE REAL GOD STORIES AND THEN TRYING TO TRAIN THE
  • 00:46:11.110 --> 00:46:13.080
  • KIDS TO GO AFTER THE PRESENCE OF GOD IN
  • 00:46:13.100 --> 00:46:14.290
  • WORSHIP, NOT JUST THE HOW TO DO STUFF.
  • 00:46:15.010 --> 00:46:18.220
  • AND WE FEEL LIKE THAT'S THE DNA, THE PRESENCE OF GOD.
  • 00:46:18.240 --> 00:46:22.210
  • EVERY SONG WE'VE EVER WRITTEN THAT'S DONE WELL
  • 00:46:22.230 --> 00:46:26.150
  • THAT I CAN THINK OF FROM OUR LABEL HAS COME FROM
  • 00:46:26.170 --> 00:46:29.070
  • THAT MOMENT, WHETHER IT'S A SPONTANEOUS MOMENT
  • 00:46:29.090 --> 00:46:32.000
  • WHERE SOMEONE'S GETTING BAPTIZED, AND YOU FEEL
  • 00:46:32.020 --> 00:46:34.170
  • THERE'S A SPONTANEOUS PROPHETIC MOMENT.
  • 00:46:34.190 --> 00:46:36.180
  • SO IT'S ALL BIRTHED OUT OF THAT, I WOULD SAY THE
  • 00:46:36.200 --> 00:46:39.200
  • HEART OF WORSHIP, THAT MOMENT WHERE GOD'S IN THE
  • 00:46:39.220 --> 00:46:43.110
  • ROOM, VERSUS "LEARN THESE CHORDS, AND YOU'LL BE
  • 00:46:43.130 --> 00:46:46.020
  • A WORSHIP LEADER." - TOTALLY.
  • 00:46:46.040 --> 00:46:48.120
  • - SO I'D SAY IT'S A MIX, BUT THEY GET WHO WE ARE
  • 00:46:48.140 --> 00:46:50.260
  • IF THEY COME FOR THE TWO WEEKS MORE SO.
  • 00:46:50.280 --> 00:46:53.260
  • - SO DO YOU THINK WORSHIP DOES FOR YOU?
  • 00:46:53.280 --> 00:46:56.260
  • - OH, MY. I MEAN, THE BEST EXAMPLE IN A PICTURE FORM
  • 00:46:56.280 --> 00:47:02.170
  • THAT I'VE EVER GOTTEN FROM THE LORD IS YEARS AGO I SAW
  • 00:47:02.190 --> 00:47:06.290
  • THE LORD IN HEAVEN, AND HE HAD THIS MIRROR.
  • 00:47:07.010 --> 00:47:10.100
  • HE WAS HOLDING THIS MIRROR, AND WE WERE ON
  • 00:47:10.120 --> 00:47:12.090
  • EARTH, AND WE WERE JUST PRAISING HIM AND
  • 00:47:12.110 --> 00:47:14.080
  • MAGNIFYING HIM, AND GOD, YOU'RE AMAZING,
  • 00:47:14.100 --> 00:47:16.020
  • YOU'RE WONDERFUL, YOU'RE GLORIOUS.
  • 00:47:16.040 --> 00:47:17.280
  • AND I WATCHED AS OUR PRAISE WOULD COME UP AND
  • 00:47:18.000 --> 00:47:20.170
  • MULTIPLE THINGS WOULD HAPPEN.
  • 00:47:20.190 --> 00:47:22.070
  • GOD WOULD ABSORB OUR PRAISE LIKE A HUG, AND
  • 00:47:22.090 --> 00:47:24.270
  • THEN ALSO, HE WOULD SHOUT OVER THE NATIONS
  • 00:47:24.290 --> 00:47:27.070
  • WHAT WE WERE SAYING.
  • 00:47:27.090 --> 00:47:28.250
  • SO GOD, YOU'RE AMAZING AND MAGNIFICENT, AND HE
  • 00:47:28.270 --> 00:47:30.240
  • WOULD JUST PROPHESY THAT, "YES, I AM",
  • 00:47:30.260 --> 00:47:33.030
  • OVER THE NATIONS. SO THESE TWO THINGS WERE HAPPENING.
  • 00:47:33.050 --> 00:47:36.040
  • I WAS JUST CAUGHT UP IN THIS IMAGE, LIKE WOW.
  • 00:47:36.060 --> 00:47:38.050
  • AND THEN ALSO AT THE SAME TIME, OUR PRAISE, WHAT WE
  • 00:47:38.070 --> 00:47:40.280
  • WERE SAYING TO HIM, WOULD HIT THIS MIRROR AND SHOOT
  • 00:47:41.000 --> 00:47:43.280
  • BACK, AND HE WOULD SAY, SO ARE YOU BECAUSE YOU'RE
  • 00:47:44.000 --> 00:47:45.280
  • MADE IN MY IMAGE.
  • 00:47:46.000 --> 00:47:47.200
  • AND I REMEMBER JUST WATCHING THE LORD SHOW
  • 00:47:47.220 --> 00:47:49.030
  • ME, AND I WAS LIKE OH, MY GOSH.
  • 00:47:49.050 --> 00:47:50.280
  • SO MULTIPLE THINGS WERE HAPPENING.
  • 00:47:51.000 --> 00:47:52.260
  • HE WAS DECLARING WHO HE WAS.
  • 00:47:52.280 --> 00:47:55.010
  • WE WERE BEING STRENGTHENED BY WHO HE IS.
  • 00:47:55.030 --> 00:47:57.180
  • AS WE WORSHIPPED, WE BECAME LIKE THE
  • 00:47:57.200 --> 00:47:59.170
  • ONE WE WORSHIPPED.
  • 00:47:59.190 --> 00:48:01.090
  • AND AT THE SAME TIME, HE WAS ABSORBING IT LIKE A
  • 00:48:01.110 --> 00:48:03.080
  • PAPA DOES WITH ONE OF THE GRANDBABIES'
  • 00:48:03.100 --> 00:48:04.290
  • HUGS, YOU KNOW?
  • 00:48:05.010 --> 00:48:06.180
  • SO I THINK THAT JUST IS A SMALL TASTE, BUT I THINK
  • 00:48:06.200 --> 00:48:10.020
  • SO MUCH HAPPENS WHEN WE WORSHIP.
  • 00:48:10.040 --> 00:48:12.080
  • SOMEONE SAID TO ME ONE TIME, WHY DO WE WORSHIP?
  • 00:48:12.100 --> 00:48:15.180
  • AND I JUST SAID, HOW COULD YOU NOT?
  • 00:48:15.200 --> 00:48:18.200
  • HOW COULD YOU NOT?
  • 00:48:18.220 --> 00:48:20.090
  • SO I DON'T KNOW, I THINK A LOT MORE GOES ON.
  • 00:48:20.110 --> 00:48:23.060
  • I ALWAYS THINK OF THIS PRESENT DARKNESS, THAT
  • 00:48:23.080 --> 00:48:25.070
  • FRANK PERETTI BOOK FROM YEARS AGO.
  • 00:48:25.090 --> 00:48:27.100
  • THERE'S JUST SO MUCH THAT GOES ON WHEN
  • 00:48:27.120 --> 00:48:29.000
  • WE PRAY AND WORSHIP
  • 00:48:29.020 --> 00:48:30.200
  • THAT WE JUST NEVER SEE ALL OF THIS, YOU KNOW?
  • 00:48:30.220 --> 00:48:33.030
  • WHAT DO YOU THINK?
  • 00:48:33.050 --> 00:48:35.000
  • - DO YOU WANT TO TRY TO TOP THAT?
  • 00:48:35.020 --> 00:48:36.200
  • OR ARE YOU JUST GOING TO LET HER ANSWER
  • 00:48:36.220 --> 00:48:38.050
  • THAT AND JUST DROP IT.
  • 00:48:38.070 --> 00:48:39.160
  • - I COULD.
  • 00:48:39.180 --> 00:48:40.280
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:48:41.000 --> 00:48:42.070
  • - LET HER HAVE HER MOMENT.
  • 00:48:42.090 --> 00:48:43.010
  • [LAUGHTER]
  • 00:48:43.030 --> 00:48:44.200
  • - I DO THINK THAT WORSHIP IS PUTTING -- NOT
  • 00:48:44.220 --> 00:48:47.040
  • THAT HE NEEDS TO BE PUT IN HIS RIGHTFUL PLACE --
  • 00:48:47.060 --> 00:48:48.230
  • BUT THERE'S SOMETHING THAT HAPPENS WHEN WE PUT
  • 00:48:48.250 --> 00:48:50.110
  • HIM IN HIS RIGHTFUL PLACE.
  • 00:48:50.130 --> 00:48:52.030
  • HE'S NUMBER ONE, AND WE'RE NUMBER TWO, AND
  • 00:48:52.050 --> 00:48:54.200
  • WE'RE NEVER MEANT TO BE NUMBER ONE.
  • 00:48:54.220 --> 00:48:56.270
  • OUR SPOT IS NUMBER TWO, AND WHEN THAT'S HUMILITY
  • 00:48:56.290 --> 00:48:59.070
  • OF HEART THAT JUST -- I THINK THAT ESPECIALLY IN
  • 00:48:59.090 --> 00:49:05.160
  • OUR WORLD SOMETIMES WE CAN HAVE ALL OF THESE
  • 00:49:05.180 --> 00:49:07.240
  • CRUTCHES TO WHERE WE NEVER FEEL THE PAIN OR
  • 00:49:07.260 --> 00:49:09.180
  • DESPERATE ENOUGH TO WHERE WE KNOW WE HAVE TO HAVE
  • 00:49:09.200 --> 00:49:11.150
  • GOD OR WE'RE SCREWED, YOU KNOW?
  • 00:49:11.170 --> 00:49:13.170
  • BUT WHEN WE GET TO THAT POINT WHERE WITHOUT GOD
  • 00:49:13.190 --> 00:49:15.190
  • WE'RE TOAST, IT'S SUCH A GOOD PLACE TO BE IN.
  • 00:49:15.210 --> 00:49:19.030
  • AND I THINK THAT A LOT OF TIMES WHAT WE'RE
  • 00:49:19.050 --> 00:49:21.110
  • CALLING WORSHIP ISN'T NECESSARILY WORSHIP, BUT
  • 00:49:21.130 --> 00:49:23.240
  • I THINK WHEN YOU'RE IN THAT MOMENT, AND YOU TURN
  • 00:49:23.260 --> 00:49:25.280
  • TO HIM IN FAITH -- IT'S LIKE WHEN I WENT TO MY
  • 00:49:26.000 --> 00:49:27.240
  • KIDS -- I THINK THAT'S LIKE A MOMENT OF WORSHIP.
  • 00:49:27.260 --> 00:49:29.130
  • - ABSOLUTELY.
  • 00:49:29.150 --> 00:49:31.180
  • - AND OCCASIONALLY, WE GET CAUGHT UP IN A MOMENT
  • 00:49:31.200 --> 00:49:34.120
  • OF WORSHIP DURING A WORSHIP SET, BUT THERE'S
  • 00:49:34.140 --> 00:49:36.130
  • SOMETHING ABOUT THE PRESENCE OF GOD IN MUSIC.
  • 00:49:36.150 --> 00:49:38.140
  • IT JUST IS WHAT IT IS, AND I REMEMBER MY DAD
  • 00:49:38.160 --> 00:49:41.070
  • TEACHING ME, EVEN AS A SEVEN YEARS OLD, IT'S IN
  • 00:49:41.090 --> 00:49:43.040
  • THAT BOOK, BUT JUST THE POWER OF PRAISE AND BEING
  • 00:49:43.060 --> 00:49:45.080
  • SO TORMENTED, BUT JUST SINGING SIMPLE WORSHIP SONGS.
  • 00:49:45.100 --> 00:49:48.080
  • AND THEN THE PRESENCE OF GOD COMES AND FIXES EVERYTHING.
  • 00:49:48.100 --> 00:49:50.120
  • SO THERE'S SOMETHING ABOUT IT.
  • 00:49:50.140 --> 00:49:54.180
  • - MAGNIFYING HIM.
  • 00:49:54.200 --> 00:49:56.140
  • - HE'S CONNECTED HIMSELF TO MUSIC.
  • 00:49:56.160 --> 00:49:57.270
  • - AMAZING.
  • 00:49:57.290 --> 00:49:59.240
  • - PSALMS 23 TALKS ABOUT IT. - YEAH.
  • 00:49:59.260 --> 00:50:02.070
  • - IT'S JUST REAL.
  • 00:50:02.090 --> 00:50:04.170
  • - OKAY, BETHEL MUSIC IS KIND OF A GLOBAL THING.
  • 00:50:04.190 --> 00:50:09.110
  • A LOT OF YOU THAT ARE WATCHING ALREADY KNOW THAT.
  • 00:50:09.130 --> 00:50:09.150
  • WE ARE IN REDDING, CALIFORNIA. WHERE EXACTLY AGAIN?
  • 00:50:12.060 --> 00:50:16.180
  • - JUST OUTSIDE OF REDDING.
  • 00:50:16.200 --> 00:50:18.050
  • - LAKE HEAD AREA BELOW US.
  • 00:50:18.070 --> 00:50:21.150
  • WHEN THE JIB GOES WAY UP HIGH, I THINK YOU
  • 00:50:21.170 --> 00:50:23.260
  • CAN SEE THE LAKE DOWN BELOW US, WHICH IS LAKE SHASTA.
  • 00:50:23.280 --> 00:50:28.210
  • IT'S A BIG LAKE.
  • 00:50:28.230 --> 00:50:32.160
  • AND THIS AFTERNOON, WE'VE SPENT WITH BRIAN AND JENN
  • 00:50:32.180 --> 00:50:34.220
  • JOHNSON, BETHEL MUSIC.
  • 00:50:34.240 --> 00:50:36.160
  • THEIR LATEST BOOK "WHEN GOD BECOMES REAL"
  • 00:50:36.180 --> 00:50:38.130
  • CHRONICLES YOUR ENTIRE STORY.
  • 00:50:38.150 --> 00:50:40.260
  • WHAT DO YOU WANT TO HAPPEN WHEN SOMEONE
  • 00:50:40.280 --> 00:50:43.170
  • READS THIS BOOK?
  • 00:50:43.190 --> 00:50:45.080
  • WHAT CAN HAPPEN FOR THEM?
  • 00:50:45.100 --> 00:50:49.140
  • IN CASE SOMEONE'S JUST TUNED IN AND DIDN'T HEAR
  • 00:50:49.160 --> 00:50:51.260
  • ALL THE EARLY PART AND ALL OF THAT.
  • 00:50:51.280 --> 00:50:53.200
  • WHAT DO YOU WANT THIS BOOK TO DO FOR SOMEBODY
  • 00:50:53.220 --> 00:50:55.010
  • THAT READS IT?
  • 00:50:55.030 --> 00:50:56.240
  • - WELL, I WANT THEM TO ME THAT THEY HAVE HOPE,
  • 00:50:56.260 --> 00:50:58.230
  • THAT THEY'RE GOING TO GET THROUGH WHAT
  • 00:50:58.250 --> 00:51:00.150
  • THEY'RE GOING THROUGH.
  • 00:51:00.170 --> 00:51:02.040
  • I THINK PERSONAL TESTIMONY IS THE BEST THING.
  • 00:51:02.060 --> 00:51:03.220
  • YOU WENT THROUGH SOMETHING AND LOOK AT YOU NOW.
  • 00:51:03.240 --> 00:51:05.230
  • IT'S LIKE I CAN GET THROUGH THIS BECAUSE I
  • 00:51:05.250 --> 00:51:08.050
  • THINK PEOPLE ARE GOING THROUGH STUFF THAT'S
  • 00:51:08.070 --> 00:51:09.280
  • UNIMAGINABLE, AND IN THEIR OWN WORLD,
  • 00:51:10.000 --> 00:51:11.190
  • THEY FEEL ALONE.
  • 00:51:11.210 --> 00:51:13.120
  • EVERYONE FEELS ALONE, ESPECIALLY WITH ANXIETY STUFF.
  • 00:51:13.140 --> 00:51:15.060
  • AND I THINK JUST BLOWING THAT WHOLE THING OPEN AND
  • 00:51:15.080 --> 00:51:17.010
  • TELLING THE REAL, RAW STORY, TALKING ABOUT ALL
  • 00:51:17.030 --> 00:51:19.110
  • THE REAL STUFF AND THEN SHOWING THE PROCESS AND
  • 00:51:19.130 --> 00:51:21.200
  • SEEING WHAT GOD DID.
  • 00:51:21.220 --> 00:51:23.220
  • I THINK THAT THAT'S TESTIMONY FOR EVERYONE
  • 00:51:23.240 --> 00:51:25.230
  • THAT'S GOING THROUGH IT, SO THAT THEY WOULD GET
  • 00:51:25.250 --> 00:51:28.030
  • HOPE AND GET THROUGH IT.
  • 00:51:28.050 --> 00:51:29.270
  • - IT FEELS, ALSO, THAT WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT
  • 00:51:29.290 --> 00:51:33.010
  • IS KIND OF -- ISN'T IT AT THE CORE OF WHAT BETHEL IS?
  • 00:51:33.030 --> 00:51:36.190
  • IT FEELS LIKE -- I INTERVIEWED YOUR FATHER
  • 00:51:36.210 --> 00:51:40.020
  • ONE TIME, BILL JOHNSON.
  • 00:51:40.040 --> 00:51:41.160
  • - OH, LORD.
  • 00:51:41.180 --> 00:51:43.280
  • - YEAH, THAT BILL JOHNSON.
  • 00:51:44.000 --> 00:51:45.150
  • - ADORE. - HE'S THE BEST.
  • 00:51:45.170 --> 00:51:47.270
  • - HE'S GOT THAT GOOD HAIR. - YEAH.
  • 00:51:47.290 --> 00:51:49.080
  • - HE'S THE BEST.
  • 00:51:49.100 --> 00:51:51.030
  • - YOU GOT A LOT GOING FOR YOU.
  • 00:51:51.050 --> 00:51:52.240
  • - BUT IT'S ALMOST LIKE HE SAID WE'RE GOING TO
  • 00:51:52.260 --> 00:51:54.240
  • TRY THIS THING, THIS POWER OF THE TESTIMONY
  • 00:51:54.260 --> 00:51:56.190
  • THING, AND WE'RE GOING TO, WHENEVER A TESTIMONY
  • 00:51:56.210 --> 00:51:59.020
  • COMES, AND I FEEL A CONNECTION, IT'S GOING TO
  • 00:51:59.040 --> 00:52:01.110
  • RELEASE TO OTHER PEOPLE.
  • 00:52:01.130 --> 00:52:03.220
  • THAT'S WHAT YOU HOPE YOUR BOOK IS GOING TO DO.
  • 00:52:03.240 --> 00:52:06.170
  • GET THE BOOK, READ IT, AND THEN YOU GOT THROUGH,
  • 00:52:06.190 --> 00:52:09.240
  • AND THAT'S WHAT YOU CHRONICLE.
  • 00:52:09.260 --> 00:52:11.080
  • IT'S YOUR TESTIMONY.
  • 00:52:11.100 --> 00:52:13.000
  • - DO YOU TELL IT ALL IN YOUR BOOK?
  • 00:52:13.020 --> 00:52:15.080
  • - AND THE POWER OF WORSHIP, YEAH, IT'S
  • 00:52:15.100 --> 00:52:17.110
  • DEFINITELY GOT THE GOOD, THE BAD, AND THE UGLY, YEAH.
  • 00:52:17.130 --> 00:52:19.220
  • ONLY WAY TO LIVE, VULNERABLE.
  • 00:52:19.240 --> 00:52:22.250
  • - IT'S ALL GOOD. - HEART ON YOUR SLEEVE.
  • 00:52:22.270 --> 00:52:25.040
  • - I LIKE WHAT YOU SAID.
  • 00:52:25.060 --> 00:52:27.140
  • WE'RE GOING TO HAVE -- BE THINKING OF YOUR FINAL
  • 00:52:27.160 --> 00:52:30.020
  • THOUGHTS HERE IN REGARDS TO KIND OF WHAT
  • 00:52:30.040 --> 00:52:32.010
  • WE'VE TALKED ABOUT.
  • 00:52:32.030 --> 00:52:33.250
  • BUT A LITTLE WHILE AGO, YOU SAID SOMETHING ABOUT
  • 00:52:33.270 --> 00:52:35.280
  • NOT BEING PROFESSIONAL.
  • 00:52:36.000 --> 00:52:37.230
  • YOU DIDN'T LEARN HOW TO BE A PROFESSIONAL THIS OR
  • 00:52:37.250 --> 00:52:40.060
  • THAT OR WHATEVER. WELL, I HAVE A LITTLE SECRET.
  • 00:52:40.080 --> 00:52:43.230
  • WE'RE NOT PROFESSIONAL YET.
  • 00:52:43.250 --> 00:52:47.010
  • AT LEAST YOU BECAME PROFESSIONAL AT SOMETHING.
  • 00:52:47.030 --> 00:52:49.010
  • - WE'RE NEVER GOING TO BE PROFESSIONAL.
  • 00:52:49.030 --> 00:52:51.150
  • - DON'T SAY THAT.
  • 00:52:51.170 --> 00:52:53.220
  • - WE HAVE AUDITING AND THINGS LIKE THAT TO EDIT
  • 00:52:53.240 --> 00:52:54.270
  • US TO MAKE US SOUND.
  • 00:52:54.290 --> 00:52:56.110
  • - I WISH I HAD ONE OF THOSE.
  • 00:52:56.130 --> 00:52:57.210
  • IT'S NOT FAIR.
  • 00:52:57.230 --> 00:52:59.020
  • - WE'VE SANG THE WEIRDEST STUFF.
  • 00:52:59.040 --> 00:53:01.070
  • WE HAVE -- LISTEN.
  • 00:53:01.090 --> 00:53:03.010
  • - SO THE ONLY PROFESSIONAL PEOPLE WE
  • 00:53:03.030 --> 00:53:05.120
  • HAVE ARE THE GUYS BEHIND THE CAMERA AND THE GALS
  • 00:53:05.140 --> 00:53:06.260
  • AND ALL OF THIS.
  • 00:53:06.280 --> 00:53:08.270
  • THE PROFESSIONALS ARE BEHIND THE CAMERA, AND
  • 00:53:08.290 --> 00:53:11.160
  • WE'RE THE ONES THAT ARE SITTING HERE FOR SOME REASON.
  • 00:53:11.180 --> 00:53:13.190
  • IT'S GOD'S SENSE OF HUMOR I THINK.
  • 00:53:13.210 --> 00:53:15.040
  • - PERFECT.
  • 00:53:15.060 --> 00:53:16.240
  • - GOD HAD CHOSEN THE FOOLISH TO CONFOUND THE WISE.
  • 00:53:16.260 --> 00:53:18.130
  • - ABSOLUTELY.
  • 00:53:18.150 --> 00:53:20.120
  • - IT'S MY FAVORITE THING.
  • 00:53:20.140 --> 00:53:22.020
  • - NOT SOME POLISHED THING YOU KNOW.
  • 00:53:22.040 --> 00:53:23.220
  • - THINK THE WORLD'S HUNGRY FOR IT. I THINK THE WORLD'S
  • 00:53:23.240 --> 00:53:25.210
  • HUNGRY FOR RAW.
  • 00:53:25.230 --> 00:53:27.110
  • I THINK THE WORLD'S HUNGRY FOR I HAVEN'T READ
  • 00:53:27.130 --> 00:53:27.150
  • MY BIBLE IN A COUPLE OF DAYS.
  • 00:53:28.230 --> 00:53:30.070
  • THE WORLD, THAT HAVE SEEN THE FACADE, AND THEY WANT
  • 00:53:30.090 --> 00:53:32.180
  • THE POWER OF THE TESTIMONY, AND THEY WANT
  • 00:53:32.200 --> 00:53:34.030
  • THE REAL AND THE HONEST.
  • 00:53:34.050 --> 00:53:35.290
  • I THINK THAT'S WHAT WE ALL WANT.
  • 00:53:36.010 --> 00:53:37.090
  • SO DON'T GET POLISHED.
  • 00:53:37.110 --> 00:53:39.000
  • - YEAH, YOU KNOW, I'LL SAY THIS REAL QUICK
  • 00:53:39.020 --> 00:53:42.090
  • BECAUSE YOUR TESTIMONY.
  • 00:53:42.110 --> 00:53:44.190
  • SO I WAS SITTING IN THIS RESTAURANT, AND MATT HAD
  • 00:53:44.210 --> 00:53:46.230
  • GOTTEN UP TO GO TO THE RESTROOM, AND MY SON WAS
  • 00:53:46.250 --> 00:53:51.150
  • SITTING THERE, AND ALL OF THE SUDDEN, MY WORLD JUST
  • 00:53:51.170 --> 00:53:53.200
  • WENT PITCH BLACK.
  • 00:53:53.220 --> 00:53:59.000
  • I KNEW I WAS SITTING IN THAT RESTAURANT.
  • 00:53:59.020 --> 00:54:00.190
  • I KNEW CODY WAS SITTING HERE COLORING.
  • 00:54:00.210 --> 00:54:02.230
  • I KNEW MATT WAS IN THE BATHROOM.
  • 00:54:02.250 --> 00:54:06.070
  • BECAUSE SAID A WHILE AGO, WHAT IF WE WERE THE
  • 00:54:06.090 --> 00:54:08.070
  • ONLY SPIRIT THAT WAS EVER CREATED?
  • 00:54:08.090 --> 00:54:11.060
  • AND IT WAS JUST US AND GOD, HOW WOULD THAT FEEL?
  • 00:54:11.080 --> 00:54:13.170
  • THAT'S EXACTLY THE WHAT I FELT.
  • 00:54:13.190 --> 00:54:17.030
  • I FELT LIKE I WAS THE ONLY SOUL, SPIRIT, THAT
  • 00:54:17.050 --> 00:54:20.080
  • GOD HAD EVER CREATED.
  • 00:54:20.100 --> 00:54:21.290
  • THERE WAS NO FEAR, BUT I WAS IN TOTAL PITCH
  • 00:54:22.010 --> 00:54:25.120
  • DARKNESS KNOWING THAT IT WAS JUST ME AND GOD.
  • 00:54:25.140 --> 00:54:29.030
  • AND HE SPOKE TO ME AND HE SAID, WHAT DO YOU
  • 00:54:29.050 --> 00:54:31.040
  • HAVE TO GIVE ME?
  • 00:54:31.060 --> 00:54:34.130
  • AND MY WHOLE LIFE STARTED JUST FLASHING IN FRONT OF
  • 00:54:34.150 --> 00:54:39.120
  • ME, ALMOST LIKE IT HADN'T REALLY HAPPENED BECAUSE I
  • 00:54:39.140 --> 00:54:42.040
  • THINK THAT GOES WITH THE VERSE THAT LIFE IS BUT A VAPOR.
  • 00:54:42.060 --> 00:54:45.010
  • - RIGHT, RIGHT.
  • 00:54:45.030 --> 00:54:47.110
  • - AND THE GOOD AND THE BAD AND THE UGLY AND ALL
  • 00:54:47.130 --> 00:54:49.240
  • THE DIFFERENT THINGS THAT HAPPENED IN MY LIFE; THE
  • 00:54:49.260 --> 00:54:53.050
  • TIMES THAT I WORRIED, THE TIMES THAT I HAD FEARED
  • 00:54:53.070 --> 00:54:57.110
  • THINGS, THE STRUGGLES WERE WASTED TIME.
  • 00:54:57.130 --> 00:55:01.200
  • IT FELT LIKE THE TIMES THAT I DIDN'T TRUST GOD,
  • 00:55:01.220 --> 00:55:09.280
  • I WASTED THAT TIME, AND I HATED THAT.
  • 00:55:10.000 --> 00:55:15.060
  • IT WAS A SORROWFUL FEELING.
  • 00:55:15.080 --> 00:55:17.120
  • THE ONLY TIMES THAT GOD WAS ASKING.
  • 00:55:17.140 --> 00:55:20.120
  • - THE ONLY THING YOU HAD TO GIVE HIM.
  • 00:55:20.140 --> 00:55:22.270
  • - THE ONLY THING I HAD TO BRING THAT MEANT
  • 00:55:22.290 --> 00:55:25.090
  • ANYTHING TO HIM WERE THE TIMES THAT I WALKED IN FAITH.
  • 00:55:25.110 --> 00:55:27.150
  • WHEN YOU SAID THAT I WENT TO MY KIDS, AND I SAID --
  • 00:55:27.170 --> 00:55:29.180
  • - WOW.
  • 00:55:29.200 --> 00:55:31.200
  • - THIS IS WHERE GOD GETS REAL.
  • 00:55:31.220 --> 00:55:33.130
  • IT'S THOSE TIMES WHEN LIFE SEEMS LIKE
  • 00:55:33.150 --> 00:55:36.160
  • IT'S AGAINST YOU.
  • 00:55:36.180 --> 00:55:39.000
  • YOU ARE BOMBARDED WITH THINGS FROM THE LEFT,
  • 00:55:39.020 --> 00:55:40.180
  • FROM THE RIGHT.
  • 00:55:40.200 --> 00:55:42.080
  • YOU CAN'T FIGURE IT OUT.
  • 00:55:42.100 --> 00:55:44.000
  • IT'S THOSE TIMES WHEN YOU STAND UP AND YOU DECLARE,
  • 00:55:44.020 --> 00:55:46.060
  • GOD, YOU ARE MY STRENGTH.
  • 00:55:46.080 --> 00:55:49.110
  • YOU ARE MY JOY. YOU ARE MY HEALER.
  • 00:55:49.130 --> 00:55:52.200
  • AND DECLARE WHO GOD SAYS HE IS.
  • 00:55:52.220 --> 00:55:54.290
  • THAT'S ALL HE WANTS TO HEAR IS HOW MAGNIFICENT
  • 00:55:55.010 --> 00:55:57.260
  • HE IS TO US.
  • 00:55:57.280 --> 00:56:00.020
  • AND THAT WAS ALL I HAD TO GIVE GOD.
  • 00:56:00.040 --> 00:56:02.170
  • AND I REMEMBER HE WAS GOING, OH,
  • 00:56:02.190 --> 00:56:05.210
  • I WASTED THOSE MOMENTS.
  • 00:56:05.230 --> 00:56:07.160
  • I FRETTED OVER THAT KNOWING THAT GOD WAS MY
  • 00:56:07.180 --> 00:56:10.290
  • HEALER, BUT I REMEMBERED THOSE TIMES WHERE IN THE
  • 00:56:11.010 --> 00:56:14.100
  • FACE OF THOSE CIRCUMSTANCES THAT I HAD
  • 00:56:14.120 --> 00:56:16.090
  • STOOD IN FAITH.
  • 00:56:16.110 --> 00:56:18.070
  • IF I DIED, I DIED, BUT GOD A HEALER, AND HE IS A
  • 00:56:18.090 --> 00:56:20.260
  • GREAT GOD, AND HE IS A GOOD GOD,
  • 00:56:20.280 --> 00:56:22.220
  • AND HE IS A FAITHFUL GOD.
  • 00:56:22.240 --> 00:56:24.240
  • AND IT MADE ME -- I WASN'T DYING.
  • 00:56:24.260 --> 00:56:30.250
  • I DIDN'T FEEL THAT, BUT IT WAS LIKE, OKAY, LORD,
  • 00:56:30.270 --> 00:56:33.020
  • LET THE WORST OF THE WORST HAPPEN.
  • 00:56:33.040 --> 00:56:35.290
  • AND I'M A FAITH --
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  • I GREW UP IN THE WORD OF FAITH MOVEMENT.
  • 00:56:37.100 --> 00:56:39.040
  • WE DON'T SAY THINGS LIKE THAT, BUT IT MADE ME
  • 00:56:39.060 --> 00:56:41.070
  • SAY, GOD, MAKE ME USE MY FAITH.
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  • - GIVE ME AN OPPORTUNITY.
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  • - GIVE ME THOSE OPPORTUNITIES.
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  • - TO DECLARE WHO YOU ARE WHEN I CAN'T SEE.
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  • - SO THAT WHEN I COME BACK FOR REALS, I'M GONNA
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  • HAVE A BOAT LOAD OF FAITH TO GIVE YOU.
  • 00:56:55.120 --> 00:56:57.070
  • AND WHEN YOU TALKED ABOUT GOING TO YOUR KIDS IN THE
  • 00:56:57.090 --> 00:56:59.220
  • WORST MOMENTS OF YOUR LIFE AND SAYING, THIS IS
  • 00:56:59.240 --> 00:57:02.100
  • WHERE GOD BECOMES REAL, THAT JUST REMINDED
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  • ME OF THAT STORY.
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  • - YOU'RE GOING TO HAVE THAT MOMENT TO GIVE GOD.
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  • - THAT IS A GOD MOMENT, AND THAT'S JUST AWESOME.
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  • I LOVE YOU GUYS.
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  • I THINK YOU'RE AMAZING, AND I LOVE WHAT GOD HAS
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  • DONE THROUGH AND IN YOU AND THE FRUIT AROUND THE
  • 00:57:18.170 --> 00:57:21.240
  • WORLD THAT YOU HAVE BLESSED.
  • 00:57:21.260 --> 00:57:25.060
  • - YOU MIGHT WANT TO CHECK OUT BETHEL MUSIC,
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  • IF YOU HAVEN'T.
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  • YOU MIGHT WANT TO JUST CHECK IT OUT BECAUSE IT'S
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  • KIND OF POWERFUL.
  • 00:57:30.190 --> 00:57:32.270
  • AND BRIAN AND JENN JOHNSON HAVE BEEN WITH
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  • US THE WHOLE HOUR.
  • 00:57:34.180 --> 00:57:36.060
  • THANK YOU FOR LETTING US COME UP HERE TO
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  • YOUR KIND OF PLACE.
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  • THIS IS THE RETREAT, OKAY?
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  • "WHEN GOD BECOMES REAL", THE 800 NUMBER ON THE
  • 00:57:42.140 --> 00:57:47.040
  • SCREEN IS FOR YOU.
  • 00:57:47.060 --> 00:57:48.230
  • IT'S AVAILABLE BY CALLING THAT AND WE WANT
  • 00:57:48.250 --> 00:57:50.230
  • YOU TO HAVE IT.
  • 00:57:50.250 --> 00:57:52.180
  • THANK YOU GUYS FOR BEING WITH US THIS AFTERNOON.
  • 00:57:52.200 --> 00:57:53.230
  • - FINAL WORDS?
  • 00:57:53.250 --> 00:57:55.120
  • - WE'RE SO THANKFUL FOR YOUR FAMILY AND WHAT
  • 00:57:55.140 --> 00:57:57.240
  • YOU'VE BEEN THROUGH AND JUST YOU'RE JOYFUL,
  • 00:57:57.260 --> 00:58:00.250
  • AND I THINK THAT THAT'S AMAZING.
  • 00:58:00.270 --> 00:58:02.050
  • IT SHOWS SO CLEAR.
  • 00:58:02.070 --> 00:58:03.220
  • WHAT YOU'VE GONE THROUGH, ONLY GOD KNOWS; TO BE IN
  • 00:58:03.240 --> 00:58:06.230
  • MINISTRY AND TO TAKE ON THE GIANTS THAT YOU HAVE.
  • 00:58:06.250 --> 00:58:09.160
  • BUT WE JUST HONOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY AND YOUR
  • 00:58:09.180 --> 00:58:11.210
  • LEGACY GETTING THE GOSPEL AND THE POWER OF THE
  • 00:58:11.230 --> 00:58:13.180
  • TESTIMONY TO BILLIONS OF PEOPLE. THANK YOU.
  • 00:58:13.200 --> 00:58:17.200
  • - BETHEL'S A THING. CHECK IT OUT.
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  • WE'LL SEE YOU NEXT TIME.
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  • BYE BYE FROM BEAUTIFUL NORTHERN CALIFORNIA.
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