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Hatred Turned Inward

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July 14, 2019
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Your World with Creflo

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Hatred Turned Inward

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    • Creflo Dollar: Hate.
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    • Creflo Dollar: Hate.
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    • Hate is a strong word.
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    • Hate is a strong word.
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    • It's the height of negative emotions.
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    • It's the height of negative emotions.
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    • It's all-encompassing and all-consuming.
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    • It's all-encompassing and all-consuming.
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    • But hate is exactly what our guests today
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    • But hate is exactly what our guests today
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    • feels about himself.
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    • feels about himself.
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    • Our guest today grew up in a broken home of verbal abuse and
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    • Our guest today grew up in a broken home of verbal abuse and
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    • has suffered from anxiety and self-doubt,
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    • has suffered from anxiety and self-doubt,
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    • leading him to attempt suicide twice.
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    • leading him to attempt suicide twice.
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    • Our guest lost everything and had no hope of a future.
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    • Our guest lost everything and had no hope of a future.
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    • Now, we're going to help this man today and show him that
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    • Now, we're going to help this man today and show him that
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    • God's grace is the answer.
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    • God's grace is the answer.
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    • I'm Creflo Dollar and this is "Your World."
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    • I'm Creflo Dollar and this is "Your World."
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    • Changing one life, time after time.
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    • Changing one life, time after time.
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    • Oh Lord, we do it all for you.
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    • Oh Lord, we do it all for you.
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    • Through the trials I see, I'll always believe
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    • Through the trials I see, I'll always believe
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    • a new life starts with you.
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    • a new life starts with you.
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    • Oh, change your world today.
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    • Oh, change your world today.
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    • Change is gonna come your way.
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    • Change is gonna come your way.
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    • Change and get an understanding.
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    • Change and get an understanding.
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    • His grace will transform you.
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    • His grace will transform you.
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    • Creflo: Our guest today had lost his way and his will to
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    • Creflo: Our guest today had lost his way and his will to
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    • find joy and happiness.
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    • find joy and happiness.
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    • His second attempt at suicide happened only a few months ago.
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    • His second attempt at suicide happened only a few months ago.
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    • He's here today because he knows he needs help.
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    • He's here today because he knows he needs help.
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    • Ladies and gentlemen, would you please welcome Jonathan
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    • Ladies and gentlemen, would you please welcome Jonathan
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    • to "Your World" today.
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    • to "Your World" today.
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    • Creflo: Jonathan, God bless you.
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    • Creflo: Jonathan, God bless you.
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    • Good to meet you, son.
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    • Good to meet you, son.
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    • Jonathan Parker: Nice to meet you as well.
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    • Jonathan Parker: Nice to meet you as well.
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    • Creflo: Thank you for showing up today, man.
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    • Creflo: Thank you for showing up today, man.
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    • First of all, I wanna congratulate you on your courage
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    • First of all, I wanna congratulate you on your courage
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    • to show up here today because what we're gonna do is a little
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    • to show up here today because what we're gonna do is a little
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    • tag team here today.
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    • tag team here today.
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    • Your story is gonna minister to thousands because this is
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    • Your story is gonna minister to thousands because this is
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    • something that's so prevalent right now in our nation and
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    • something that's so prevalent right now in our nation and
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    • around the world.
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    • around the world.
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    • And I believe God will use you, and your testimony,
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    • And I believe God will use you, and your testimony,
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    • and the journey you're about to take us on into your world
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    • and the journey you're about to take us on into your world
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    • to really help a lot of people to see some things and
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    • to really help a lot of people to see some things and
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    • to understand some things.
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    • to understand some things.
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    • And I'm gonna believe God for the wisdom for us to go through
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    • And I'm gonna believe God for the wisdom for us to go through
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    • this journey together and to come out
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    • this journey together and to come out
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    • with some answers, okay?
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    • with some answers, okay?
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    • So, we really appreciate you.
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    • So, we really appreciate you.
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    • Let's get started. Take us into your world.
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    • Let's get started. Take us into your world.
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    • Let's talk about--you know, this word "hate" is strong.
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    • Let's talk about--you know, this word "hate" is strong.
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    • Jonathan: It is.
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    • Jonathan: It is.
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    • Creflo: And it's really strong when the direction
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    • Creflo: And it's really strong when the direction
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    • of it goes towards yourself.
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    • of it goes towards yourself.
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    • How did this seed get in place there?
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    • How did this seed get in place there?
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    • Tell us about how you were raised and maybe we can see
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    • Tell us about how you were raised and maybe we can see
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    • some clues that will help us to understand where you
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    • some clues that will help us to understand where you
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    • are emotionally today.
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    • are emotionally today.
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    • Jonathan: As far back as I can remember,
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    • Jonathan: As far back as I can remember,
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    • I've always kind of had an internal doubt
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    • I've always kind of had an internal doubt
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    • and turned that inward.
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    • and turned that inward.
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    • I would say it probably grew through
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    • I would say it probably grew through
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    • my parents' relationship.
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    • They have fought a lot.
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    • And I just watched the way that--how they treated each
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    • And I just watched the way that--how they treated each
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    • other and how my mom would feel, 'cause my dad
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    • other and how my mom would feel, 'cause my dad
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    • was more the abuser.
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    • I realized that that was not something I wanted to put
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    • I realized that that was not something I wanted to put
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    • out into the world to make other people feel,
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    • out into the world to make other people feel,
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    • so therefore I think I started to internalize
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    • so therefore I think I started to internalize
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    • it to avoid conflict.
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    • it to avoid conflict.
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    • So, if you and I had a conflict, instead of addressing it,
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    • So, if you and I had a conflict, instead of addressing it,
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    • in the fear that it would become an anger and degrading
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    • in the fear that it would become an anger and degrading
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    • or something like that, I would just turn it inward.
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    • or something like that, I would just turn it inward.
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    • Creflo: So, you spent years bottling things up
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    • Creflo: So, you spent years bottling things up
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    • on the inside.
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    • Jonathan: Yeah, and then that would turn into anxiety.
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    • Jonathan: Yeah, and then that would turn into anxiety.
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    • The anxiety would turn into depression.
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    • The anxiety would turn into depression.
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    • And then the mixture of those two things would turn into,
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    • And then the mixture of those two things would turn into,
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    • "It would just be better if you weren't here."
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    • "It would just be better if you weren't here."
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    • Creflo: Yeah.
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    • Creflo: Yeah.
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    • Would you have times in your life where,
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    • Would you have times in your life where,
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    • What stopped you in that first attempt to commit suicide?
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    • Jonathan: So, actually, nothing stopped me.
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    • I love all of you. It's been an amazing journey.
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    • I love all of you. It's been an amazing journey.
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    • I took as many pills as I could and I thought that was it.
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    • Creflo: You're kidding me. Jonathan: No.
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    • Creflo: You're kidding me. Jonathan: No.
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    • Creflo: Ladies and gentlemen, he just defined grace.
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    • Creflo: Ladies and gentlemen, he just defined grace.
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    • Jonathan: They got the address,
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    • Jonathan: They got the address,
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    • Well, you are going through a change.
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    • Your hormones are out of whack and it really
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    • Creflo: The hormonal parts, believe it or not,
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    • How do I deal with my spirit?
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    • How do I deal with my spirit?
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    • How do I deal with my soul?
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    • How do I deal with my soul?
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    • That's where my thinker, and my feeler, and my chooser.
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    • That's where my thinker, and my feeler, and my chooser.
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    • And how do I even deal with my physical body?
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    • And how do I even deal with my physical body?
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    • Jonathan: Right.
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    • Jonathan: Right.
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    • Creflo: Look, we're gonna take a break,
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    • Creflo: Look, we're gonna take a break,
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    • and when we come back, we're gonna get the answer to that.
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    • and when we come back, we're gonna get the answer to that.
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    • We're going to discover some things that I believe will help
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    • We're going to discover some things that I believe will help
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    • Jonathan to see new light.
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    • Jonathan to see new light.
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    • And I'm just excited because the same Jonathan that walked out
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    • here just a moment ago is gonna be a different
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    • here just a moment ago is gonna be a different
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    • guy that walks away.
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    • I'll see you in just a moment.
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    • I'll see you in just a moment.
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    • [audience applauding]
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    • announcer: There is a purpose for your life.
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    • [audience applauding]
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    • Creflo: Welcome back.
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    • Creflo: Welcome back.
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    • You know, we were during the break talking about how this is
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    • You know, we were during the break talking about how this is
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    • gonna have to have a holistic approach where we deal with the
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    • gonna have to have a holistic approach where we deal with the
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    • spirit, where we deal with the soul,
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    • that's where your emotions are located,
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    • that's where your emotions are located,
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    • and where we deal with even the physical body,
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    • and where we deal with even the physical body,
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    • but there are a lot more issues that are affected
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    • And you're probably hearing more about it than we've heard in the
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    • past, but we need to hear even some more about it.
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    • past, but we need to hear even some more about it.
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    • So, one of the things I wanna start off with is,
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    • to set--let's set a platform for us to have this conversation.
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    • to set--let's set a platform for us to have this conversation.
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    • This is what I call the anatomy of life,
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    • and the anatomy of life is first of all what we are exposed to.
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    • and the anatomy of life is first of all what we are exposed to.
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    • What am I exposed to?
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    • What do I see? What have I heard?
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    • And then my exposure now, whatever that is,
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    • is gonna determine, number two, the way I think.
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    • So, I think in line with what I've been exposed to.
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    • So, I think in line with what I've been exposed to.
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    • And the way I think will determine how I feel.
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    • So, my exposure determines the way I think,
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    • the way I think determines my feelings,
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    • the way I think determines my feelings,
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    • my feelings or emotions determine the decisions I make.
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    • my feelings or emotions determine the decisions I make.
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    • Now, those decisions I make will now determine
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    • Now, those decisions I make will now determine
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    • the actions I take.
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    • the actions I take.
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    • So, I'm gonna start doing based on my decision to do.
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    • So, I'm gonna start doing based on my decision to do.
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    • When I look the actions that I'm doing,
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    • it'll take me to my habits.
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    • Actions, habits, it's the thing I now start
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    • Actions, habits, it's the thing I now start
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    • doing most of the time.
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    • doing most of the time.
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    • Your habits will take you to your,
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    • Your habits will take you to your,
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    • watch this, your character.
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    • watch this, your character.
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    • Where we are today, wherever you are today,
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    • Where we are today, wherever you are today,
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    • negatively or positively, because you took all of the
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    • proper steps to arrive at that place where you are.
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    • And so I started thinking Jonathan,
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    • And so I started thinking Jonathan,
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    • well, what if I--if I wanna change,
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    • well, what if I--if I wanna change,
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    • what do I have to do?
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    • what do I have to do?
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    • So, I need to now know the things that are gonna help me
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    • to end up in the destination that I wanna be in.
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    • Now, here's how I address this and here's where
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    • my whole life changed.
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    • I grew up in church. I went to church.
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    • I went to church because it was like,
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    • you know, it's a good thing to go to church.
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    • And I just think--I thought, "That's not gonna work for me.
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    • I've gone to church before. It doesn't work."
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    • not about going to church.
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    • It is about you understanding how to rightly divide the Word
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    • So, I took--I've been exposing myself now to the Word of God.
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    • So, I took--I've been exposing myself now to the Word of God.
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    • Whoa, all of a sudden my thinking changed in
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    • My emotions started changing in line with my thinking in line
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    • My decisions started changing in line with my emotions in line
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    • with my decisions in line with the Word.
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    • It went all the way down to my destination and I thought,
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    • I contained the thing I was exposed to,
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    • governed the way I feel, governed my decisions.
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    • You said it a couple times.
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    • That goes all the way back to the day where your dad said,
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    • an expression of anger, an expression of fear.
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    • Jonathan: Plenty of times.
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    • I can remember being younger, and you know,
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    • and you knew you were alive.
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    • You could feel it.
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    • Later in life, especially as those darker moments became more
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    • But it was like it just--I'm just kinda
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    • going through the motions.
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    • I'm taking care of everybody else around me,
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    • making sure that they have the support they need.
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    • Creflo: But not you. Jonathan: But not me.
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    • Creflo: But not you. Jonathan: But not me.
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    • Creflo: Yeah, there's a part of you that's dead,
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    • Creflo: Yeah, there's a part of you that's dead,
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    • and that part of you is your spirit.
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    • And that's what I had to realize,
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    • that this is not about a religious thing.
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    • that this is not about a religious thing.
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    • This is me trying to figure out how to turn the lights on on the
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    • This is me trying to figure out how to turn the lights on on the
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    • inside and he's the only one that can,
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    • inside and he's the only one that can,
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    • and that's when it changed.
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    • and that's when it changed.
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    • I guess you could probably have had people say, "Go to church.
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    • Just need a church.
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    • Just need a church.
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    • Just pick a church out and go to church."
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    • There's a Scripture in that Bible that says,
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    • There's a Scripture in that Bible that says,
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    • "In all your getting, get understanding."
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    • "In all your getting, get understanding."
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    • And I began to pursue, Jonathan, understanding.
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    • And I began to pursue, Jonathan, understanding.
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    • I gave my life to Jesus.
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    • I gave my life to Jesus.
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    • I was able to say, when somebody would say something bad to me,
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    • "That hurt me and I would appreciate you not saying that."
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    • "That hurt me and I would appreciate you not saying that."
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    • I realized, how can I really love people if
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    • I realized, how can I really love people if
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    • I didn't love myself?
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    • I didn't love myself?
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    • I gotta love me.
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    • I gotta love me.
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    • And when I love me, I can love others better,
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    • And when I love me, I can love others better,
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    • and God taught me how to love me.
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    • and God taught me how to love me.
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    • And that love that I have for myself began to come out,
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    • And that love that I have for myself began to come out,
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    • but something greater happened.
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    • but something greater happened.
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    • I didn't have to learn how to love me from my soul.
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    • I didn't have to learn how to love me from my soul.
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    • When I invited him to come in, he brought with him a
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    • When I invited him to come in, he brought with him a
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    • supernatural love that enabled me to love myself when I didn't
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    • supernatural love that enabled me to love myself when I didn't
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    • think I was lovely.
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    • think I was lovely.
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    • And Jonathan, I am telling you, take it from somebody who knows
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    • And Jonathan, I am telling you, take it from somebody who knows
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    • where you're coming from, I will not look back.
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    • where you're coming from, I will not look back.
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    • I have not.
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    • I have not.
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    • I don't wanna look back because there's so much
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    • I don't wanna look back because there's so much
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    • to look forward to.
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    • to look forward to.
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    • Now, I'm gonna ask you a question in a moment.
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    • Now, I'm gonna ask you a question in a moment.
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    • I want you to hear what I'm saying.
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    • I want you to hear what I'm saying.
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    • I'm not talking to you from the perspective
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    • of a therapist, a doctor.
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    • of a therapist, a doctor.
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    • I'm talking to you man to man.
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    • I'm talking to you man to man.
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    • Jonathan, you gotta invite the light to come into your life.
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    • Jonathan, you gotta invite the light to come into your life.
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    • And when you invite the light of Jesus Christ to come into your
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    • And when you invite the light of Jesus Christ to come into your
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    • life, he feels that, here's what it is, void.
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    • life, he feels that, here's what it is, void.
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    • Based on what we've talked about,
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    • would you let me pray with you and you ask
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    • would you let me pray with you and you ask
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    • Jesus to come into your life?
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    • Jesus to come into your life?
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    • Jonathan: Yeah.
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    • Jonathan: Yeah.
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    • Creflo: Can we do that together?
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    • Creflo: Can we do that together?
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    • [audience applauding]
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    • [audience applauding]
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    • Creflo: And I'm telling you, Jonathan, we believe
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    • Creflo: And I'm telling you, Jonathan, we believe
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    • that the best is yet to come.
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    • that the best is yet to come.
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    • I want those of you who are watching by television,
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    • I want those of you who are watching by television,
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    • that same advice will work for you,
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    • that same advice will work for you,
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    • and I want you to join me in this prayer.
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    • and I want you to join me in this prayer.
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    • Join me, and Jonathan, and our audience today in this prayer.
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    • Join me, and Jonathan, and our audience today in this prayer.
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    • And listen, if you pray this prayer with us,
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    • I want you to write us.
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    • I want you to write us.
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    • I want you to go online and tell us what's going on
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    • I want you to go online and tell us what's going on
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    • and what happened to you.
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    • and what happened to you.
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    • Catch hold my hand, John.
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    • Catch hold my hand, John.
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    • Father, in the name of Jesus,
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    • Father, in the name of Jesus,
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    • I thank you for this man's life.
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    • I thank you for this man's life.
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    • I thank you for his--all of his unsuccessful
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    • I thank you for his--all of his unsuccessful
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    • attempts to kill himself.
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    • attempts to kill himself.
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    • Now Jesus, we look to you.
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    • Now Jesus, we look to you.
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    • Jonathan, repeat after me. Heavenly Father.
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    • Jonathan, repeat after me. Heavenly Father.
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    • Jonathan: Heavenly Father.
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    • Jonathan: Heavenly Father.
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    • Creflo: Come into my heart.
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    • Creflo: Come into my heart.
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    • Jonathan: Come into my heart.
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    • Jonathan: Come into my heart.
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    • Creflo: Fill the void. Jonathan: Fill the void.
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    • Creflo: Fill the void. Jonathan: Fill the void.
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    • Creflo: That I've tried to fill.
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    • Creflo: That I've tried to fill.
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    • Jonathan: That I've tried to fill.
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    • Jonathan: That I've tried to fill.
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    • Creflo: Lord Jesus. Jonathan: Lord Jesus.
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    • Creflo: Lord Jesus. Jonathan: Lord Jesus.
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    • Creflo: Today. Jonathan: Today.
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    • Creflo: Today. Jonathan: Today.
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    • Creflo: I make you the Lord of my life.
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    • Creflo: I make you the Lord of my life.
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    • Jonathan: I make you the Lord of my life.
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    • Jonathan: I make you the Lord of my life.
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    • Creflo: Save me. Jonathan: Save me.
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    • Creflo: Save me. Jonathan: Save me.
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    • Creflo: Help me. Jonathan: Help me.
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    • Creflo: Help me. Jonathan: Help me.
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    • Creflo: Heal me. Jonathan: Heal me.
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    • Creflo: Heal me. Jonathan: Heal me.
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    • Creflo: I receive you now.
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    • Creflo: I receive you now.
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    • Jonathan: I receive you now.
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    • Jonathan: I receive you now.
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    • Creflo: Be the light. Jonathan: Be the light.
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    • Creflo: Be the light. Jonathan: Be the light.
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    • Creflo: That I need. Jonathan: That I need.
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    • Creflo: That I need. Jonathan: That I need.
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    • Creflo: And I declare. Jonathan: And I declare.
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    • Creflo: And I declare. Jonathan: And I declare.
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    • Creflo: No more depression.
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    • Creflo: No more depression.
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    • Jonathan: No more depression.
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    • Jonathan: No more depression.
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    • Creflo: No more self-hate.
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    • Creflo: No more self-hate.
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    • Jonathan: No more self-hate.
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    • Jonathan: No more self-hate.
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    • Creflo: No more self-doubt.
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    • Creflo: No more self-doubt.
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    • Jonathan: No more self-doubt.
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    • Jonathan: No more self-doubt.
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    • Creflo: Because of you. Jonathan: Because of you.
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    • Creflo: Because of you. Jonathan: Because of you.
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    • Creflo: I receive. Jonathan: I receive.
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    • Creflo: I receive. Jonathan: I receive.
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    • Creflo: My freedom. Jonathan: My freedom.
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    • Creflo: My freedom. Jonathan: My freedom.
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    • Creflo: In Jesus's name. Jonathan: In Jesus's name.
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    • Creflo: In Jesus's name. Jonathan: In Jesus's name.
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    • Creflo: I'm saved. Jonathan: I'm saved.
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    • Creflo: I'm saved. Jonathan: I'm saved.
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    • Creflo: Amen. Jonathan: Amen.
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    • Creflo: Amen. Jonathan: Amen.
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    • Creflo: Welcome, my friend.
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    • Creflo: Welcome, my friend.
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    • Creflo: I wanna give you something to remember this day.
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    • Creflo: I wanna give you something to remember this day.
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    • It's a grace covenant.
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    • It's a grace covenant.
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    • To Jonathan Todd Parker.
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    • To Jonathan Todd Parker.
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    • "I, Jonathan Todd Parker, accept this grace covenant provided to
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    • "I, Jonathan Todd Parker, accept this grace covenant provided to
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    • me by Creflo Dollar and agree with the following statements.
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    • me by Creflo Dollar and agree with the following statements.
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    • I believe Jesus loves me and nothing will ever change that,
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    • I believe Jesus loves me and nothing will ever change that,
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    • and I will daily flood my life with the Word of God and the
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    • and I will daily flood my life with the Word of God and the
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    • praises of his saints."
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    • praises of his saints."
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    • I signed above "Pastor and Encourager."
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    • I signed above "Pastor and Encourager."
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    • I want you to sign above "The Righteousness of God,"
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    • I want you to sign above "The Righteousness of God,"
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    • because that's exactly who you are.
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    • because that's exactly who you are.
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    • Creflo: Jonathan, I also wanna give you something to just
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    • Creflo: Jonathan, I also wanna give you something to just
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    • kinda, when you get home.
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    • kinda, when you get home.
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    • it's a teaching I did on how to win over depression.
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    • it's a teaching I did on how to win over depression.
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    • Every time that sucker knocks on the door,
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    • stick that in somewhere and listen to it,
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    • stick that in somewhere and listen to it,
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    • and that'll help you out.
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    • and that'll help you out.
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    • And I also wanna give you the book that's
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    • And I also wanna give you the book that's
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    • gonna change your life.
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    • gonna change your life.
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    • Give you a Word of God to change your life.
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    • Give you a Word of God to change your life.
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    • Now, have you ever felt alone, afraid,
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    • Now, have you ever felt alone, afraid,
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    • or worse, like, you know, like you just kinda
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    • wanted to end your life?
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    • wanted to end your life?
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    • Well, God wants you to know that he has a plan for you and he
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    • Well, God wants you to know that he has a plan for you and he
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    • wants you to discover the life you deserve.
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    • wants you to discover the life you deserve.
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    • The world will try to tell you it's hopeless,
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    • The world will try to tell you it's hopeless,
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    • that you may as well quit, but his Word says the very opposite.
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    • that you may as well quit, but his Word says the very opposite.
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    • God has healing on every level already set aside for you and
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    • God has healing on every level already set aside for you and
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    • he's just waiting for you to accept it.
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    • he's just waiting for you to accept it.
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    • Now listen, if there's something going on in your world and you
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    • Now listen, if there's something going on in your world and you
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    • need help, or if you know someone,
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    • need help, or if you know someone,
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    • a family member or friend, someone who needs help,
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    • a family member or friend, someone who needs help,
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    • please call the number on the bottom of your screen or reach
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    • please call the number on the bottom of your screen or reach
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    • out and connect with us online at yourworldwithcreflo.com.
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    • out and connect with us online at yourworldwithcreflo.com.
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    • Stay connected with me on Facebook,
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    • Stay connected with me on Facebook,
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    • Twitter, and Instagram, and know that I'd love to hear from you.
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    • Twitter, and Instagram, and know that I'd love to hear from you.
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    • I'll see you next time right here on "Your World."
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    • I'll see you next time right here on "Your World."
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    • who since the age of 15 has suffered social anxiety and
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    • who since the age of 15 has suffered social anxiety and
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    • crippling depression, and at the lowest point in his life twice
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    • crippling depression, and at the lowest point in his life twice
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    • tried to kill himself.
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    • Today on "Your World," Jonathan has finally opened up and
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    • Today on "Your World," Jonathan has finally opened up and
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    • admitted his need for help to battle his own self-hatred and
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    • self-destructive habits.
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    • He wants his self-doubt and depression to stop.
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    • He wants to live.
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    • Jonathan: As far back as I can remember,
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    • I've always kind of had an internal doubt.
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    • I would say it probably grew
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    • other and how they have fought a lot.
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    • I think I started to internalize it to avoid conflict.
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    • I think I started to internalize it to avoid conflict.
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    • Creflo: So, you spent years bottling things
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    • Jonathan: Yeah, and then that would turn into anxiety.
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    • The anxiety would turn into depression.
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    • also be suffering from depression.
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    • and over 44.000 successfully commit suicide.
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    • and over 44.000 successfully commit suicide.
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    • In his life-saving five-part DVD series,
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    • In his life-saving five-part DVD series,
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    • "Delivered from Depression," Creflo Dollar confronts
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    • depression through practical and biblical teaching.
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    • depression through practical and biblical teaching.
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    • To break free from depression, you must actively work at it.
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    • To break free from depression, you must actively work at it.
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    • You can't just put your head in the sand and ignore what you're
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    • going through, and you can't just wish your pain away either.
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    • Depression begins with your thoughts so it must be defeated
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    • Depression begins with your thoughts so it must be defeated
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    • in your mind.
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    • Creflo Dollar takes you step by step,
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    • showing how to change the way you think and feel,
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    • and help get you back on the path to joy and purpose.
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    • and help get you back on the path to joy and purpose.
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    • And if you call now, you will also receive the full,
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    • And if you call now, you will also receive the full,
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    • unedited DVD of today's program, "Hatred Turned Inward."
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    • unedited DVD of today's program, "Hatred Turned Inward."
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    • Now in its entirety, learn from Creflo Dollar's counseling of
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    • Now in its entirety, learn from Creflo Dollar's counseling of
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    • Jonathan and apply them to your own life.
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    • God has a great future prepared for you,
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    • God has a great future prepared for you,
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    • he is your way out.
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    • "Delivered from Depression," and the uncut,
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    • full interview between Creflo Dollar and Jonathan,
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    • full interview between Creflo Dollar and Jonathan,
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    • There is hope and it's time to be lifted up
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